- Date posted
- 35w ago
Masking with OCD.
Anyone else so used to making / hiding their OCD, that it’s hard to take it off and actually talk to your therapist about it?
Anyone else so used to making / hiding their OCD, that it’s hard to take it off and actually talk to your therapist about it?
Yeah, I did hide my OCD for a while. I used to have noticeable compulsions, like twitching my head or fidgeting, and anyone paying attention could see it. I remember trying so hard to suppress it at school that by the time I got home, it felt impossible to control. My sibling would sometimes tease me, so I’d end up hiding it at home too. I didn’t talk to my friends about my OCD until earlier this year. Some of them I’ve known for six years, but I’ve been keeping this hidden for three of those. I don't recall discussing it much with my therapist, but I’ve found ways to feel more comfortable talking about it with my peers.
I dont really talk about my ocd to anyone. I have opened up to a couple people, but i never really talk about it mostly because im afraid people will not understand this type of anxiety and people will think im crazy. But it does make me fidget a lot, and although nobody has told me they notice it, i don’t doubt that people around me notice how much i fidget.
Don’t feel bad for having ocd, in the long term you’ll feel proud, several doctors had told me you are a hero, knows what things trigger more Symptoms, change those with things that bring you tranquility, that the best to reduce symptoms, Best wishes
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
I have a question My OCD has felt almost invisible the past few weeks and now that is starting to stress me out a lot. Right now I am at a point in my treatement where I was asked if I would like to take medication. I told my therapist this week that I would like to try the medication based on how miserable I feel in during OCD flare ups. But now my brain always tells me that I only go throught this treatement etc. to seek attention and that I am just dramatic and should be ashamed of myself for wanting to take this medication. So now I am doubting if I should take the medication or not. Any advice?
Anyone struggle with this with having ocd?
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