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- 44w
All day rumination
And guilt and need to confess. Any tips? - it’s making me having suicidal thoughts.
And guilt and need to confess. Any tips? - it’s making me having suicidal thoughts.
Oh man, I have been there! I am sorry. Your brain has been working so hard all day down the rabbit hole of trying to fix/solve. Any chance you can give your brain a little 5 minute break and sit with yourself & extend compassion & love & grace & give your body and mind a momentary break.
Praying for you right now
Oh yea by the end of Day I'm just so tired and exhausted from intrusive thoughts as soon as I wake up. It will pass tho. I force myself to go to the gym that 90 mins helps me relax
Wow I am currently going through the exact same thing
@Anonymous I’m with you
I hear ya
Try as much as you can to preoccupy yourself with something else. Find a task if you need to. Get physically away from the place where you can most do rumination and compulsions until you are able to mentally withhold from rumination and compulsions. It's hard but doable. The relief will be worth it, more than anything rumination could give you.
@salvation Thank you 🤍🥲
Good morning. Anyone struggle with ROCD? When I think about what I have done in the past, I feel immense guilty (I feel the tightness in my chest) and have the urge to tell my partner about it, even if my partner says she doesn’t need to know if it is going to hurt her and that I need to talk to my therapist about it first. Any suggestions on how to manage the urge/urgency? Thanks!
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
I need to find a solution fast to stop this way I’m living but I don’t think it’s possible, I’m in a constant state of pain from being tormented with guilt and warped memories. I know some of the memories to be true and some are all jumbled together so they get warped. It kills me to not know if I’m evil or not , I’m always thinking of the bad things I did when I was like 13 and didn’t know much about what’s truly right and wrong. I just feel like such a bad bad person , I don’t want any form of relationships at all because then I’ll have to confess everything bad I believe I’ve done or else I’m lying to them about who I am. I don’t really want therapy because I’m not confessing these memories or thoughts to a stranger especially because I’m only 16 and very socially awkward so I won’t be able to open up about this at all. I keep most of all of this in secrecy because I know nothing truly gets rid of the guilt. I also don’t allow myself any sympathy anymore because I just think I don’t deserve that either because evil people don’t deserve any empathy , it’s so hard to live with this. I just needed to get this off my chest since I’ve got no one to talk too
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