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- 1y
All day rumination
And guilt and need to confess. Any tips? - it’s making me having suicidal thoughts.
And guilt and need to confess. Any tips? - it’s making me having suicidal thoughts.
Oh man, I have been there! I am sorry. Your brain has been working so hard all day down the rabbit hole of trying to fix/solve. Any chance you can give your brain a little 5 minute break and sit with yourself & extend compassion & love & grace & give your body and mind a momentary break.
Praying for you right now
Oh yea by the end of Day I'm just so tired and exhausted from intrusive thoughts as soon as I wake up. It will pass tho. I force myself to go to the gym that 90 mins helps me relax
Wow I am currently going through the exact same thing
@Anonymous I’m with you
I hear ya
Try as much as you can to preoccupy yourself with something else. Find a task if you need to. Get physically away from the place where you can most do rumination and compulsions until you are able to mentally withhold from rumination and compulsions. It's hard but doable. The relief will be worth it, more than anything rumination could give you.
@salvation Thank you 🤍🥲
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
I have been really really struggling for the past 3 months and haven’t been able to stop intrusive thoughts/ rumination and confessing. It’s making me question my entire life, my relationship and even who I am as a person. It’s mainly effecting my relationship, I am so afraid that I did something or think things that are definitely hurtful to my partner. I know my brain is contorting my own memory and making things seem so much worse. I also know I haven’t done anything bad, all my things I’ve confessed about have been considered “normal” and I’ve been told that “you’re normal, you didn’t do anything wrong”. But I have felt this intense sense of guilt and shame and it doesn’t go away, I can’t even be a normal person anymore. And I keep searching for “just one more thing I need to tell” and I don’t want to keep searching my brain of every time I’ve said or done anything that I can distort and make seem 1000% worse. I’m isolating myself and just feel like I’m a bad person. I keep confessing my thoughts, feeling, urges, etc. to my partner and while I know I would never do any of these I feel like my ocd is trying to convince me that maybe I would because “why else would you think it or feel guilty” and that makes it so much worse. I really need guidance on how to handle this. What do I do to stop feeling like this and heal?
I ruminated too much this morning and got distressing mental images (and confirmation) which sent me spiraling again. How do I stop thinking about this and how do I get back to myself? I feel destroyed.
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