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- 33w ago
All day rumination
And guilt and need to confess. Any tips? - it’s making me having suicidal thoughts.
And guilt and need to confess. Any tips? - it’s making me having suicidal thoughts.
Oh man, I have been there! I am sorry. Your brain has been working so hard all day down the rabbit hole of trying to fix/solve. Any chance you can give your brain a little 5 minute break and sit with yourself & extend compassion & love & grace & give your body and mind a momentary break.
Praying for you right now
Oh yea by the end of Day I'm just so tired and exhausted from intrusive thoughts as soon as I wake up. It will pass tho. I force myself to go to the gym that 90 mins helps me relax
Wow I am currently going through the exact same thing
@Anonymous I’m with you
I hear ya
Try as much as you can to preoccupy yourself with something else. Find a task if you need to. Get physically away from the place where you can most do rumination and compulsions until you are able to mentally withhold from rumination and compulsions. It's hard but doable. The relief will be worth it, more than anything rumination could give you.
@salvation Thank you 🤍🥲
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
I’m having the need to confess that I was unfaithful to my girlfriend (even though I was not) because I drank too much Saturday night and don’t remember every single second from my evening. My OCD immediately goes to that I cheated on my girlfriend and I need to confess my sins. I know it’s only OCD, but the thoughts are extremely strong. Any suggestions? Thank you, community.
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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