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anyone relate ?
Iโm going on vacation to Vegas in a month. But my OCD thoughts are getting worse & im freaking out that they will ruin my trip. How will i deal with this
Iโm going on vacation to Vegas in a month. But my OCD thoughts are getting worse & im freaking out that they will ruin my trip. How will i deal with this
Hi! I had a recent vacation that was planned for months and I had the same fear. I wanted to have fun so bad but terrified my OCD was going to ruin it. I ended up doing an exposure where I just wrote out that I was not going to have fun over and over again until I was like whatever who cares maybe I wonโt itโs just a couple days trip anyway. This helped me not put so much pressure on myself and I had the best time! Of course intrusive thoughts popped in here and there but I would just keep pushing with non engagement responses and also used some general CBT skills (breathing in to 4, holding for 2 and breathing out to 6). If you are working with a therapist see what they think and if this practice might help you too! Your life is more important than your thoughts!
I live in vegas it is easy to spend money here tbh but itโs fun especially during halloween and thereโs shows in arts district and fremont is fun too so ya just have fun donโt worry
@Noflowers808! thank you !
They are probably getting worse because you are worrying so much about OCD ruining your trip. Which is getting like a runaway train. If you donโt shut this down it could ruin your trip but I doubt it. Once there you will relax into it. Say to yourself โitโs not real and so itโs not going to ruin my trip. Itโs silly OCD thoughts. Get out of here thoughts Iโm busy.โ Get all the planning and packing done ahead. Then go about the rest of your life like the trip isnโt happening and try not to think about it till the day before. Youโre already planned and packed. Now go and have a great time. If you get overwhelmed youโre not required to do anything you donโt want to. Go to your room and chill till youโre ready for more.
@BeTrue2U i like this a lot ty so much !!!
I noticed Iโve been posting a lot these past few weeks. I just hate my brain and been having a lot of ocd Iโm very picky who Iโm intimate with. I also have a strong fear of stds/hiv very heavily. I am afraid of lots of things but I canโt live in fear so I decided to engage in intimacy last night. (TMI) I thought the condom popped, but when he showed me it was closed and sealed but my ocd brain is thinking some of it ripped. Now I know that you have to expose yourself to situations that threaten you. I also noticed that I beat myself up heavy when I do an exposure and im still paranoid and then become grateful Iโm so tired of my brain and not being able to enjoy anything sometimes: I sometimes feel like leaving this earth.
Iโm wondering if this has happened to anyone elseโฆ Iโm 28 years old. I was diagnosed with OCD when I was very young and it took a while, but I overcame it. I havenโt had any compulsions in 20 years. Iโve had some horrible things happen in the past, but nothing brought back my OCD. The only thing I struggle with is overthinking and making decisions. Im about to take a sabbatical from my work for a year to travel because the last year of my life has been by far the happiest and most confident iv ever been. I went to see a therapist a couple weeks ago who was an OCD specialist, I just wanted some tips and tricks for decision-making while Iโm on my trip. She warned me that my OCD might get worse before it gets better, but I thought that she just meant with decision-making and overthinking. They have this program set out that I didnโt really wanna do but she told me it works really well so I decided to try it. Itโs two sessions a week and the first two sessions were sort of just talking about my old OCD and doing questionnaires. I really related to some of the questionnaire questions, and the therapist was actively telling me that I definitely had OCD the whole time which made me feel bad. After our second session, my OCD came back full swing like when I was a child. I cant stop thinking about doing compulsions every waking second. Itโs been two weeks. Iโve been to her several times and nothing is helping, Iโm resisting the urge to do compulsions as much as I can and I feel like Iโm fighting for my life. Nothing is helping and Iโm burning out. I wake up and cry everyday because of how uncomfortable and out of control I feel. I never thought this would happen and im so mad at myself for ruining my trip. I feel like Iโve ruined my life tbh and even if I do get better, Iโm always gonna be bothered by the constant fear that even at the highest and most happy points in my life it could just come back at any second with no warning signs.. I thought I knew how to deal with it and had the tools, but nothing is working this time and its ruining my life. Today I asked about cancelling my trip altogether, and I might be going on medical leave. Has this happened to anybody and do you have any tips for me?
hi. so one big factor of my OCD is rumination. i met a guy who i have a crush on the idea of (idea bc there are red flags). my biggest fear is not finding true love, my ex told me no one else would deal with what i have (my ocd, specifically reassurance seeking and getting overstimulated after intimacy). a few weeks ago, my friends and family all gathered and tried to give me advice that sounded like โyouโre shy and youโll never find someone.โ after that, iโve felt off. iโve been using an unhealthy coping skill, daydreaming, and iโve just felt unbalanced. my ocd makes everything feel different sometimes, i canโt explain it. life, myself, almost like being in a dissociated state. has anyone else experienced that? i donโt know how to remain balanced during my off times and i know pms exasperates it all. i take ashwaghanda and omega 3s in a multi vitamin daily. i take them all together in the evening but iโve missed three days recently and also messed with my rocky sleep schedule because of fun times with friends. i hope these supplements work, because i donโt know if iโd be brave enough for medication. i had a bad reaction on prozac and often am forgetful. i just have been battling my OCD consciously for almost ten years now and unconsciously for longer. i am so tired, as my mental health extends beyond my OCD. iโm in talk therapy with some cbt aspects but i only see her twice a month. iโve broken down so many times and promised myself id get on track or that certain things would work, but itโs like i am stuck in a circle that gets smaller when iโm able to help myself. i just want to be normal. i want to be able to mess up my sleep schedule to enjoy good times and not suffer horrible consequences or fear that i will be entirely thrown off balance. i donโt want to worry or doubt or feel so dissociative that i squint my eyes for a moment and wonder why i feel so unreal. i will never understand why god has allowed me to go through this. i cannot let it be for nothing but i donโt know how much more to bend and contort my body and brain to get somewhere stable but how lovely it would be if i could. i donโt have much of a schedule right now, i get apathetic and give in with things from time to time. one thing can trigger me and i am back to square one wether in a week or month. any advice, any and all is so helpful. your stories, your thoughts. maybe feeling less alone and knowing what has helped you is exactly what i need right now. thank you ๐
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