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Pocd part 2
And now someone has triggered me and said that my intrusive fears 100% did happen... im so triggered... I want to honestly cease to exist... I want everything to end... Im so triggered...
And now someone has triggered me and said that my intrusive fears 100% did happen... im so triggered... I want to honestly cease to exist... I want everything to end... Im so triggered...
this was definitely not okay you do post a lot, however, that’s EXACTLY what this app is made for. if anyone has an issue they can hide your posts from their feed, the feature exists for a reason. with that being said, you will not get better if change isn’t being made. i understand it can be hard to accept the possibility of these thoughts, trust me, especially when in a spiral, but in the end it will be 100000x more better for you than spiraling like this is. you really should talk to a professional about this, you need very serious help and again without change, nothing will get better. best of luck to you
that’s so messed up for them to say, i hope you’re okay man, just ignore it.
@lb07 I think they said this because they posted about this multiple times, but that’s all I got from it
@King silly they did, and while it might be a little irritating for some people, there was zero need for them to comment that, there is a feature to remove posts from feed for a reason. i mean, this is exactly what this app was made for 🤷♀️
@vaIentine Well yes, This was rude but I don’t think they meant in that intention or anything
@vaIentine Because sometimes the other treatment is to say you did it and move on from that, yes it is a thing, so I don’t think they intended that
@King silly yeah i get that, still rude to say to a stranger struggling though
@King silly i think it was obvious how they meant it, the wording they used “this is endless with you”, and the overall tone of the message was very, very rude i know that addressing ocd in this manner is a thing, but unless you are a professional, you should not attempt to address it in this way because you lack the proper professional skills and training to do so with a proper approach their comment was unnecessary, rude, and out of pure irritation - in my opinion there was no intention to help this person, they were purely irritated. if they had wanted to help this person they wouldn’t of deleted the comment and would of clarified in replies they meant no harm - they knew they were in the wrong
@vaIentine I apologize I actually did not see the first half, I don’t even know how I missed that, but yeah that is incredibly rude, I didn’t even realize.
@King silly no you’re all good! i hope i didn’t come off as rude or condescending haha, i apologize if that is the case
Please let us know you’re okay! There’s so many people on here who are here to help and support you
i believe this person had the right intention but let it off in a tougher way than suggested. regardless, we are not here to tell you that you did or did not do something. if you’re looking for reassurance you are in the wrong place. reassurance will only lead to you looking for it over and over and over again and dig you into a deeper hole. i suggest you try to find comfort in the unknown. i understand it’s easier said than done, but it’s the best you can do. there is no way for you to have a definitive answer.
@vivi ! Im in a living hell because of the unknown... I dont want to live because of the unknown... I genuinely want my life to stop because of the unknown... I havent been able to be happy because of the unknown... theres nothing to be happy for when i cant even be certain about how my life is going to go..:
I think they were just irritated as you’ve posted the same images / post a lot , absolutely not okay to comment on someone’s post who’s quite clearly struggling a lot mentally though. I would ignore that comment.
i was thinking abt the time my ex friend randomly sent me without consent illegal stickers to mess with me me and while i didn't look at it because i didnt want it i read through the description what it was. now my brain is telling me intrusive obsessional questions such as "why is it wrong though?" and trying to convince me this thesis with "think about it", trying to make me doubt my belief. it's a question to which my answer is "obviously wrong" as for me is a dogma but my brain keeps knocking on me and persisting with multiple "why?" and "why?" and "but why' and i feel more and more uncertain, almost like believing it while not wanting it and not liking it. im not attracted to that shit, i didnt enjoy this thought process i was bothered and anxious abt it, not liking it but still distressingly seeing it through. but the obsessional question still persists, and it scared me a lot because i gave it value, i gave it validity by hearing it out and perceiving the possibility of it being true, even though i dont want it at all, I BELIEVED IT!!! i know it's clearly ocd, but i cannot tolerate the fact that i gave it validity and believed it even though not agreeing with it at all. what i want is for it to be wrong and for me to be confident about that, but this thing still happened. im very stressed and also disturbed and feel horrible for believing when i dont want to. i also had a forced egodystonic sudden thought like "huh why would it be wrong if one just did it for <pleasure>? doesn't make sense" in response to a particular disturbing ocd question but that was made it seem and placed as a generic question... as if i didn't want for it to be wrong under that generic circumstance and that is bothering me a lot, im afraid that even if it is egodystonic and i clearly dont believe it is right as i think with more effort and remove that cloud of momentary irrationality, that i still genuinely thought that for a moment, that that thought still happened, but i also remember it being an induced, automatic answer... maybe it's because it was formulated in a manner that made it for me to answer that way. maybe it was just an impulsive fast thought in reaction to the generic aspect and premise of that disturbing wrong question that wasnt thought enough and it doesn't really reflect truth and reality of what i believe. i cant tolerate that i had that thought. was i just manipulated into hearing out that question and i automatically believed that doubt and agreed with the doubt? i dont like that at all. I don't believe it is right, for me it's wrong and disgusting, so why did i have a suspension of the disbelief? im stressed the fuck out from this single moment. i hope that thought was intrusive, but also i know that i don't like it and dont agree with it, but still cannot tolerate that that thought took place. i don't know what to do. i cannot tolerate that i believed this ocd horrible take (even though not agreeing with it). im traumatised by what my ex friends did to me. im hoping it's one of the case that i call condition of existence, that in order to check a intrusive question your brain automatically sets it as "true" in the realm of that thought.
How do you deal with pocd. I mean...things that trigger you.For example someone said something really really disturbing on tik tok.And I am scared.I am scared this triggered me in the first place.Like what does it mean abt me? And I wont say what they said because is disgusting.I am scared I am a bad person and a disgusting......I am scared to go outside ( i am scared i am a...p) .And bcs of people who think like that.I am I am like them.Any advice?
I feel so triggered after another youtuber was accused of p*dophilic activity and MAP (minor attracted person) behavior and my pocd is saying that my real events ocd (from my previous past) situation is as bad or worse than theirs....
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