im scared.

im scared that i don’t think pedophilia is wrong and that i secretly think touching kids is okay because i don’t react in an angry or disgusted way towards pedophiles. every time i hear about them i just get scared that im one of them and it’s not always rooted in a fear of harming children. most of the time it feels like im just scared of being ostracized. all my other morals with other topics feel genuine but when it comes to pedophilia, i have no idea what i truly believe.

Username: JellyBeansssJellyBeansss

Date posted: 10w ago

First thing is that you are scared. The fear shows that you understand that being a p is morally wrong and you would not want to be one. Therefore that is a moral compass and it will guide you correctly. I used to get very angry about child abuse to the point I would be very unwell. I think this has triggered my theme because it’s ego dystonic which means it goes against your ego and what makes you as a person. Now that I have OCD there’s this little voice in my head when people talk about p or a story on the news or tv show saying, my emotions are more fear than anger because my brain is trying to convince me I could be one. You are not alone in these thoughts. It is just OCD being a meany.

Username: TyconiaTyconia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 10w ago

That's one of the things that continually bothers me too. I could say more but idk, it's just another fear in the end

Username: Mike✌️Mike✌️

Date posted: 10w ago

Yeah I definitely relate. I had POCD for about three years. It felt like one big identity crisis. But you’re okay. You have OCD. OCD sucks but it does not make you a monster.

Username: daveypoodaveypoo

Date posted: 10w ago

yeah im struggling with the same thing, well get thru this 🙏🏻

Username: arcruz19arcruz19

Date posted: 7w ago

I go through this too; a part of OCD specifically our subtype is researching the minds of pedos and unfortunately that can make us much more thirsty for answers for why they exist, wondering if they can be cured or if they can be good people as long as they don't act on it, feeling sorry for them, ect. I think a huge part of our anxiety is thinking about stuff that is usually completely black and white or set in stone or just thinking about things that others usually never ever think about or worry about. Trust me when I say you're not a bad person 🖤

Username: ρєαcнєѕ

Date posted: 5y ago

Can POCD make you feel like you don’t know why sexually abusing children is wrong, just that you’re afraid of becoming a child abuser for whatever reason? I’m constantly struggling to figure out why pedophilia doesn’t make me disgusted or angry enough. I feel like I’m actually a pedophile who doesn’t know it yet or is in denial. I know I shouldn’t ruminate but I feel like there’s some truth to the thing I’m constantly obsessing over.

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Username: ocdumbass

Date posted: 5y ago

(tw: pocd) ive spent the whole morning obsessing about accidentally becoming okay with the content of my intrusions that now ive stopped feeling anything when i think about my obsession. it's like. i know pedophilia is wrong. there's literally no reason it's not wrong. i also know know that im not a pedophile (i can't explain how...i just feel certain.) but now ive like,, accidentally condoned the content of my intrusive thoughts? like some part of my head has gone all philosophical and is going "yeah you aren't attracted to kids, but you used to masturbate when you were a child, and studies prove that everyone has, so why is the idea of kids being sexual bad?" (but obviously it is!! i know that!!!) is that also an intrusive thought? it's not something i personally want to believe, although i almost don't feel enough anxiety to convince myself i don't. so now im like intellectually freaking out, almost like this is my ocds last ditch attempt to throw me back into it

Username: anotherocd123

Date posted: 1y ago

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Yesterday I was helping a child change and I was touching their skin for some reason (helping them pull up their pants or something) and then I was like “wow their skin is so soft and then I had a bad thought and then backed away. I’m really scared I am I p*do pile and did I touch them inappropriately?? I don’t want that answer to be yes or else I’m gonna throw up. I feel like I should’ve backed away when I was touching their skin soft but it felt like I was in slow motion. I’m so scared.

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