- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You were kid, and that's a lot of pressure for a kid. Forgive yourself.
What you did was very shit definetly. But you should try to forgive yourself.
You need to forgive yourself for this. Was it a bad way to handle the situation? Yes. But you need to remember you were still a child at that point, and that losing your temper in one moment doesn’t make you a bad person or a bad sibling. At the end of the day, it sounds like overall you’ve been very caring and good to your younger sibling, and even the fact that you’re thinking about this so much shows that you care and love your sibling deeply.
It’s very good that you understand that what you did was wrong and acknowledge what you could have done better
everyone does shitty things when they’re young! the good thing is you recognize it was bad now and you learn and grow from your mistakes
Why were you responsible for putting your sibling to bed, and not your parents?
It is a long story, basically over the years my sister got used to sleeping in my bed because we shared a room and she’d always crawl in with me, so she would no longer go to bed on her own. Because it would sometimes take a few hours for her to fall asleep someone had to be laying with her or else she would scream, because I also had school in the morning and because we shared a room it just made more sense that I would be the person to lay with her until she fell asleep instead of my mom who could be up cleaning or spending time with my step dad.
@treehouse It was not your responsibility at all to take care of your sister, whether it was convenient or not. You were not equipped emotionally and otherwise to take care of a child. It's not on you. Forgive yourself. Completely and totally.
Thanks guys, I wasn’t looking for validation because I know it was wrong but I just wanted to share. From what I’ve seen on here, I think a lot of people with OCD can’t let things go, especially regrets. It’s horrible to feel this way because I’d like to believe I’ve redeemed myself as a sister and a friend but in reality I feel like this is something that will forever define me as a bad person. Sigh, I would love to try to work through some of these feelings in therapy but idk when I will be set up with a therapist. Thank you for listening
I have a VERY similar OCD struggle. I’ve been told it fits under moral scrupulosity. I did somethingYEARS ago as a young teenager that I really regret and it randomly popped into my mind. I could/ still cannot stop obsessing over it. My therapist had me write a VERY detailed script of the incident with my worst feared consequences from the event. My hw was to record it and listen to it on repeat. I haven’t been able to get myself to do it yet. Anyways, my point is that I 100% empathize and we should motivate each other to do erp work. :)
I am 20. Around a month ago, I suddenly remembered something very bad I did when I was ten. At the time (when I was ten), I didn’t think twice about it, but ever since I remembered it, I can’t stop thinking and obsessing over it as I do not understand how I could have ever done something so bad. It really bothers me, and now I am contemplating wether or not I am a bad person. I have read many articles about this, scanned them, looked for people who have done similar things. According to them, I have past event ocd. I can understand that, but I consider what I did too bad for it to be that. Here’s what I remember of it: When I was 10, my sister was 7, and around that age we would often just walk around naked, wrestle, and etc just like kids. This is probably why I didn’t think twice about what I did. At that time, I would hump various things, not knowing what it meant. I can faintly recollect humping my sister. I do not understand why I did it, but it bothers me a lot and makes me wonder if I am a bad person. I realise it’s horrible, but I didn’t know what I was doing at the time.
Shoudl I apologize for something I did when I was younger? I've posted about it before-- my sister was sleeping, and I put her hand in my breast. I was 10, she was 7 or 6. I feel like I should go to jail for what I did. A part of me even wants to convince my therapist that I did something wrong. I deserve to be punished, I feel like. Too many mistakes and slip ups in the past. How do I move on from mistakes that happened that hurt other people?
I feel like such a monster. I wish I could get over this obsession but it seems to always be at the back of my mind. I know sexual experimentation is normal as a child, but what I did, I think goes beyond that. I was 10, and I put my little sister’s hand on my breast while she was sleeping. For my own sexual gain or curiosity, I don’t even know at this point. I don’t think I can ever let myself live this down. I’m so disgusting and terrible and I wish I could erase what I’ve done, I really do.
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