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I appreciate this as I had existential ocd (sort of recovered since it isn’t as bad as it used to be) and currently have cardiac anxiety since I got diagnosed with PVCs. I became obsessed with my heart and it’s beating (due to the pounding and fluttering palpitations) but not in a good way. This has gotten me to realize that it is not scary but beautiful. I believe that Our Creator God (I am Muslim so I call Him Allah) created our hearts and is taking care of it by making it beat without us having to so we can focus on doing good and worshiping Him. Imagine if you had to manually make every heart beat, we would never have a chance to even live. We will be in one place just sitting there and making each beat happen and if we got tired and stopped or fell asleep we would be goners. Existential OCD sucks and it is very scary but I am glad you are able to see the beauty in it even though it is difficult. You are so strong!!

I really appreciate posts like this. I'm at the stage in my episode where I'm in a different place, everything terrifies me. It's desperately trying to find its next theme/topic that it nearly feels like GAD on steroids. My body and health are especially targetted right now, but it is nice to have a more realistic perspective. It honestly is amazing that all of this just works. Hate how I can't appreciate the wonders of the universe and our world when I feel like this.

We have a free, virtual event tonight at 8pm EST to chat about Existential OCD with our own Member Advocate and Conqueror Andrea. Would love for you to join, hear her experience with Existential OCD, connect with others and receive support in a safe, judgement-free space. To join, simply visit calendly.com/nocdmeetandgreets, and click Virtual Connect & Support for Existential OCD. You can also check out the other free virtual meetups we have there as well!