Does anyone else experience this

In the past I used to isolate myself when I was feeling bad or when my mental health became poor. now I feel like I don't want to be alone because I'm scared that when I'm alone, something bad will happen or i'll lose control and do something bad. And I feel like when I'm around someone e.g. my mom, it's easier to just let the thoughts go because at least there's someone there to verify that I haven't done anything bad.

iknowaristotle

Date posted: 20w

And please don't forget that POCD is egodystonic (or however you spell it) and it only bothers you so much because it's targeting something that stresses and scares you more than anything that's why it sticks. If it were true, than the thoughts would never bother and hurt you the way they do.

Anony1314

Date posted: 20w

@iknowaristotle Could I get some support from you on something?

🖤BrokenChaos🖤

Date posted: 20w

I understand, and this helps me a ton.

iknowaristotle

Date posted: 20w

I completely experience this too, actually I'm in the thick of it to be honest. I'm so scared to be by myself because every bone in my body wants to isolate away from everyone and get rid of this anxiety, but I sometimes feel like I cant trust any of my impulses because ‘what if it's my OCD'. It's almost like if I am alone with myself for even a moment I'm ‘letting it win'. I'm not sure if this resonates, but I hope it helps to know that your not alone and your not crazy, youre just feeling it right now. Me too my love <3

moon0270

Date posted: 20w

thank you for the kind words 🥹 I truly am sorry that you are experiencing this too. It's a horrible feeling. I get this too, because I keep thinking "what if i did it out of impulse and this is just me feeling guilty about it". I also know that no matter how much I mentally review what happened, it's never going to be enough but my brain wants me to do it anyway. It's like, I want to feel stressed because that means I'm prepared and if I relax that's when something bad will happen. I hope you have a good day, or that the thoughts at least are a little quieter 🤍

iknowaristotle

Date posted: 20w

@moon027097 Omg that's so true, like some kind of magical thinking that it's the actual stressing itself that stops the bad thing from coming true

moon0270

Date posted: 20w

@iknowaristotle yes, exactly!

iknowaristotle

Date posted: 20w

Ofc you can!

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. OVD, Tips & advice please!

does anyone else with this theme hate to be alone?? i deadass get panic attacks when i’m left alone and i sit and watch the time until whoever is coming back because im so scared. i get scared that when im alone im going to lose control and act on my thoughts. my mind goes “oh your alone now nobody would know” or “your alone so you won’t feel guilt”. i hate this so much and as much as i try to deal with it i feel it never gets better. it doesn’t help that i have agoraphobia now either. i need tips!

its_izzy

Date posted: 23w

Questioning my mental health

When im around family everything feels under control and normal and i believe that I am not struggling with anything. Almost as if im living in a bubble…But the moment i am alone i start questioning myself, my experiences, my thoughts, my emotions. I start worrying over small things or become focused on my body sensations when i think that food will not sit well with me, feel sad and emotional….idk i feel like this sounds crazy and stupid coming from a 28 year old….

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 13w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

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