Frustration

ugh im really sorry :( have you not been able to sleep yet? hope it gets better and your mind gets some rest🫂🫂 i try to remind myself too, but then it just feels like my brain dredges up new stuff. yesterday i felt like i was doing pretty good though i was still fairly anxious. then i had another moment with intrusive thoughts and urges and it just took my mood way down 😖 i hate not being able to remember things correctly because of doubt!! but you're right. we'll get there one day. i still want to have hope. sorry that you're having a rough time right now, nae nae 🤍 hope you are able to get some sleep.

@moon027097 I'm sorry! I ended up falling asleep shortly after 😭 I'm sorry that happens :( I get that. It feels never-ending at times, and the doubt is horrible! False memories are so distressing. It's weird because false memories feel "off," unlike real memories, and so whenever I've experienced them, it's like I know its not real, but...? It doesn't fully register? It's frustrating, but one day at a time until then. And thank you! I hope you get relief from that anxiety soon 🫂

@nae nae no need to apologise lol i am glad that you got some sleep!! i hope it was restful and that you woke up feeling a little better. yeah, the doubt is really scary because i've doubted myself over small things in the past as most people do but not to the extent where i feel like i can't even trust my own memories. and you're right about the false memories. i saw someone describe it a few days ago where they said they're aware something about false memories feels weird which is why we doubt that they're even real or the event actually happened like that. but the connection feels sort of foggy and so the message that it's actually false doesn't quite register with your mind. it's like the brain isn't fully aware that it's not reality or doesn't want to fully trust that the false memory isn't actually reality. anyways im waffling now lol and thank you so much!! i hope so too <3

@moon027097 And then the only way out is to learn to accept that we won't know whether or not it's real? Talk about daunting 😭

@nae nae right 😭 sometimes when i sit and think about it, the fear of learning to accept it feels suffocating and all-encompassing. but i suppose with a little effort and work and a support system as well, it is possible!! 🤍🤞🏽

thank you 🥹 <3

@moon027097 - Of course

ugh it's so infuriating!! it's like just when you experience a little bit of peace, it just finds its way in. it makes me feel quite hopeless im not gonna lie. i relate to how you're feeling. i hope it gets better and that there are brighter days ahead. sorry you're going through this. remember to take care and be kind to yourself 🫂