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I grew up in a church and I currently identify as agnostic. I 100% believe that even the most devout religious people have doubts and fears. I also stand strong in my convictions that it does not make you a bad person for questioning the existence of God. I question a lot of things about life (because it's so wonderful and there are so many things to learn! ?). Know that you are not alone and you are not your thoughts.
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Thank you ❤️
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@faith I have been dealing with the same doubts for almost my whole adult life, and I agree with hedgehogger that every else does too, we just don’t talk about it. A few years ago my ocd got ahold of the existence ofGod thing and whether God exists and whether I believe in God and what if I’m losing my faith. It’s been really shitty. I identify as a Christian, but the things I believe in have changed a lot. No one really knows whether God exists—if faith was that easy no one would have trouble believing. Mostly I now just think that God is so much bigger than I thought God could be. I can’t tell you or me definitively that God exists, but I am choosing to shape my life around the premise that he does, because doing so makes sense to me and brings me structure and foundation that I want and need. And I try to model the grace and love that Jesus showed to those around him. And that’s all I can do. I can’t force myself to believe anymore than I do, and faith will probably always be like sand in my gears. All I can do is hope. If you are a reader, I have found people like Nadia bolz-Weber, Richard rohr, Pete enns, and Frederick bruechner to be so helpful to me through this deconstruction. I see death and resurrection all around me, and the deepest hope of my being is that that is true in ways that I don’t even realize.
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That’s a really great and helpful answer, thank you ?
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Im going through the same thing. These past couple days ive been experiencing intrusive thoughts about leaving my faith because then I will be ''free". Ive also struggled with a variety of other doubts including the existence of God, and im a very active believer, trying to live out my Christianity so this is all very hard. I have a journal where ive written down evidences for my faith, including blessings or things that have happened in ny life that I attribute to God, but I know that can easily lead to reassurance.
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That’s a good idea! I’m just scared to get into thinking about it too much and documenting it, etc because then I feel like I’m being compulsive
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- 5y ago
@faith_v_e Yeah, its hard to navigate. I started doing that before I realized it was OCD so I would recommend seeking professional help.
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The worst thing is that you start to doubt yourself and lose touch with what you yourself actually believe, feeding the anxiety and feeling of being stuck. I experience relationship ocd as well so I try to remember that when I doubt that it is OCD.
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God wants you to question. If you do not question, you would only be a follower, not a believer. Religion is the search for truth, so do not be afraid. God has always been inside you and will always be there to guide you through. Even when u can't feel him there.
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❤️
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