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I have POCD you are not alone! ?
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I do!
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Ali Greymond on YouTube is helpful she has tips and recovery methods. I’ll give you some tips later though, i have to go right now!
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Something that has helped me is remembering that no matter what the theme is, it’s still OCD and it’s still just fear. The content of the thoughts don’t matter, it’s the reaction to the thoughts. ERP is the best treatment for OCD, expose yourself to the thoughts on purpose and don’t do any compulsions or rituals to ease your anxiety-it will go down on its own! Make sure not to avoid kids or things that you think could trigger your theme, because that tells your brain that this thought is actually important when it isn’t. Disregarding the thoughts and feelings will help too. Meaning when you get a thought just see it and let it go by, without reacting to it. When a thought comes into our head, we feel afraid, but that doesn’t mean we have to react to the anxiety with more anxiety. So just say “okay, whatever”, “i don’t care”, or “I know this is OCD, not me.” Or something along those lines. You are not your thoughts, these thoughts do not reflect who you are.
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Thank you all for your comments, I really appreciate them
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One time my ex and I went to his friend’s apartment. We were on a balcony outside when my ex who was holding his friend’s newborn asked me if I wanted to hold the baby. As soon as he said that I had an image of the said baby falling out of my arms and fall down onto the street below. I started to panic and told me ex not to give the baby to me. I was questioning what if my arms were weak to hold her, what if I accidentally drop her, what if it was intentional. It’s a very scary thought and you’re definitely not alone. One of the things I’ve learned is that people who suffer OCD aren’t crazy. Because we understand that we have these crazy thoughts but we are not the ones to act out on these thoughts.
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I have it
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I feel so alone. Has anyone done what I've done with POCD?
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I've never shared anything on here before but I read a lot and I will say I am thankful for this community. I have had OCD my whole life. When I was a child I remember having thoughts in my head that made me uncomfortable, although I couldn't remember what they all were. I would neutralize them with a word. I would have nightly confessions to my mom. I do remember a very specific intrusive thought about God that made me panic and I remember exactly where I was. I would wash my hands until they bled to "prevent" something bad from happening. I developed sexual Instrusive thoughts of my brother being romantically interested in me and it scared me so much, I always fought with him for the imagined fear that played in my mind. I have a bit of harm OCD and my biggest nemesis is POCD. I am in ERP therapy but my mind WILL not let me do what I need to work on because I'm living in constant fear or what if this isn't just OCD. I cut out my compulsive prayer after a thought, but my big one is mental checking. I have to gauge the perfect reaction to a thought to figure out I don't feel any way about it. My mind puts myself or children in situations to check how I feel and it's constant. I can't even call that intrusive anymore, it's an automatic compulsion. One "compulsion" I find interesting and wanted some insights on is when I see an adult on tv talking, I imagine them as a child. Not even sexually. Just how they might have acted as a child that led them to their characters personality. I also have trained my mind to think sexual relationships with adults are "dangerous" because they used to be kids. My mind will not stop ruminating, will not stop trying to show me proof of my obsession. I have dreamed of finding life since I was 9, I identify as a straight female, always interested in adult men. I've struggled with this theme since my early 20s and it started out so little, with just random words and images that I dismissed away with my compulsions but now it has spread and over taken my mind with excessive doubt.
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I'm going to preface this with: I just wanna vent a bit. Maybe show you a piece of my and many others' experiences. I just need feedback, not even reassurance. This is what some of if not most of my days look like. I keep asking if it's just OCD. I've been stuck researching and ruminating, anxious, trying to figure out whether I'm having OCD or going into the territory of sexual deviation. My thoughts involve multiple taboos and also fears of sexual abuse. I just can't tell sometimes, and I'm scared. I keep asking myself whether OCD hasn't changed my morals, why I'm desensitized to the unthinkable, and I feel like I am beyond repair. I've read about everything from arousal nonconcordance, to groinals, to even false attraction - and I'm not sure if it isn't just all cope to deny a real problem. Did I get desensitized when it came to Harm OCD too? Sure. Was I panicking? You bet I was. But it once again feels like OCD has gathered enough evidence to make me anxious again. It all feels too real, like too much. I've been anxious for the past few hours just stuck. Pure O is a living hell - if it still is Pure O. I keep looking into my past, asking myself "Does this increase the risk of me being a pervert?" "I've heard childhood trauma can lead to paraphilia - what if that's happening?" "I was exposed to NSFW at a young age - oh my god, what if I end up being a r*pist?". I question every decision I've made, my reactions and behavior, I look for symptoms to confirm or deny whether I am a sociopathic deviant. I avoid certain situations because I fear getting the intrusive thoughts, experiencing attraction or straight up finding out I'm someone I don't want to be (even though all of that sounds absolutely insane and irrational). Whenever I see a trigger, I immediately start checking if I'm feeling something. I can't even look in the general direction of it because I'm afraid I will feel something. I tend to physically avoid triggers. Sometimes I feel like people around me can sense my OCD and look at me because of it, then stay away from me from sheer disgust. Sometimes I'm afraid of even my own imagination - it's very vivid and detailed which would be a great thing.. if I didn't have OCD to use it against me by giving me mental images of the most disgusting and abhorrent scenes imaginable. I'm afraid of doing art because I feel like I'll lose control and draw something deeply disturbing, or somehow uncover some hidden truth about me in the process. It really sucks. I can't be the only one in this, right?? I can't be the first person on planet earth to have gone through this exact torment? You guys, I just need advice / support. Please, to anyone who's gone through something similar, feel free to share your experiences. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, seriously.
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