Distraction post. Let’s pretend ocd is a person . Under this post write a short letter to ocd

Literally I don’t know what I did to deserve your torment, but I am in therapy, and you are going to get weaker and weaker, and I know that scares the shit out of you.

fuck you ocd!!!! stop telling me what to do and get out of my head.

Sometimes I hate you ocd but then I remember you are doing this to try to protect me. You love me so I love you. But I cannot allow you to steer the ship anymore. Your vision of truth is skewed so I cannot follow your directions. You are scared and helpless and I want to help you learn to follow my lead. You don’t have to guide me anymore. I know that with time we will gain an understanding of each other and we can achieve peace and harmony.

You’ve took so much of me. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I have nothing else to offer, I’ve exhausted every option. I thought I was a solid brick before but you quickly broke me and transitioned me into a soft piece of tissue. You’ve caused me to depend on reassurance to feel better. I would do anything for that reassurance I had to have it. I stepped up, I went to get help to defeat you. You put me at the bottom but I will leave you there. You’ve manipulated me and my mind. But I let you , I let you allow me to live in fear of so many things. You had me convinced I must admit. The what if’s took over. But you’ve humbled me also, you’ve taught me no matter what or who you are we will all face troubles in life, everyone’s trouble is different and you just happen to be mine. But not for long I’ll pray you away and take the steps necessary to get back to my new happiness. ??

You confuse me. I don’t understand how to cope with you. You are enigmatic & scary & disheartening. I want you to leave me alone & go about your business. Actually, I want you to leave all of us alone. You genuinely drown me & I let you, but I am tired of you always talking in my ear & trying to make me feel hopeless. You won’t push me around forever. Signed, Tori.

Please leave me and my family alone, I’m so sick of your threats against them. You waste my time, cause me stress, and drain me of all the energy I used to have. Before you, I was fine, I felt in control, but now that you’re here I feel like I’m being stepped on. I just wish you didn’t have the amount of power over me that you do.

I know there are days where I say to myself “why is this my life and why did this happen to me when I was fine before”, but just know I will get back to a place where I will not even think of you again. No matter the torment, I will continue to rise above and get the help I need because you WILL lose and I will WIN.

I forgive you.