- Username
- bp224
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Literally I don’t know what I did to deserve your torment, but I am in therapy, and you are going to get weaker and weaker, and I know that scares the shit out of you.
Absolutely amazing ❤️ I commend you for going to therapy
fuck you ocd!!!! stop telling me what to do and get out of my head.
Sometimes I hate you ocd but then I remember you are doing this to try to protect me. You love me so I love you. But I cannot allow you to steer the ship anymore. Your vision of truth is skewed so I cannot follow your directions. You are scared and helpless and I want to help you learn to follow my lead. You don’t have to guide me anymore. I know that with time we will gain an understanding of each other and we can achieve peace and harmony.
WOW!! Incredible take on it.
@Tori B :) Thanks :) it’s helped to be more compassionate to my dumb brain and treat like a scared child that I have to help instead of an enemy that I must defeat. For me personally aggressive behaviors towards make me feel less aware of myself and make it easier to get lost in the cycle
@chinarider I’ve never heard of that take before! I’ve always seen it as a tormentor or brokenness that needed to be fixed. Thank you for the new perspective!
@Evelyn4416 Hope it helps :) I find I feel like I have more power if I view it as a something that I have to care for and help instead of a monster in my head
You’ve took so much of me. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I have nothing else to offer, I’ve exhausted every option. I thought I was a solid brick before but you quickly broke me and transitioned me into a soft piece of tissue. You’ve caused me to depend on reassurance to feel better. I would do anything for that reassurance I had to have it. I stepped up, I went to get help to defeat you. You put me at the bottom but I will leave you there. You’ve manipulated me and my mind. But I let you , I let you allow me to live in fear of so many things. You had me convinced I must admit. The what if’s took over. But you’ve humbled me also, you’ve taught me no matter what or who you are we will all face troubles in life, everyone’s trouble is different and you just happen to be mine. But not for long I’ll pray you away and take the steps necessary to get back to my new happiness. ??
You confuse me. I don’t understand how to cope with you. You are enigmatic & scary & disheartening. I want you to leave me alone & go about your business. Actually, I want you to leave all of us alone. You genuinely drown me & I let you, but I am tired of you always talking in my ear & trying to make me feel hopeless. You won’t push me around forever. Signed, Tori.
Beautifully said ?
@ bp224 thank you ?
Please leave me and my family alone, I’m so sick of your threats against them. You waste my time, cause me stress, and drain me of all the energy I used to have. Before you, I was fine, I felt in control, but now that you’re here I feel like I’m being stepped on. I just wish you didn’t have the amount of power over me that you do.
The fact that you’re in contact with the way you feel is amazing ❤️
I know there are days where I say to myself “why is this my life and why did this happen to me when I was fine before”, but just know I will get back to a place where I will not even think of you again. No matter the torment, I will continue to rise above and get the help I need because you WILL lose and I will WIN.
Yes you will win! Absolutely with that positive attitude you can defeat anything ??
I forgive you.
Write a poem about ocd or anxiety under this
So I’ve been struggling to write this down. The truth about OCD is that it sucks. I get weird thoughts and they stick. And because I can’t confirm their weird thoughts i get stuck in a cycle of rumination. That’s my compulsion. I avoid people and situations because I think I’m a bad person. Which ultimately drove me into depression and more. The verdict is this: you can’t make a thought go away. You can accept it as a thought even if you feel doubt about accepting it and letting it be there. Fake it till you make it. I’m faking it everyday and I’ve grown so much since staring my exposure therapies. Don’t avoid your exposures. They become so easy like water. The hardest part is starting. Rumination is a choice - believe it or not. I go, wait a minute wait a minute, I don’t want to keep figuring this out. And I feel the train tracks move and my mind goes else where. This is with therapy. This is with holding on to my last string of hope. And to make this easier for all of you. I’m a mother. My ocd has made my life harder because I have a tiny human who relies on me. I had a horrible childhood with the main billion still in my life. I’ve accepted it. Accept and move on. Work out for 5 min a day. Buy a new gym outfit that makes u feel hot!! Eat something different like a good quality chocolate bar ( a piece ) enjoy it!!!! Chew it slowly. Drink some water. Listen to your heart not your OCD . We don’t need compulsions, you will get there and one day believe it. Live with ocd like you don’t care! You’ve gotten this far. Rewrite your story this year. Start again everyday. And take it day by day… Build your peace and remember, nobody has the motivation to get out of bed, it’s about building good habits and discipline. Start preparing your meals for thanksgiving. Give charity, pray to god once a day. Tell him your letting him take over. Now get up and , 1,2, ready set GO.
What do you guys do to distract yourselves from having intrusive thoughts and images? help please.
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