- Username
- bp224
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Literally I don’t know what I did to deserve your torment, but I am in therapy, and you are going to get weaker and weaker, and I know that scares the shit out of you.
Absolutely amazing ❤️ I commend you for going to therapy
fuck you ocd!!!! stop telling me what to do and get out of my head.
Sometimes I hate you ocd but then I remember you are doing this to try to protect me. You love me so I love you. But I cannot allow you to steer the ship anymore. Your vision of truth is skewed so I cannot follow your directions. You are scared and helpless and I want to help you learn to follow my lead. You don’t have to guide me anymore. I know that with time we will gain an understanding of each other and we can achieve peace and harmony.
WOW!! Incredible take on it.
@Tori B :) Thanks :) it’s helped to be more compassionate to my dumb brain and treat like a scared child that I have to help instead of an enemy that I must defeat. For me personally aggressive behaviors towards make me feel less aware of myself and make it easier to get lost in the cycle
@chinarider I’ve never heard of that take before! I’ve always seen it as a tormentor or brokenness that needed to be fixed. Thank you for the new perspective!
@Evelyn4416 Hope it helps :) I find I feel like I have more power if I view it as a something that I have to care for and help instead of a monster in my head
You’ve took so much of me. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I have nothing else to offer, I’ve exhausted every option. I thought I was a solid brick before but you quickly broke me and transitioned me into a soft piece of tissue. You’ve caused me to depend on reassurance to feel better. I would do anything for that reassurance I had to have it. I stepped up, I went to get help to defeat you. You put me at the bottom but I will leave you there. You’ve manipulated me and my mind. But I let you , I let you allow me to live in fear of so many things. You had me convinced I must admit. The what if’s took over. But you’ve humbled me also, you’ve taught me no matter what or who you are we will all face troubles in life, everyone’s trouble is different and you just happen to be mine. But not for long I’ll pray you away and take the steps necessary to get back to my new happiness. ??
You confuse me. I don’t understand how to cope with you. You are enigmatic & scary & disheartening. I want you to leave me alone & go about your business. Actually, I want you to leave all of us alone. You genuinely drown me & I let you, but I am tired of you always talking in my ear & trying to make me feel hopeless. You won’t push me around forever. Signed, Tori.
Beautifully said ?
@ bp224 thank you ?
Please leave me and my family alone, I’m so sick of your threats against them. You waste my time, cause me stress, and drain me of all the energy I used to have. Before you, I was fine, I felt in control, but now that you’re here I feel like I’m being stepped on. I just wish you didn’t have the amount of power over me that you do.
The fact that you’re in contact with the way you feel is amazing ❤️
I know there are days where I say to myself “why is this my life and why did this happen to me when I was fine before”, but just know I will get back to a place where I will not even think of you again. No matter the torment, I will continue to rise above and get the help I need because you WILL lose and I will WIN.
Yes you will win! Absolutely with that positive attitude you can defeat anything ??
I forgive you.
Write a poem about ocd or anxiety under this
Dear Brothers and Sisters, how are you? Let's put anxiety aside, how are you? Let's make believe ocd isn't affecting your lives right now, how are you? I once heard someone say that intrusive thoughts didn't have physical arms to stop you from doing things, tha k God that's true. We can't let anxiety and ocd stop us from doing what we want. This is hard to do yes, and some of this might sound tough but let's be real how many times have we used the excuse of ocd and anxiety to justify not doing something or avoiding people? Ocd can be crippling some days, but I'm not talking about those moments, I'm talking about the days when we are fine but we just decide to use our behaviors to get in the way of love, of charity. We know the game ocd plays, we know how to not play that game then why aren't we doing it? Let's shake off our comfort my beloved, let's lean on our Lord Jesus to help us shake our fears and face them in therapy, let's ask our Father in Heaven to give us the graces we need to fight ocd and to live to the fullest as He wants us to. We are loved by Love Himself.
I want to heart about your OCD story. Please use this comment section as a safe space where we can all share our struggles, and find those who relate to us. I’ll go first. When I was 13 years old, I went through one of the toughest years of my life. It was awful. My anxiety was on full and my depression followed wherever I went. I started to do compulsions then. Checking, double checking, triple checking. Whether it was an email, an essay I wrote, the lock, the hair straighter etc etc etc. I used to seek reassurance from someone, who is to this day my best friend. I was so embarrassed when I would do it, but I felt like I had to. I would cry myself to sleep. I didn’t know I had OCD. When I was 16 and learning about mental illnesses in class, I remember listening to a group presentation on OCD. From there, I knew what was wrong with me. My OCD died down when I was 14, yet I vividly remembered the struggle. At 18 years old, right after graduating high school (just recently), my OCD came back at full force. It seems like it accompanies my anxiety when it reaches a level beyond the scale. Every morning I wake up, and I’m scared to go about my day. Whether I’m reading, driving, painting, talking or anything, I’m constantly scared of what my OCD will do. I’m scared of my own brain. I hope we can all someday think of OCD as just a memory. Thank you. ❤️
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