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I thought this was a legit letter for a second until I got to “a particular set of skills” ?
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Amazing ???
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Literally I don’t know what I did to deserve your torment, but I am in therapy, and you are going to get weaker and weaker, and I know that scares the shit out of you.
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Absolutely amazing ❤️ I commend you for going to therapy
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fuck you ocd!!!! stop telling me what to do and get out of my head.
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Sometimes I hate you ocd but then I remember you are doing this to try to protect me. You love me so I love you. But I cannot allow you to steer the ship anymore. Your vision of truth is skewed so I cannot follow your directions. You are scared and helpless and I want to help you learn to follow my lead. You don’t have to guide me anymore. I know that with time we will gain an understanding of each other and we can achieve peace and harmony.
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WOW!! Incredible take on it.
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@Tori B :) Thanks :) it’s helped to be more compassionate to my dumb brain and treat like a scared child that I have to help instead of an enemy that I must defeat. For me personally aggressive behaviors towards make me feel less aware of myself and make it easier to get lost in the cycle
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@chinarider I’ve never heard of that take before! I’ve always seen it as a tormentor or brokenness that needed to be fixed. Thank you for the new perspective!
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@Evelyn4416 Hope it helps :) I find I feel like I have more power if I view it as a something that I have to care for and help instead of a monster in my head
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You’ve took so much of me. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I have nothing else to offer, I’ve exhausted every option. I thought I was a solid brick before but you quickly broke me and transitioned me into a soft piece of tissue. You’ve caused me to depend on reassurance to feel better. I would do anything for that reassurance I had to have it. I stepped up, I went to get help to defeat you. You put me at the bottom but I will leave you there. You’ve manipulated me and my mind. But I let you , I let you allow me to live in fear of so many things. You had me convinced I must admit. The what if’s took over. But you’ve humbled me also, you’ve taught me no matter what or who you are we will all face troubles in life, everyone’s trouble is different and you just happen to be mine. But not for long I’ll pray you away and take the steps necessary to get back to my new happiness. ??
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You confuse me. I don’t understand how to cope with you. You are enigmatic & scary & disheartening. I want you to leave me alone & go about your business. Actually, I want you to leave all of us alone. You genuinely drown me & I let you, but I am tired of you always talking in my ear & trying to make me feel hopeless. You won’t push me around forever. Signed, Tori.
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Beautifully said ?
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@ bp224 thank you ?
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Please leave me and my family alone, I’m so sick of your threats against them. You waste my time, cause me stress, and drain me of all the energy I used to have. Before you, I was fine, I felt in control, but now that you’re here I feel like I’m being stepped on. I just wish you didn’t have the amount of power over me that you do.
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The fact that you’re in contact with the way you feel is amazing ❤️
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I know there are days where I say to myself “why is this my life and why did this happen to me when I was fine before”, but just know I will get back to a place where I will not even think of you again. No matter the torment, I will continue to rise above and get the help I need because you WILL lose and I will WIN.
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Yes you will win! Absolutely with that positive attitude you can defeat anything ??
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I forgive you.
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These are some of my experiences with some theatrical flare to better depict how it feels. I decided to share this because when I saw this community I suddenly felt less alone in more human. Lovecraftian door Lurker: I don’t know the subtypes so I’ll just be talking about my relationship with OCD. OCD! that lonely woman in the ocean singing your praise's, sure she’ll love you forever! Of course she isn’t a siren planning on dragging you to the depths and tearing you to shreds. OCD! that haunting whisper in the wind calling you to fly! fly! OCD! that Lovecraftian abomination chanting at you from behind a locked door. Banging demanding you bow to it’s will. For me it latches on to my trauma and PTSD circling them like some demented teacup ride. A daily occurance for me is recalling the day I died when I was like 6 i remeber each detail of the day the kids i met the activtes we particapated in, the heat. The height of the slide before i plummeted to my death. This day consumes my life. “Thud thud!” I ask my parents about it often they tell me it never happened i tell them they weren’t there. Each time they lie and say I’ve never told them. My boyfriend whom I’ve been with for three years hears the story offten and often deals with me asking him if he’s seen me ask my parents. “Thud Thud” Each time he says yes and I asked how they responded “like you’ve never told them.” I constantly become afraid that my boyfreind will drown because he can’t swim. “Thud! Thud!” and because he can’t swim that the car will go off the road into some body of water and he will die. ”Thud! Thud!” I feel the water filling my lungs turning them into fire, the fear of reaching out my hands with no aid. “THUD! THUD! And he will die alone too and there’s nothing you can do to stop it! THUD THUD!” I scream that same fire fueling my rage my tears running down my face like gasoline igniting the thought spiral further burning deeper into my self hatred. I scream again banging my hands on my head. Wish and hoping it will shut up the thoughts.“why? Why?! WHY!” Sobbing until I’m nothing but a puddle. . . Ya know a few months ago I was depressed the thoughts became too much, so I wanted to get high. I thought it would make them stop “Thud! Thud!” So I took a gummy it was unpackage, from a friend of a friend so now the word dog, in reference to a person is a permit part of my vocabulary. And I have memories from being in a comma because it turned out to be DMT and my 6 hour trip end up feeling like 6 months of HELL. The ocd thoughts that i usually see, in a flash became so real that i just cried for hour terrified i was stabbing my eyes out dead and this was my purgatory for leaving the church. ”Thud! THUD!” I stopped using my favorite water bottle after that. Before the incident The bottle up against the wall with the straw to the side of the wall because the thought that would repeat in my head would be that because of my clumsiness I would trip and fall onto the straw and it would stab my eye out and kill me. I had this thought often I kept look up what to do if you accidently get something stab/stuck in your eye. “Thud! Thud!”
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I'm sry if this may make people worry or feel uncomfortable in advance! Hello everyone as u can see I struggle with ocd and I HATE IT WITH MY LIFE , it started in 2020 covid obv contamination ocd started here , I used to carry alcohol everywhere and used to wash my hands so much that it bled ( had to wear gloves to cover it so friends or family won't see it ) and everything else started since then , harm ocd with myself or friends I couldn't hold a knife..it was really hard..and I have unwanted sexual thoughts ocd , I have panic attacks bc of this..I sometimes cannot look people into their eyes and its so random and so scary..thoughts about.. 🍇..whether it's me or I'm gonna harm someone else uk..I sometimes cannot function properly.. unfortunately friends don't understand it rather think it's about " perfectionism "..I wrote those thoughts and stuff in a journal in more details ofc and doodle ( I'm scared someone will find it ) I hate myself tbh and I don't think someone will read this... I suspect I have ADHD with all this but ocd is " ur faking it " even though lots of people have hinted about it , I thought I actually killed someone for 2 years a girl..until I realized what HOCD is , I thought I faked my ocd too in fact , I have perfectionism ocd too it's bad and I HATE PURE O it's so DRAINING uk.. also idk if this has caused a problem for anyone but if y'all know the Truman show ( basically if u don't know the main character is being filmed and his life is fake and he doesn't know it ) THAT MOVIE HAS HARMED ME SO BADLY FOR YEARS that until today I have to check in the bathroom if there are cameras cuz like ocd makes me think I'm living in a fake world , I used to think people around me , everyone was like a Ai model or smth.. everytime until today I have to clean the toilet seat bc it may be dirty..I have been taking up to 5 showers a day cuz maybe I'm dirty..that's it for today tysm if u read this till the end I'd like to know ur thoughts if u got tips or have similar experiences ! 🤗 U get a chocolate bar 🍫 bc u earned it bc ik how ocd is so frustrating ( I also noticed everyone who has ocd is so nice right 😆! )
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