I eat boys

Date posted: 5y

Unrelated to OCD, I just want to go off for a couple of sentences: I have no friends or any memories to look back on. Never been on a date or had someone who cared about me. I’m tired of being alone, it’s one of the reasons that I have so many mental health issues. I have always had no friends. Never been out or anything. I’m tired of this loneliness and I’m almost 20, I can’t make anymore friends because it’s not the same when you’re an adult. That’s all.

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

Would it make you guys feel better knowing I'm in a similar situation, but 35 ☺? I know it can be hard and I still have my really down times when I think of things I missed out on and still don't have. But life still happens and you can make one with happiness still in it. Thankfully you have a lot more resources available to you. Take advantage of as many of them as you can and keep fighting ☺!

Link

Date posted: 5y

Im 23 and im here to say it definitely is better having friends around this age. Having been someone who never really had much friends growing up, I can say that I now have somenof the bestest friends anyone could ask for and I dont have to pretend with them. Hardly anyone has that highschool mentality anymore. You dont have to worry about peoples thoughts about you anymore as an adult. You’re free to be you and people will appreciate that about you and respect it. Trust me, just be yourself and talk to some people! Get yourself out there. (Well when this quarantine stuff is over with) Its gonna take a little bit of effort on your side. You’ll be ?

sillybilly

Date posted: 5y

I can relate to this post a lot, expect for the age part. I’m a teenager. I found it so hard to communicate with people my age. I don’t know why, it just is. No one ever really invites me out, it’s always me hitting them up first which just makes me not want to try anymore. All my siblings have people they hang out with on the daily so I’m always left alone at home. It really sucks.

Hannah1993

Date posted: 5y

I am 26 and I didn't have any real friends until a few years ago. I have some great friends I am thankful for now. It could happen anytime. Life changes in all kinds of unexpected ways. Best of luck, I have been there.

Heello

Date posted: 5y

I am in the same boat :/ No friends, date, or someone that its really close to me. I am on almost 21

I eat boys

Date posted: 5y

It makes me sad when I see people who have photos on their wall of their friends and going to clubs and things, I’ve never been anywhere with anyone ONCE

Fathomable

Date posted: 5y

I have 5 or so close friends, I didn't make any of them before the age of 20. I have only 1 friend who I met before the age of 20. You ain't doomed.

Maybe

Date posted: 5y

I agree, it's never too late to make friends.

hateocd123

Date posted: 5y

When my hocd came back I pretty much told all of my friends to piss off and now I have no friends except for my boyfriend. It sucks. I wish I didn't let my mental illness control me.

Hillary Ann

Date posted: 5y

I’m 29. When I was 20 I sure as hell didn’t think things would get better. And I sure as hell didn’t want to listen to anybody. But I have some advice if you want it. It can get better. One advantage to getting older is that people seem to become more open minded about making friends. I find that people in their late 20s and 30s are more likely to be friends with somebody who mighit seem different or awkward. And as people go through life they experience hardship, and can be more empathetic toward people who struggle, like all of us who struggle with OCD. Life’s not all sunshine and rainbows, but there is hope. And you don’t need a big group of friends. A few good ones will do. You are enough :)

MJocd

Date posted: 5y

I can relate, I'm 22. I'm at home studying from home so I'm pretty lonely. Struggling with dark intrusive thoughts and mental health issues is really had and only makes the feeling of loneliness more extreme. But I dont lose out on hope. I know life will get better. We just have to keep working towards it x

I eat boys

Date posted: 5y

I get sad with my life because I’ve never gone out with anyone and I’m scared I won’t get to experience being in love in my 20s and really living it up, due to mental health issues and not being able to make friends

Nica

Date posted: 5y

Then start making some friends and memories. Try online first. It’s never too late to start ?

I eat boys

Date posted: 5y

Online is so annoying tbh lol. Everyone leads each other on and no one wants to follow through with plans.

saaaam

Date posted: 5y

i can relate :( i’m almost 20 too and throughout my life i’ve only had a few close friends, yet i feel like those friendships were pretty much one-sided because we don’t even talk anymore. & i still haven’t found a group of friends that i could rlly depend on/trust or have fun with. it’s sad seeing even the shy-est people i know make so many friends and trying new things while i’m still stuck and not making any progress :( i’ve never been on a date, party, or hung out w a group of friends either...i feel like i’m missing out on a lot because people around this age, especially in college, seem to be living their life and having fun ?

I eat boys

Date posted: 5y

Yeah I totally get that, especially when everyone flexes on social media themselves out and looking cute :(

Crassus1

Date posted: 5y

I've also never been on a date... Not even talking to a girl about going on a date with her. I fked up my social life bcs of ocd and oh, and why not? Moved to another country where is even harder to make friends. My ocd forbids me to think about my past friends from my home country... It forbids me many things... I have NO FACEBOOK, TWITTER OR INSTAGRAM (I do it on the paper I'm a BUSINESS MAN... jk sorry for the Pitbull aka Mr. WorldWide refference,ignore the bracket). Oh, and why not? My ocd has become so bad I got thrown out of highschool. I've made a friend on RandoChat... We text. That's all.

July85

Date posted: 5y

I don't have any either but I have a HUGE problem with trusting others because I had a few friends in the past and all of those friendships ended badly later when I felt betrayed by them and I couldn't trust them.So since that has happened I find it VERY difficult to find and make friends even tho at times I wish I could easily.

Bomalley

Date posted: 24w

Jobless

Hey everyone, been doing ok this week but having a little bit of a rough moment rn. So I’m about a year and a half out of college and I still have yet to a real job job. I worked for eight months somewhere which was great but I decided it wasn’t permanent. Now I’ve been unemployed for about four months and OCD is really having a field day with it. Trying to deal with it and just keep applying everyday, but I always feel like my family and friends are looking down on me and/or just plain disappointed in me. Just wanted to kind of vent and get this out of my head before I go to bed. I hope everyone is having a great week!

Jusne

Date posted: 23w

No one is going to help me

I have OCD, but my parents don’t understand what I’m going through. All I wanted was for someone to be by my side and support me, but they dismiss my struggles, telling me to "just stop thinking" and that I’m making a big deal out of nothing. When I asked for a new therapist because my current one isn’t helping—she isn’t even an OCD specialist—they became angry and didn't believe I need therapy and instead blame me for everything. My father was so mad, he insist to gave me a knife and kill myself. He threatened to isolate me completely, cutting me off from school, the internet, and everything else. My mom cried and shut me down when I tried to explain my pain. They refuse to listen and my dad said it’s all my fault. That day they threw me outside the house for a night, and called me back in telling me to forget everything and forgive them, but I understood that I will not be able to mention anything about my mental health or seeing an OCD specialist ever again, I am completely alone now. With no financial support, and now I don’t know if I’ll ever get the proper therapy I need. I’m only 15, but it feels like I’ll be trapped in this suffering forever, I feel hopeless, I feel like shit, I am going to suffer forever with no support and help.

strawberryjax

Date posted: 23w

hey. i have contamination ocd and this is my life.

back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.

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