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- 5y
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- 5y
Have you expressed these worries to your therapist? I know how difficult it is. I have been dealing with this type of OCD, too. It is so so hard BUT you are strong and you can get better! If you are on Instagram, there is a page called ocdrecoveryuk which is really helpful with lots of info on it if you want to check it out. Best wishes! :)
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- 5y
Yep I have had this for years & its exhausting. But the answer is probably there is non answer. Its all about accepting uncertainty about the question, well thats how I see it. Yep I think having no fear to the OCD is probably a step in the right direction as I have terrible fear most of my days (not all day but some of the days). The guilt is over bearing but I think feelings for me are not an indicator that it is true. For me the thoughts that nag me 24-7 are not welcome or true but that's what makes it OCD, my brain feels hijacked!
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Yep I have a therapist I go to for childhood upset & she's very good but I don't whether she is really good at OCD or I'm not really trying to explain it well. I do indeed follow ocdrecoveryuk as its a great source of comfort to me but I guess some days are better than others. The constant questions never stop in my head. Thank you for replying. Best wishes too!
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- 5y
"Feels like it might be true" sounds like something you can learn to live with. You can't make the possibility go away. You can only make it less and less important.
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- 5y
I know this sounds so simple to do, but when I was going through my darkest moments waking up to a panic attack everyday, I would feel hopeless like I was an awful person and couldn’t function but I would set goals and try to go on a walk, do something productive, eat healthy and make myself feel better about other aspects of my life. The thoughts are the worst part because of the anxiety. I’m sorry you struggle. Keep on keeping on. I believe in you!
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- 5y
Yep movement does work for sure. My brain will always tell me 'no don't go walking, sit in the car & Google for an hour' this is where I just don't listen. I think walking, dancing. Anything that moves your body helps. It really does work & am not at all sporty but the difference in my anxiety levels is unreal after I have done say 30 mins of exercise!
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- 20w
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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- 19w
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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- 14w
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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