- Username
- Sophie7007
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You're right it is so horrible. As long as you truly believe that, then it is your OCD. You're having obsessive thoughts that you need to combat with positive, good thoughts.
In your case, I don’t know if reading the news articles is really a compulsion, more like an activity that triggers you. Good ERP would be reading those news articles, feeling the anxiety, and embracing the uncertainty. I will give you a little reassurance and tell you that I have harm ocd and have experienced what you have. This is a pretty common thing. Harm ocd will make you question your morals, any time you’re questioning your morals intensely based on a thought you had, you can be sure that’s ocd.
If you're already one of those people which I'm guessing you're not then you are giving in to Satan. Positivity through Jesus Christ can change your ways. If you're worried you're one of those people and need proof that you're not I know you can find it. You seem like you're disgusted by the fact that you're relating to them. That proves that your true heart doesn't believe in being that way. If you're shocked by those thoughts you were having then you are doing good. If you weren't shocked then you'd need help. I'm glad you confessed yourself on here. You're doing good. It could be your OCD but there's always a slippery slope. You don't want your OCD to define you but if you're having obsessions like this you want to eliminate the exposures. Justify yourself by thinking things like there is no justification for murder. Life is precious. Et cetera.
Stop reading the news articles, it’s a compulsion. (Well for me it is) I would read and read and compare myself allllllll day and be so worked up it was awful. It’s OCD, not you. It likes to make you anxious and scared, it loves when you doubt who you are - that’s the whole gig. I am a believer but I don’t think this has anything to do with Satan and being saved - this is OCD and sometimes in this life we are given crappy things to deal with. God can help us overcome our struggles and be with us ? Having yourself think positive thoughts after a ocd thought could also be a compulsion....I’d just let the thought ride. Go do something else and move on with your day! No more news searching ;)
I guess it would make it difficult to stop if you are a journalist :) I just know mine is a compulsion of researching and comparing, maybe yours is just reading whatever the article is and then being triggered. It is a good ERP, but a super hard one! I have had the same thing and struggle with the news, I do tend to avoid it :/ Hugs. I know how hard it is!!
Yes. Satan is capable of tantalizing us all. You're not alone. Try to think positive thoughts. Jesus Christ can save you from turning into one of those people. He loves you.
I’m sorry I don’t really get what you mean about being saved - that means you’re implying I’m at risk of becoming one of those people when I’m really just worried about already being one - which is what I hope is just my OCD
Okay, thank you. I just want to know that this is just my OCD, and I’m not ‘turning’ into a bad person :( it’s so horrible
I’m a journalist so avoiding news articles is pretty difficult though... and also surely stopping reading news is also a compulsion or avoidance? I only see how that wold help for a short amount of time. I agree with being saved, I don’t think that it has anything to do with it either. I just keep getting convinced that I am a bad person. Like even now if I’m angry, violent thoughts come up which makes me think I’ll act violently in the future when I become angry
Yeah I definitely also read something, then read other similar ones to try and find different and similarities within myself and that murderer or violent person. It’s so hard working out what’s a compulsion and what isn’t :(
Harm OCD help please! There’s been two news stories recently (one where I went to uni) where the boyfriend in a couple has killed the girl, possibly following a fight. Both cases are uni students, really similar lifestyles to me and it’s like, what if I do that? It’s really triggered my harm OCD like I’m desperate to know what happened, why it happened and how people can kill each other just like that because I’m so scared I’m going to do that one day. Does anyone else do that? The first case we know it was a ‘jealous rage’ that led him to kill her, but everyone gets jealous right? So how can that lead someone to kill another person? Thanks in advance :(
Does your harm ocd thoughts ever tell you you want to do the things your worried about? I always worry I’m gonna become a serial killer or just go crazy and kill people. Everytime I worry about this I go no no I don’t want to do that I’d never do that but my thoughts tell me “I do wanna do that I’m an evil person” and “I wanna kill people” these leads me to even more anxiety and I literally burst into tears everytime it’s horrible
Oh, so I know that Harm Ocd targetted my family (grandma, little siblings) and my pets. I never ever been into violence before, I didn't enjoy watching horror movies or the news were just not interest for me because all they talked about was people getting killed and it ruined my mood. I would say my Harm Ocd often makes me feel like I want to kill (which is scaring me to death), after that I somehow calm myself down but after a few minutes my mind show images of my family and pets being killed by me and it gives me a feeling or though (I am not sure) in which leads me to believe it is satisying and that I want to do it. Everyday is the same and I am bothered I can't enjoy anything. Whenever I see something sharp on the kitchen table or tv shows my mind says "that would look good on someone's neck/chest/back" I am really afraid that I think like a psychopath... Also, I can't remember the love I have for my family and pets and I see them like objects (that's also scary), like it would be so easy to kill them. Please, help again 'cause I am really afraid I won't become what I hate the most.. Is it normal for Harm Ocd?
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