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i feel like this spiraled into something big overtime because i don’t want to take advantage of someone and i necee have before and i just really don’t want to be a bad person, i really don’t, but i feel like this ain’t normal and that no one else but someone who takes advantage of people thinks this way. This is making me scared of myself, even though i haven’t done anything, i’m scared that i will.
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and fucking groinal responses make things 10x fucking worse. like why can’t my body react to things fucking normal. why does everything in life have to be so complicated for me. i can’t even do anything or be with the guy i like because now i’m afraid of who i am, i also would feel terrible to have someone be involved with me and not know who i actually am as a person which is fucking terrible. at this point someone literally just kill me cause we really don’t need another disgusting person out in the world.
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i miss the day’s when everything was normal
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I feel you...
dann123dann123
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Completely understand
hateocd123hateocd123
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My boyfriend and I have both had intercourse while either or is inebriated and afterwards never thought anything of it. Idk, I don't really care. I've never been drunk to the point where I didn't remember anything and as a sober person I can look back and say that I enjoyed being drunk or tipsy during sex and he says the same. If I were single and there was an opportunity to hook up with someone inebriated I would not, because I don't know them and I could potentially be taking advantage of them.
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yeah but now i feel stuck on the thought that i want to like give him head when he’s drunk cause i feel like he’d enjoy it more but even just saying that sounds wrong and weird you know. and i feel like i’m trying to justify it in my mind but the more i do the worse it’s making me seem. Like when i think that i don’t mean it in a way that’s doing something to him that he doesn’t want, and i don’t even know if that’s actually something i want to do but my mind has fixated on it to the point where i think it is. And i just feel wrong because why is it a thought of mine of wanting to do something to someone while they’re drunk, and why am i trying to figure out ways in my mind to make it seem okay. Like even though especially now that i’m aware of it being wrong i wouldn’t do it, it doesn’t sit right with me that it’s something that i may want to do or think is okay, and i’ll feel wrong ever doing anything with him because he wouldn’t know that i wanted to do something or i imagined doing something with him that would be considered taking advantage. I’m trying to move past this and not think about it but it just doesn’t sit right with me that i view this as okay.
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- 22w
Can someone please offer words of advice :(
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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- 22w
Convinced myself of something bad
Basically when I was drunk I was flirting with this guy I usual flirt with he was telling me that nothing could happen because he’s friends with my cousin, so I got really close to him and said oh resllr so you don’t want me, and I can’t remember what he said but I then kissed his like cheek or near his ear to like flirt with him and I’ve convinced myself because he said he couldn’t that basically I’ve harassed him. I left him alone after we’d finished talking but I’m so worried that me sorta going are you sure to him because he kept saying “maybe one day but right now I can’t” and saying “it’s not that I don’t want to” But I’m really scared that I’ve done something wrong. I keep picturing me kissing his cheek and him going like ugh fuck off when I don’t think that happened? I just have the worst anxiety around it right now
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Huge tw I’m so scared I’m a r*pist people have told me I am. I wanted to lose my virginity when I was 19 I felt embarrassed and ashamed I hadn’t. I decided to get drunk and find someone in a club to lose it to. I don’t remember much other than I was happy it was finally happening and remember thinking my plan had worked. I was told by friends that the other person was drunk and possibly on drugs. I must be a r*pist as I knew what I was doing and instigated it, I took advantage and used someone. I feel sick and don’t deserve to move on I can’t even apologies as it was a complete stranger what if they’re living with trauma because of me.
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