Does any one feel that the general things people go through because of ocd doesn't necessarily apply to you? Yet you have been diagnosed by multiple therapists as an ocd patient. The things i listed down mostly applies to people with high brain control or a high level of personal strictness i do not mean to sound condescending at all just trying to seek help. So here are some points that are confusing me let me know if anyone can relate. 1. People have anxiety with thoughts but for me i can easily control my anxiety level its entirely up to me to feel 10/10 or 1/10 anxiety. It won't make the thought go away or anything its just i would be feeling different with different levels. High anxiety may cause extreme shivering and want me to hide myself from the world, while low anxiety feels like I'm claiming yes this is my ocd thought/compulsion so what no ones opinion on me matters. 2. Ocd patients have difficulty talking related to their obsessions, have difficulty doing certain actions, extreme fear of triggers while it makes no difference to me whether i interact with them or not. Its not like anything changes by experimenting with these behaviours so whats the fear about.... 3. Getting reassurance can be that i am not a bad person or anything else, again i felt like ocd doesn't change who you are so i know what i am even your opinion doesn't matter ocd. 4. Though i had issues dealing with guilt in the beginning as my compulsion goes against my religious beliefs but when i learned about the leniency for patients in religion i have no guilt for these obsession/compulsion. 5. Paying attention to thoughts this thing has never had any meaning to me as a person who constantly tries to change himself for better i haven't been able to do so ever since the thoughts started paying attention or not does anything really changes? Besides these i had a really hard time adjusting to medication took me 8 months just to get a suitable SSRI but these medications just limit my compulsions while deactivating certain parts of my brain and sets my stamina to ZERO. Not talking medication increases my compulsions but gets me on normal brain levels and regular stamina. Now I'm not questioning the abilities of my therapists but it feels a waste of time and money. Felt no improvement over a year all i do is adjust myself to feel different which i have been doing before therapy. Contribution of therapy in my life feels null. Can anyone advise me where to move forward from or what is the forward for people like me?

Where’sMySer...

Date posted: 5y

1. I feel the same way, I’ve had OCD for so long and I’m so used to it that most of the time the thoughts don’t bring a feeling of anxiety but I still feel a strong need to have answers or fear something will happen, etc. I just feel the need to do the compulsions to prevent something or find out answers but I guess I’m kinda numb to the anxiety aspect to a lot of my thoughts, it’s kinda just routine. 2. I also don’t fear triggers. I get triggered all the time but try to ignore it, like I’m not gonna change my life or ask others to change their lives to avoid being triggered. Avoidance isn’t gonna help anything. 3. I agree 4. I also have no guilt, I know my God knows I don’t actually feel the way my thoughts want me to and I don’t want to do the things they tell me to do. OCD is different for everyone and everyone handles their thoughts and anxiety different. I think the way you think about it is healthy and it seems like a step towards recovering! Are the therapists you see OCD specialists? OCD specialist know it like the back of their hand so that may be better suited

Bisho

Date posted: 5y

I do not know, and I do not want to tell you something that does not work for you or just makes your condition more complex or worse, so you better ask a professional or wait for one to answer this question for you

Recovered Boi

Date posted: 5y

They claim to be specialist but idk their talk, suggestions, process etc are about what i normally do and that their point comes to light after several sessions like if I'd known your point earlier we could have not wasted the time I need next level transparency. I don't claim to be an expert but i do experiment a lot with my brain pre and post ocd.... well all i got are complains and frustration over therpy.. maybe it isn't for me.

Bisho

Date posted: 5y

I dont really know, talk to your therapist from the beginning and tell them to listen to you Tell them that you have experience and that you did all tgese things with your therapists before and that you do test with your mind and tell them what you found and what you understand Try to discuss it with them and ask them if there is another things they can do and just view the process before you start

Bisho

Date posted: 5y

And have you been to a specialist after you read reviews about them?+ you can be as their collegue and discuss it all with them to find out a solution Collaborative brainstorming is a productive way to find out solutions

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