I used a crisis hotline and now I’m even more in a crisis and I want to cry and feel like I need to disappear even more. I feel sick to my stomach. I want to vomit. What do I do? What do I DO.

Thank you, my big fear now is just getting in trouble but I didn’t say anything legally incriminating I think?? So I’m just kinda like sitting here being scared and trying to just do things despite that fear.

@Mars I’ve worried similarly. However, mine was about something that I saw that luckily ended up being legal, yet I had convinced myself the actress in the concerned matter was not in fact 23. I knew she was (she was verified) Yet, At the time however, the doubt was so strong, even though I knew I was fine. I posted on reddit and other ocd forums about it. I got countless comments telling me I, just like you, had a problem. The problem does not concern the legality, but instead the anxiety. You and I are fine. I can tell both of us that, but in the long run, it won’t help will it? Reassurance, whether from ourselves or others will not help in the long run. I spoke w 4 lawyers online because I was worried. In the end, it came down to time, and of course avoiding triggers, yet exposing myself properly with the help of a professional to my obsessions.

@johnd1197 Yeah... ocd is such a terrible disease. Honestly sometimes I fear I’ll never get better. I’ll be starting some basic erp with my therapist soon but it hasn’t started yet so I’m still in a terrified limbo all the time...

I’m trying to calm down rn and be calm to myself- I’m mainly just afraid rn of getting into trouble because of the horror stories I’ve heard of people with ocd being misunderstood. I’m gonna be starting ERP with my therapist soon and I see her on Friday but I need to make it to then.

The woman on the crisis hotline sent me this link that was a website about stopping sexual child abuse and to get help for sexual predators. It triggered me so bad after I told her MULTIPLE TIMES I have OCD and I’m SCARED of it.

She made me feel way worse and now I’m fearing even more and I don’t wanna say anything triggering but it makes me want to disappear more than I did before.

@Mars She obviously just isn’t educated on OCD and was probably confused! I think we would all be told something we didn’t wanna hear if all of us with ocd told our fears to someone who didn’t have a clue! Try not to overthink it, we are all here for eachother

@Beebuh I’m just scared I’m gonna get in trouble now that the police will come knocking on my door or the fbi having me on a watch list. I have a whole day to get through before therapy and I’m scared. I’m also scared her sending me that link just verified it’s true.

@Mars Was it anonymous?

@Connie101 She had my first name, and I’m not sure if it gives them my phone number but that’s all she had.

@Mars On a legal stand point you didn't do anything. They is no reason why they should come after you

@Connie101 I told her about my POCD, and like I confessed to things that made me scared as to why I was scared i might be a predator and I’m scared like what if she took that and thought it meant like really bad things did happen? That’s the scary part.

I’m gonna try and do that- I feel so bad like I want to cry. I felt so alone and isolated and that’s why I went to the crisis hotline and ended up feeling even more alone and isolated.

@Mars Some of these people on these hotlines don't know the whole Spectrum of Mental Health. Which is okay, but they need not to cast judgment. You feel me? Before I got Diagnosed with OCD, I talked to someone About my thoughts. And you he was like "oh no you need serious help. Like thats normal" .

@Connie101 Before I got diagnosed with ocd at 18 (I’m 23) my therapist at the time pulled out the dsm and showed me the thing for pedophilia and I remember it triggering me so bad- she asked if it sounded like me. She also refused to listen to me when I said I think I have more than depression and anxiety. So yeah like... people not understanding ocd makes me so scared.

@Connie101 So you're not alone I understand how you feel. Completely! It sucks when you want help but you get judgement. But right we have a no judgment zone here. And you are free. To express yourself. In therapy what are some things you practice to get through episodes like this?

@Connie101 So far the most I’ve been taught is talk to yourself like you would a friend. Other than that I haven’t been taught much yet (we only had 3 meetings so far) but I’m gonna be asking her to find ways I can use to fight this on my own bc I know my friends get frustrated when they can’t help me- and I can’t rely on others 24/7 so I definitely need to find more coping skills.

@Mars Of course! I have some tricks that helped me if you wanna try? Lay on you back in a dark room put you hands on your tummy then deep breathe in and slow breath out. Allow yourself to feel the movement of your tummy going up and down and allow yourself to feel your lungs being filled with air.When a thought comes by Try that hi and bye method. But don't stop breathing

@Connie101 Thank you, I definitely will try that one. I’m always up for hearing more coping skills because I really wanna beat ocd.

@Mars And we will! One day at a time! You got this. Also let me know how that works for you okay?

@Connie101 Thank you so much, I definitely will. I’m also gonna try and interact with friends despite how afraid I am to. Once again thank you for your help <3

@Mars That's great! You're welcome!

Yeah, it was just the CRISIS HOTLINE WOMAN of all people sending me the stop now website on sexual predators getting helped. After I poured my heart to her of what I was afraid of. It made me feel sick.