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Yeah I currently suffer with this type of ocd! It’s scary and also makes me afraid that I have depression. However, knowing that you wouldn’t want to commit suicide is a good indicator that you most likely won’t.
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I once heard a podcast on OCD stories , great website by the way of a fellow named Kevin from Michigan. His OCD and depression got so severe that he was in fact going to commit suicide. His plan was to jump off one of the large bridges in Michigan state. He once heard the saying and it goes like this . Killing yourself does not ease your pain it only passes your pain off to someone else. That basically means to think about your family your parents and the people that this is truly what effect. If the thought of losing control or giving up heels in your heart like a viable comforting option Then you need to get help and soon. However if the thought of killing yourself scares the shit out of you because of the thought of dying then it is a very good indication that it is just OCD and anxiety. Kevin ended up getting help that day that he was going to jump off the bridge was also the very day that his wife book came in to Houston OCD recovery center. The three-month stent and years later he is now A complete advocate for OCD in Michigan State. Good luck guys
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Absolutely. I’m very well aware of the difference between a thought that’s scares you and is uncomfortable and a thought that’s is comfortable and soothing. That’s why I stated what I did. Not all people on this app recognize OCD for what it can do and often there is much confusion on weather or not the thoughts they are having are real or just OCD that’s why the details on the post above explain the difference, and can hopefully set Ben in the right direction for analyzing his thoughts and seeing , and determination weather or not they are irrational (OCD) or rational and needs help. Depression is no joke
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Yeah it’s a category I’m sure
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Probably apart of the harm OCD
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Never wanted to escape more than I do right now
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Very common theme btw you are not alone
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Yes Curtis but having suicidal ocd and being suicidal for real is totaly different. Just like Any other theme they wont act on it.
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WHY is it so bad?? who was gonna tell me 16 was just DREAD, my ocd has flared up worse than ever and i can’t go to therapy weekly anymore. im getting worse and i can’t do it. I just want to give up.
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I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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