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I work with kids. They've been instrumental in my recovery. However, during the times I really struggled I believe I leaned on them too much. I was too needy for their attention. I wish I could have been a stronger role model.
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Everything stopped. My career. Volunteering. Sharing my art and writing. Romantic relationships. I’ve dated again! It’s still hard... I’ve volunteered again! Loads of fun. I’m working. Need to work on a better paying job. That’s still hard. I don’t regret that my world stopped. I learned a lot. There’s a lot going on and I still don’t know how to label exactly what or why everything happened (Was it OCD? OCPD? Thenright thing to do?) I do regret that between then and now I’ve spent so much time stuck in an addiction that I haven’t made much progress. Eight years that just kind of vanished. I don’t know. I don’t know what I think about all that.
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I have lost a lot to ocd never recommend it
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I’ve made a decision. I do t necessarlily regret the decision, I just regret how it was made
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Do you guys think ocd breeds regret in grneral
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Between OCD and PTSD, I was never able to conduct my Psych study which was half of an 8-credit course as well as something I really wanted to do. There’s probably so much else in school and unemployment that has to do with it, but I feel like just looking back at that one thing was the right amount of triggering that I can be a bit upset, but still ultimately motivated and optimistic. ?
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I dont know if ocd made me do that but when i didnt know i have it i thought im going crazy for real and i told my parents i blame my friends for that. There were some issues between me and these friends but they were the best friends i could ask for. They just hapened to trigger my obsessions a lot but that wasnt their fault. Now my family hates them and wont let me talk to them because they think they are the cause of my depression ( my parents dont know about ocd) and this situation is really fucked up to be honest.
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Ive always avoided spending a lot of time with my son. Luckily my ex is very involved, but Ill admit Ive relied on him too much because of my fears. I wanna be a good mom, but Im afraid Im going to hurt him or fail him like my mom failed me.
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My life is completely destroyed because of ocd
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It’s okay. That just means you have more room to regrow?
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@cam332179 I hope so idk if I have the strength to do it
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I get so stuck when making decisions. I guess it’s called executive functioning and before my OCD diagnosis I just thought I was a perfectionist and needed to make sure everything would be perfect before making the decision. Turns out it’s part of OCD?
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I suffer since 10 - 15 yrs from specific fears. It was years that my OCD constantly wanted to be checked if I have HIV or not. I had a lot of sex and I thought this is normal. But I ruminated in my backhead about and was testing like 5 - 10 times a year. After the test I felt everytime so relieved. In Corona I was addicted to porn and even I lost control and was watching pretty hard stuff. I was chatting with a girl and we fantasized about really disturbing things. I never wanna meet her and for me was sure it's just kinda onlinestuff. I was in a relationship 3 years now. And I lost fear of HIV. But then came Morality OCD, Real Event (this chat) and after some times POCD. This combination was knocking me out, I felt like the badest person on earth. I did everything wrong and searched for relief and reassurance. It put me to the point of suicidal. I never ever hurting somebody, but my brain was making me a monster. I had to quit the relationship because I just couldn't give her what she deserved. I was in a clinic for 3 months. And we tested medication with ERP (before I took escitalopram for years). Anafranil was working first, then too many side-effects. I tried even without meds, but was so depressed. Now on sertralin for 5 weeks, but only 2 weeks on therapeutic dose 200mg. And wow, now I really feel so confused in the brain. I feel like how big my OCD became. The specific thoughts are not anymore, BUT it sticks on EVERYTHING atm. It's delusional how it feels in the brain. I really hope so deep my brain makes finally a reset and I need to wait it out. I could live with OCD for a long time but the last 1-2 yrs it took absolutely everything. I remark that POCD doesn't stick anymore like before but my brain is now constructing a very bad future because of past mistakes (that I all discussed with family, friends for relief over and over and over again). So it's like my OCD is now Real Event (The sexchat) again. Anyone was on the same point in life?
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I’m new to NOCD and just wanted to share my experience to see if anyone else can relate or has any thoughts or advice. My thing is needing a system or some kind of digitally saved reference (online article/notes app) to make decisions on how to live my life and spend my time- then I get super caught up in what is the objectively “right” system to have which never really leads anywhere- over the last 6+ years I’ve probably changed this system over 100 times because at some point I realized it wasn’t “right”. At best, I stick with a system for months and be pretty free from OCD but at worst I can go months where I only experience intermittent periods of living free from OCD and spend hours and hours putting my life on hold trying to figure out what the right system is or to answer and figure out impossible answers to completely subjective things. I get a lot of regret over all the time and life I’ve wasted in this cycle, and feel kinda like everything I’ve done in previous systems was “wrong” so I try to fix that by undoing some of those actions. I think part of the root of this is wanting to control so many parts of my life and the fact that there are other parts of life I could be experiencing, ways I could be improving, and that there is so much out there that I could never ever do or experience all of it leads me to try to figure out some system that gives me a better feeling of control over this. If anyone reads all this that’s awesome- lmk if this resonates with you at all
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