- Username
- cam332179
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I work with kids. They've been instrumental in my recovery. However, during the times I really struggled I believe I leaned on them too much. I was too needy for their attention. I wish I could have been a stronger role model.
Everything stopped. My career. Volunteering. Sharing my art and writing. Romantic relationships. I’ve dated again! It’s still hard... I’ve volunteered again! Loads of fun. I’m working. Need to work on a better paying job. That’s still hard. I don’t regret that my world stopped. I learned a lot. There’s a lot going on and I still don’t know how to label exactly what or why everything happened (Was it OCD? OCPD? Thenright thing to do?) I do regret that between then and now I’ve spent so much time stuck in an addiction that I haven’t made much progress. Eight years that just kind of vanished. I don’t know. I don’t know what I think about all that.
I have lost a lot to ocd never recommend it
I’ve made a decision. I do t necessarlily regret the decision, I just regret how it was made
Do you guys think ocd breeds regret in grneral
Between OCD and PTSD, I was never able to conduct my Psych study which was half of an 8-credit course as well as something I really wanted to do. There’s probably so much else in school and unemployment that has to do with it, but I feel like just looking back at that one thing was the right amount of triggering that I can be a bit upset, but still ultimately motivated and optimistic. ?
I dont know if ocd made me do that but when i didnt know i have it i thought im going crazy for real and i told my parents i blame my friends for that. There were some issues between me and these friends but they were the best friends i could ask for. They just hapened to trigger my obsessions a lot but that wasnt their fault. Now my family hates them and wont let me talk to them because they think they are the cause of my depression ( my parents dont know about ocd) and this situation is really fucked up to be honest.
Ive always avoided spending a lot of time with my son. Luckily my ex is very involved, but Ill admit Ive relied on him too much because of my fears. I wanna be a good mom, but Im afraid Im going to hurt him or fail him like my mom failed me.
My life is completely destroyed because of ocd
It’s okay. That just means you have more room to regrow?
@cam332179 I hope so idk if I have the strength to do it
What is your OCD story? I’m curious to hear about what other people’s journeys with OCD have been like. When you were diagnosed/what kind of treatment you have tried/what kind of OCD or symptoms do you have/what has helped you most? For me personally I don’t have a lot of people that I feel comfortable sharing my journey with in real life so I like having the chance to let it out on another platform. I’d love to hear whatever you are willing to share. I’ll start by sharing my journey. I was first diagnosed with and treated for OCD when I was seven (12 years ago). It started when my parents noticing that I was constantly smelling and washing my hands. I also worried a lot about my family’s safety and had a lot of magical thinking: I couldn’t throw anything away, had special walking rituals, had to touch things certain ways, etc. When I got to high school my symptoms got worse. I was re-diagnosed with OCD, dermatillomania, social anxiety, generalized anxiety, panic disorder, and depression. My OCD had morphed into just right/perfection obsessions (took me hours to do a simple homework assignment and I spent hours per day reviewing my interactions to look for mistakes), contamination OCD (couldn’t go outside, in my car, downstairs in my home, etc.), magical thinking OCD (knocked on wood over 60 times per day), health OCD, fears of losing control and intrusive thoughts. My life was consumed by my disorders so I entered a partial hospitalization program for OCD for 12 weeks. Two years later I was still struggling to function. I felt like I had tried everything. intensive ERP, 13 different medications, 11 different mental health specialists so I decided to enter residential OCD treatment. I was there for 3 months. It helped a lot to have the intensive ERP and 24/7 staff support. I got also got a much better grasp on my issues. I still struggle but I know how to deal with my obsessions and compulsions. I doubt anyone made it this far but if you did thank you for your time. I’m definitely interested in reading other people’s stories no matter how short or long they are :). Have a great day.
Is there anyone else on here that gave into one of their obsessions? I feel disgusting. I feel like if this app would have been a thing years ago I wouldn’t have. But I’m always with the what if or this would have/could have happened. It makes me question if I even have ocd and maybe I’m just a sociopath (although my previous therapist had told me I definitely do have ocd) being on this app sometimes makes me feel worse like I was such a weak person I let it eat me away until I was going to commit suicide and then decided no maybe I’m just a sociopath let me see. I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts because of it and have been for years. NOTE: please don’t flag this, I am not going to commit suicide. Suicidal thoughts don’t necessarily mean you are premeditating and in my case, I am not. Also I am TERRIBLY sorry if this makes anyones ocd reading this worse and you start to think “maybe I will do something” you most likely WON’T. I’m writing this because I have NEVER seen this side (where you gave in) of OCD written on here by anyone!
Hi all. I was diagnosed with OCD last year. I have had ups and downs with managing my symptoms. I went through rough patches where anxiety was really bad. Now suddenly I feel a bit better so I’m trying to keep up the effort to maintain this slight progress. My question is. How did you make the decision on if you should try medication or not? I am a very indecisive person.
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