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I stopped running :/ my anxiety wouldn’t let me
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I had stopped playing drums(my number one passion) due to fear of wood chips making me go blind. Fear of touching grease. Fear of metal flaking. I stopped riding dirt bikes due to fear of dust. Stopped hanging out with people due to fear of contamination from toxic chemicals. Stopped going on walks outside even in nature due to fear of needles and broken glass(I live in Portland so there is lots of it.) but I’m happy to report after 5 NOCD sessions I have done and enjoyed all of these things at least a few times and will continue doing them more. Even when I was still able to do them in the past I couldn’t focus cause I was still worried. Now it feels like I’m doing these things better than ever
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bro same. i run a fan account for my favorite group too and they absolutely mean the world to me and i went on hiatus because i realized that being on social media makes my ocd 10x worse. a part of me still wants to go back and do the thing that makes me happy :(
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i know!! i really wanna go back but i’m afraid ;(
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@markleepleasemarryme SKDJS bro are you an nctzen? i just realized you had mark lee in your user ?
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@epiphany yep? proud nctzen, exo-l, carat n many more ✨✨✨
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@markleepleasemarryme omg the flavor ✨ im a carat, moa, orbit, once, midzy + more. my ult is seventeen tho ?✨
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@epiphany THE FLAVOR✨✨ my ult is also svt!! who’s your bias?
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@markleepleasemarryme jeonghan is my ult bias out of all my groups ?? what abt u?
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@epiphany seokmin is my forever bias in svt!! but for my ULT BIAS.. like from all of the boys that i stan it would probably be taeil or mark. like idk.. i just LOVE TJEM SO MICH I CANT CHOOSE
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Sometimes it’s really hard to go to the gym
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i haven’t gone to the gym, but i hope to go soon
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I used to wear makeup , play otome games, sing. Now I can't do any of these.
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have you started to play otome games again? like the other days i started playing mystic messenger again, felt anxious since there’s a girl route (but it’s literally a friendship route?) but the boys r So cute
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@markleepleasemarryme I'm kinda building myself up to play them again. I have Obey me, MM, and Mr.Love
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@markleepleasemarryme I really loved playing them ? but the girl route made me scared because I thought I would like her
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@Someone shut up my brain omg!! i also have obey me hahah i played mr. love before everything happened i loved my boys so much
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@Someone shut up my brain ikr!! but the thing is that the route is literally a best friend route ;( but i’m kinda scared because what happens if the game makes me choose a flirty comment :(
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I used to love to be in my mind and create stories about characters and drawing them. I was sure it was what I was going to pursue for the rest of my life, but ever since this hit I just haven’t been able to and I feel like I almost don’t want to anymore. It sucks because I really did love it more than anything and I was getting really excited about the future. For once I thought I had a direction and clear vision of my future but now I’m just stuck barely getting through the day.. :(
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i’m so sorry:(( even though the road seems dark, i promise that the light will shine brightly soon. if you don’t mind me asking, what’s your ocd? sorry if it seems personal:(
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@markleepleasemarryme I can’t bring myself to mention it to anyone. Especially since I’m not sure whether or not it’s ocd :( Thank your kind words though. ❤️ Sometimes I just feel like I’m going to be stuck feeling like this forever. ?
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@Scribble Thank you for*
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@Scribble of course. don’t worry at all hun❤️ i know that it seems really tough but you’ll make it out of there okay?
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Literally feel the same way, I was in art school sand dropped out because of this
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sameeeee i had a fan acc but i deactivated bc of ocd
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I have just recently realized that I had SO OCD. This began whenever I was watching porn and had an intrusive thought about the guy in the porn. It was more minor at first, it was a majority of what I was thinking about throughout the day but it didn’t feel as distressing at first. If I had downtime to think about it, it would affect me but if I was just going about my day I wouldn’t notice it. I began going through the compulsions of checking myself. This lasted for a while until another obsession occurred. Then it seemed as if my SO OCD took a step back. I would have flare ups but they would seem to pass. Recently, I had a very bad night of constant compulsions and looking at pictures and imagining things to check myself. After that night it was very distressing, it affected me to the point where people around me began to notice and ask me if I was okay. One of the big reasons I was so upset was my girlfriend, we have been together for over 3 years and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I was thinking “Oh my god, if I am gay I can never be with her.” I would sit and cry about it thinking I would lose her and that might life would change because I was gay. I finally had enough and talked to her and my parents. We did some research and I was so shocked to find out that I had a form of OCD, it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders just knowing that other people have been where I am and that I’m not gay. However, I may have naively expected the compulsions and obsessive thoughts to go away now that I knew I had an actual problem. But I found that the compulsions and thoughts were still there and I was going to put some effort into getting better. I have researched and now know what to do when experiencing intrusive thoughts, yet I still have been performing the compulsions which is just feeding into the OCD. I find myself having intrusive thoughts and then start performing compulsions to see if they are true. What really bothers me is when I have an intrusive thought that tells me that I do like something. But when I think about it I have no desire to pursue those thoughts. However when I feed into the compulsions they just seem to feed into each other. It is like my OCD ignores all the things that I know I like and goes straight to panic mode. I am also trying to do ERP and am going to start doing my best to get better. Does anyone have any tips for not performing the compulsions no matter how anxious you are feeling and no matter how real the intrusive thoughts seem to feel?
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like the title says, i also suffer from cancel culture OCD, even more these last two months in which i have noticed that several people have been deleting me from social media, in fact two days ago i had a spiral as someone recently blocked me. i won't go into it to avoid the compulsion to confess but basically i had issues before with my ex and some of his friends that he himself ended up involving, even though we are on good terms he made sure to make me look like i was the problem and several mutual friends have been detaching themselves from me. the thing is, i see many people say that to fight their cancel culture OCD they delete their social media and then just. disappear. but i don't want to do this - i don't want to hide, i want to stay in the public eye and create things, in fact, i am an artist. but since the last year now i live in constant fear and also somewhat sensitive to what others think of me thanks to the rumors about me and i'm afraid that one day i might be "exposed" or something like that; and i also feel like i'm "pretending" to be a good person all the time. so, with what i already said, how do i deal with this without having to resort to deleting my social media? i think that exposing myself every day and continuing to post things on social medias despite the constant fear and guilt i feel would count as ERP, right? thanks.
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i’ve been having this theme pop up recently where if I see people either criticize or be a hater and spread misinformation or seeing old controversies about my current interests/hyper-fixations i find myself having a crazy anxiety attack about if it’s “morally okay” to be interested in my interests anymore. i feel really singled out and like im doing something wrong because im watching a youtuber or listening to a specific musical group. in all of these specific situations the people involved have talked about the situations and have changed accordingly but seeing it makes me feel like i shouldn’t be allowed to like my favorite things. to be clear none of these things are dramatically evil or bad. it’s either misinformation/uneducated people influencing someone opinion and then they learn and change. it just makes me feel like im not allowed to like my favorite things anymore because of people criticizing it??? if that makes sense??? also this is a little off topic but also not really because i’m 99.99% sure im autistic because of MANY things but with this specifically i have very strong interests and i feel very deep feelings about them and any and all criticism or hateful comments towards my favorite things trigger me deeply and make my ocd act up and make me feel uncomfortable and uncertain and anxious and it causes physical discomfort to me. i really don’t know how to calm myself down about this specific theme it’s brand new and makes me feel really anxious. not trying to look for reassurance but does anyone else understand what i mean??? does anyone have any advice on how to not give into the negative comments??? any suggestions on how to ease this specific anxiety???
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