Hi all, I have an ERP question. I have POCD and I am terrified I would enjoy harming a child, particularly young girls. When I practice exposure I get several things: fear, dread, negative talk AND the big one, a very intense, very real groinal response. I often obsess that if get rid the fear/anxiety, I am left with the thoughts and the grional response. Which You can imagine I fear. Like, the only thing that separates me from a pedofile is my fear, why would I get rid of it? Regardless, I still experience some relieve after practicing exposure but I am left with a groinal response that stays lingering all day and eventually becomes a trigger. Anyone else experiences this? Any suggestions to work trough this in ERP?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I suffer from a similar problem but I haven’t been able to start ERP yet. I would imagine the groinal response will take longer to get rid of than the anxiety because your obsessions have conditioned your mind to view children in a sexual way which elicits a sexual response and the goal of ERP is to recondition your brain to treat children like you do anything else. The fear that you have is irrational it doesn’t actually prevent you from doing anything. Do you have this same fear with adults? No, and you’re not abusing nor are you worried about abusing adults. I know how difficult it is to differentiate between real attraction and the false sexual responses that come from ocd. I wish you luck ? and hope this brings some insight.

@Lulu

Date posted: 5y

Thank you. It helps to know I am not the only one experiencing this. I think what you say is key but I had not discussed it this way in therapy. I will bring it up.

@Lulu

Date posted: 5y

Are you doing ERP eventually?

OCDkyle

Date posted: 5y

Yes I understand I am in the same boat. I would watch family movies that helps me. I am so scared but I survive it and it gets easier every time.

OCDkyle

Date posted: 5y

I do ERP every chance I get. It is hard and it leaves me with a lot of anxiety and scary emotions that I don’t want but it gets easier every time. Do you do visual or mental ERP?

@Lulu

Date posted: 5y

I do both, although I have an impossible time with the visual ones, given what I explain before. It feels almost like a phobia. I have not been able to decrease fear with a visual exposure because I can’t accept the groin response. I do not understand how to sit with uncertainty when my body is reponding in a way I do not agree with and is pleasurable at the same time. Is a paradox. All this said, there have been many times in my life where I am distant enough from my thoughts amd urges that I do not experience a groin response. Is just that this pandemic has exacerbated everything. I do not have a way to channel my anxiety, or entertain my mind and the obsessions have deepened

Jessie-

Date posted: 20w

Pocd

Anyone experience intrusive thoughts of their children during intimate moments? Have you done erp to this? I had one and continued slightly before running and needing to vomit now feel guilty anyone else experienced this?

1meow$$$A

Date posted: 19w

Solo ERP for POCD

I am doing ERP by my own because I can’t afford therapy. I exposed myself to babies photos online, changing diapers videos, baby genitalia . All was done with google . I honestly feel like I am predator by viewing these photos even though they are just babies. I seen also a picture on research article of a female patient she is a minor and they have done sexual abuse check on her . The image was so triggering, it was literally a vagina. ℹ developed lots if obsessions with increased groinal responses. And now I fear that I enjoyed all what I have seen.

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 17w

Is this a compulsion? I need your help ❤️

I already wrote about this and you really helped me, but now I wondered?! During the erp, I look at a picture of that person with some grimaces that the brain sexualizes, otherwise I have incest ocd! The person is of my gender, I'm not gay otherwise. And then, based on those facial expressions, the brain creates sexual images in my head, which I often feel as sexual and mental arousel. It is enough to see the picture or hear the voice of that person! Based on the pictures it gives me the idea of sexually touching myself on it and climaxing while watching. I feel an urge (I tried something like that a few times ago and now I'm afraid of it), and then the exercise is over, but I stay until I get the answer I want and the feelings that would calm me down, but that happens less and less... Have you had any experience, and is it a compulsion? how can I stay after exercise with that feeling of reality.. Thank you in advance❤️

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