ik i’ve posted about this before, but i feel like this can’t be ocd. i had questioned my sexuality before, and have had thoughts about that pop into my head from time to time, and they never made me happy, but everyone else on this app says that they never even thought about it once before their ocd, but that’s not the case for me:(

Hey you’re not alone! I’ve had random thoughts about “what if I’m gay” before they just never bothered me like they do now because I never gave it importance since my sexuality was never something I needed certainty of. My brain loves to bring it up as proof I’m gay. Just like @reliablereader says^ there’s a lot of girls who are okay with the possibility that they might be attracted to women on some level - that doesn’t necessarily mean that they are gay. I used to say I would gladly marry Jlo and other female celebrities I loved even though I considered myself straight and didn’t actually feel sexually attracted to them and I never thought twice about it before. I hope one day we can all just accept that we will never know and move on with our lives.

I have. About a year ago I had a couple days where all I thought about was my sexuality and a couple times after that they’ve come into my head but I just assumed they weren’t true. I feel like they are true though but I just don’t want them to be

I don't want to give you reassurance but before I got into this terrible cycle of doubt, fear amd compulsion, I used to get fleeting thoughts about not being 100% straight without really being bothered by it. Sexuality is fluid and I know a lot of girls in happy straight relationships who find themselves attracted on some level to females (e.g. celebrity girl crushes or admiring a teacher at.). It could mean that they are not 100% straight or it could mean nothing at all, I think it depends on how you want to view it and how you want to live your life. The difference is that now my mind seems not to be able anymore to accept ambivalence anymore and urges me to be 100% sure that I will never ever fall in love with a woman and that if I cannot be totally sure about that then I have to blow up my relationship with my boyfriend with whom I have been with for over a decade. It really sucks, but I guess all we can do is embrace the uncertainty and go on with what makes us happy 💗

hi!! i had these sort of thoughts when i was around 12 and i even thought i liked a girl but in reality it was just a friend crush! i even told her that i ‘liked’ her but that same day i called things off because i didn’t feel the same way that i felt about boys. like i just ddint see myself being romantically/sexually involved w a girl like i would w a guy. before and after all my crushes had been boys and well:// thanks to that event i had when i was younger it triggered my hocd but i’m feeling a whole lot better:) it was just curiosity and i ddint like the experience