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Something a therapist had said to me regarding this was pretty much what upon mentioned at the end- no one can tell you for certain, not even yourself, we all (even people without ocd) just have to accept the uncertainty of this, and continue to follow CDC guidelines as we're doing, that's all we can do. Even getting tested doesn't help with the uncertainty because the thought will be "what if I got covid while I was waiting for the results" or something, so ALL we can do is accept the uncertainty, and just keep doing the protective measures CDC recommends.
This is helpful, thank you!
There is an episode on “The OCD Stories” podcast with Dr Jon Grayson - Coronavirus and OCD. Might be very helpful if you are dealing with OCD and intrusive thoughts surrounding the pandemic. As @CR said, i would follow CDC guidelines, but nothing more. Doing more would be a compulsion and making your OCD more powerful. Best of luck!
After doing what is suggested by CDC/WHO/etc., worrying won’t help whether from OCD or the “more reasonable” amount that non-sufferers feel. So after I’ve done what I’m supposed to, if I’m getting anxious, even in the middle of a grocery aisle, I just stop, close my eyes, take some breaths, and assess how much more I think I can handle and set that as my goal. Like if I am on my last item and then have checkout, I say, “Ok, do those last tasks, then you can get home or even yell in your car to vent and move on.” If I still have half a list, I decide if I can still get all the items or if I need to shorten my trip so that I don’t completely melt down in the store or just after. Sending you peace. 💜
Thank you everyone ❤️
sorry this is super long i just wanna know if anyone else has been thru something similar bc i feel super alone 🩷 i have super bad contamination ocd. it was bad already but my house was like my safe space until a few months ago someone brought something into my house that i considered ‘contaminated’. and so then i felt like that part of the house was contaminated, then it spread to everything outside my room (since family is moving around touching stuff) and then somehow i got convinced everything in my room except my bed is contaminated and i need to wash my hands after touching it. in my mind its like the contamination just infinitely spreads to things after the tiniest bit of touch. idek what im afraid of anymore or even what the original thing was but i can’t let it go. when i have to wash off contamination i have to wash at least 4 times or until it feels right, or sometimes take rlly long showers and wipe down all my stuff. i even throw away food and clothes or just whole items sometimes because they feel so contaminated i don’t want them in my space. i can’t be super near people or have anyone touch me, and i also can’t bring anything new into my room since it had to go through the entry of my house which feels contaminated. i feel like all i do is lay in bed and then wash my hands and do compulsions so i can go eat or do other stuff around the house. also i never go out because i’m bc people outside make me feel dirty, and i hate thinking about how many people have touched stuff in stores or in public and stuff. so im just in my room worrying all day. i feel so trapped and the contamination/avoiding it is all i think about anymore i barely have time for anything else and im never present when i talk to people because im worrying about if i accidentally got contaminated. im starting erp next week and knowing that im going to have to expose myself to things is really freaking me out. does anyone else have this kind of ocd ? im exhaustedddd 🥲🥲💔
This is a long one lol but basically, a couple of weeks ago I went to the toilet (#2, sorry for the tmi). Let's just say it was messy. I remember that a speck of.. #2.. Fell off the piece of toilet paper. This was probably the worst thing that could ever happen. I can't remember clearly but I'm pretty sure my jeans were on the floor underneath near where the speck could have fallen. There was also a towel. I don't know exactly where it fell as it was so small, but I made sure both the towel and the jeans went in the laundry basket and I cleaned the floor near there. Fast forward to like the next day. My mum does most of the laundry, so she will have picked up all the towels and clothes from the laundry basket and taken them to the wash. The problem is the speck. I don't know where it went but if it was on the towel and she picked it up.... Thus, contaminated mum. And she also puts clothes away that are dry. I remember that day she put my hoodie in my wardrobe, and I haven't worn it since because I feel it is contaminated. I haven't worn the clothes that have touched the hoodie. This leaves me with not a lot of clothes. And today I finally snapped and picked up a sweatshirt that had maybe touched the hoodie. And now I'm just sat here spiralling, wearing it. What if it touched the speck? What if the speck touched my mum and then touched the hoodie which then touched the sweatshirt I'm wearing? Please I'm so scared.
A few days ago, I posted how proud I am of myself, that I managed to go to the doctor to get a vaccination. Now, two days later, I find myself panicking and ruminating. It was a practice where they also test a lot for HIV and other blood diseases and in my mind, the needle/syringe they used for my vaccination was somehow contaminated with blood from another patient. Maybe by accident but sometimes my mind would make up a scenario where they would do it even on purpose. I was so proud of myself, that I managed to go there on Monday and now I am making up scenarios how I caught HIV by going there - I am feeling guilty because I was „careless“. Any tips for the moment? ❤️
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