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I totally understand this. It’s so hard to let go of my past sins and mistakes. Jesus died for your sins, that means He is a God of second chances. Try and take comfort in that. And just know that whatever you did, someone else has done it too and they’ve recovered from it fine. Your past mistakes don’t define you and you are so loved by God!
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Thank you so much 🥺 God bless you
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@Staystrong❤ Try reading some Bible verses about forgiveness and really meditate on them! Also something that always hits is me is this quote, “What drop of Jesus blood wasn’t enough to cover your sin?” Always blows my mind and helps me feel better!
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@MV01 I've tried reading scripture and listening to music and praying but for some reason I can't shake it. But that is very helpful and I thank you so much for your advice
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I also think maybe it's the enemy trying to get in my head too telling me I could never be forgiven
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do some shadow work. uncover what it is and why you feel this way
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@Solomon I've never heard of it before but maybe I could try that. Thank you
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I have struggled with this too. I feel immense guilt for past mistakes and feel like I dont deserve a future or that I will make different mistakes so why try. I am trying to realize that when Jesus said "it is finished" He really meant it. He didn't say "it is finished but lets mentally review and feel guilty for our past actions awhile first" The Bible says the enemy seeks to kill and destroy but Jesus came to give us life to the fullest!
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You do deserve a future. Everyone does. I just hope that whatever mistake it is, no matter how bad it may be, it can be forgiven. You are so right Jesus already paid the price for our mistakes so that we could live life abundantly. I know for a fact I would never make that mistake again and I would never be the person I once was. You are not alone. We can all get through this 🥺
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OCD causes you to overthink, over analyze and obsess a lot. Especially on bad things. It can defenitly be your OCD making it worse
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Very very true. Thank you
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I’m not religious but I’ve made many many bad bad choices and definitely feel as though im not worth loving or feel as though I need to share every bad thing I’ve done or I’m a liar... unfortunately and fortunately not everyone feels this way and is able to keep their mistakes to themselves the fact that you feel remorse shows you are a good person and care. Has your mistake helped shape you into a better person? Try looking at it as a devils advocate. We were all made in his image perfectly imperfect right??
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As long as you want to be forgiven and ask for forgiveness, God will forgive you. God is love and he loves you. He knows you made a mistake and your recognized it. I think you should let it go and give it to God to handle for you now.
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I do with all my heart. Thank you and God bless you 🙏🏻💙
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I feel like that too. I feel like I need constant reassurance all the time. I feel like I drive my parents crazy. They even said that I've done nothing wrong but I feel like the worst person in the world. I feel so much remorse. I believe that it has shapped me into a better person and my views are much different but I still hate myself for it.
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TW: Abuse/Pocd Im feeling really hopeless right now. I have an extensive history of sexual abuse, neglect, physical and emotional abuse as well and a significant amount of trauma from my childhood. I didn’t get any help until my late teens. During this time period I was an incredibly troubled child/teenager and I made a ton of really bad decisions that go against all my morals and values now as a grown adult. I feel like I messed up so bad I don’t deserve to recover. I don’t want to discuss all the events because they are quite personal to me but I’m really struggling with past sexual mistakes and feeling like some sort of deviant because of my past. I never hurt anyone and I never to my knowledge did anything illegal but I definitely had sexual behavior issues from my abuse. I sexualized my own abuse to cope with it. I feel horrible about this. Like I’m a monster. It also convinces me my thoughts are true and it’s evidence. Should I go to a OCD specialist for this or a sex therapist? Is there anything they can even do.
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I’ve done things in the past few years that I’m not proud of - only a couple of things I can think of and they didn’t directly hurt anyone at least with is relieving (but maybe indirectly they sort of did or could’ve which makes me hate myself because why did I do that… *how* could I do that…) If I could back and stop those things from happening, I would. I may not have thought about what I was doing at the time, so I didn’t really recognize that they weren’t okay, but that doesn’t excuse them, and I would smack some sense into my past self if I were able. I feel like if anyone knew what I‘ve done, they wouldn’t want anything to do with me. They’d write me off as worthless. And maybe they should to be honest. Now yet another thing has come up - I haven’t done anything, but I had an intrusive thought pop up that made me *think* about doing something and this would be unforgivable in my opinion. Though, to be honest, the things I’ve done before are also somewhat unforgivable in my opinion… 😞 Regardless, I don’t want to do it because I don’t think it’s okay, but I worry deep down that I do. Or that I’m looking for an excuse to make it okay to do. I don’t know, it’s complicated. And I’m upset I even thought about it. I wish I had never seen the thing that triggered that intrusive thought. Yet another thing I would stop if I could. I’ve tried to not think about it or focus on it, but it doesn’t work. Even if it goes away, it just comes back again. I just keep thinking about it and it’s overwhelming. Anyway all of the guilt of this is killing me. I feel like an irredeemably terrible person and it makes me want to give up. I can’t get on with life because it’s paralyzing. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, and at this point, it feels like I don’t deserve to just move on. I can’t live with myself and I feel like I don’t deserve anything anymore. I know a lot of this is probably OCD, but I’m not sure all of it is and I don’t know what to do… if I spoke to a therapist about it, I don’t think I could bring myself to say what I’ve done or what thoughts I’ve had. But if I was told to move on by someone who didn’t know the truth, I would worry they wouldn’t really say that if they knew. Agh, it’s all just a mess 😞
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Hi everyone, I’m new here, and I wanted to share my experience. I’ve been struggling for over a year now on obsessing over a mistake. And the rumination of the mistake I made has been overwhelming and exhausting in those two years. I feel like such a horrible person. At the time, I didn’t realize what I was doing would affect me so much. When I realized it was wrong, I just said I’ll never do it again, and I moved on. But then months later, I was reminded of what I did, and I felt like I did the worst thing in the world, and that my life will never be normal again. And ever since then, it’s been a constant thought. And it’s exhausting. I have been able to open up to my family and a close friend about it and their reactions were so nonchalant compared to what my brain has been telling me. They say it wasn’t even that bad, and that I shouldn’t be beating myself up. I tell them how badly I feel and they just act like it was nothing. I thought that would help, but my brain continues to tell me how horrible of a person I am and I obsess over this one mistake I made two years ago. I’ve learned from it, I’ve moved on, I’ve opened up about it, I’ve gotten reassurance, but yet it still eats at me. It’s constant some days. Where all I wanna do is lay down in a corner and never leave. I feel like my life will never be normal again and I’ll never experience happiness again. Whenever I smile or feel any type of joy my brain tells me to stop and reminds me that I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve to be happy. Even though everyone tells me what I did wasn’t even that bad. And that it doesn’t make me who I am. But guess it’s not enough and I’m really running out of options.
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