I made a huge mistake in the past. Going into it I didn't know at the time how bad the mistake was until a long time later. I so badly wish I could go back and fix it and change it. I hate myself and I feel like I deserve to die. I talked to my parents about it and they told me that I need to just let it go and stop beating myself up and that I've punished myself enough but I can't seem to shake it off and move on. I'm a Christian so I do believe Jesus died on the cross for our sins but why do I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I would NEVER make the same mistake again knowing what I know now. Do I deserve a second chance? Is it possible that OCD can make it worse than it actually is? I need help 😭

I totally understand this. It’s so hard to let go of my past sins and mistakes. Jesus died for your sins, that means He is a God of second chances. Try and take comfort in that. And just know that whatever you did, someone else has done it too and they’ve recovered from it fine. Your past mistakes don’t define you and you are so loved by God!

I also think maybe it's the enemy trying to get in my head too telling me I could never be forgiven

I have struggled with this too. I feel immense guilt for past mistakes and feel like I dont deserve a future or that I will make different mistakes so why try. I am trying to realize that when Jesus said "it is finished" He really meant it. He didn't say "it is finished but lets mentally review and feel guilty for our past actions awhile first" The Bible says the enemy seeks to kill and destroy but Jesus came to give us life to the fullest!

OCD causes you to overthink, over analyze and obsess a lot. Especially on bad things. It can defenitly be your OCD making it worse

I’m not religious but I’ve made many many bad bad choices and definitely feel as though im not worth loving or feel as though I need to share every bad thing I’ve done or I’m a liar... unfortunately and fortunately not everyone feels this way and is able to keep their mistakes to themselves the fact that you feel remorse shows you are a good person and care. Has your mistake helped shape you into a better person? Try looking at it as a devils advocate. We were all made in his image perfectly imperfect right??

As long as you want to be forgiven and ask for forgiveness, God will forgive you. God is love and he loves you. He knows you made a mistake and your recognized it. I think you should let it go and give it to God to handle for you now.

I feel like that too. I feel like I need constant reassurance all the time. I feel like I drive my parents crazy. They even said that I've done nothing wrong but I feel like the worst person in the world. I feel so much remorse. I believe that it has shapped me into a better person and my views are much different but I still hate myself for it.