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Heyo! OCD attacks our morals, and what we hold highest. No wonder this is the subset of OCD you’re experiencing. Try some therapy techniques- ERP first! ACT and other CBT/DBT skills can work wonders. Tell your girlfriend what you’re going through- and have a hopeful attitude. Treat OCD like a game.
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I see you on here everyday crying for help trying to make sense of your thoughts, it's not helping you mate. Best thing you can do is ring your GP and be a 100% honest with what you're experiencing, they'll refer you to an appropriate therapist/centre and you can get some help. It's not gonna be easy for you, but this fear will pass and is only temporary, you just need the appropriate and professional tools to get over it.
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Its almost like i want it but i dont if that makes sense 😞. I actually have a gp appointment tomorrow finally
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Yeah man, same boat. Hope that it is just OCD, but it makes me seriously depressed. Feels so real.
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@nGfloat I have negative feelings towards women aswel it kills me 😞
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I'm in the same spot as you lads although it's been getting alot better, things are gonna be alright. From my experience OCD isn't something which gets better on its own so best of luck to you both getting it sorted 🙏
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Its made me have negative feelings towards my gf to. Also i stay stuff in my head constantly its so confusing
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Hey Brother, it gets better. I promise! It doesn’t go on forever, but it we’ll never get better if you don’t work with a professional on HOCD. I haven’t even been in ERP for a month, and I have already seen tremendous improvements! My self esteem is higher than it’s been at almost any other point in my life. I don’t compare myself to other men or see any women as out of my league. I don’t judge other people or put them on pedestals. I need to put a lot of work into other areas of my mental health as well, but I had a feeling that HOCD would be a great place to start and it was just that and more! It literally changed my life. Seriously bro I know it sounds like I’m trying to sell you on it but I love you brother and I know the hell that you’re in mentally. Chances are it’s effecting you in many more ways than you know of. Trust me brother I was in HELL. You can and WILL overcome this, but the ERP is the only way. I wish you well my brother.
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also its made me have negative feelings and thoughts towards women that ive never had before. Its horrible 😥
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Did you find guys attractive ?
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It just seems to real and like i know im gay and just in denial. I never pictured my life with a man its just not me 😞
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I had those same negative thoughts about women too. I felt they all hated me because my HOCD made me put a sexual framework on EVERY interaction. I thought I was getting rejected sexually at times I wasn’t because that’s just how deep the OCD goes. Trust me brother I know you’re in hell. It gets better but I believe the ERP is the only way. I promise one day you’ll be able to look back on this and laugh about it. Much love.
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My negative thoughts are towards there bits etc and sometimes i go eww when i see a woman. It breaks my heart 😞
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I had that too
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I have men on my mind and get images most of the day/night and and i comment on them. I just cant stop my brain 😞
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Mate i need your help 😞
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@Ihateocd83 I dealt with that too bro. That’s the HOCD.
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@VictoriousOverHOCD Feels like denial mate 😞
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@VictoriousOverHOCD I find it kind of puts words in my mouth and twists my words. Like i will get a boyfreind etc 😞
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@VictoriousOverHOCD And my minds like how can you not be gay when your having these thoughts 😞
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@Ihateocd83 You need to get off this app seeking reassurance, you're just winding yourself up. When OCD hits it's better to do nothing.
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@ween Its constant tho 😞
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@VictoriousOverHOCD Mate i need your help 😞🙏
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Really? its so cruel isnt it😞
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OCD is cruel, my friend
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I agree with ween. The reassurance feeds the HOCD. Have you started working with a therapist. I found mine through HOCD and it literally saved me.
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I have started cbt and a little exposure. Im on medication. Sometimes it feels like i give in and accept and it just feels like im gay 😞
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Whats that mate?. Im sorry for going on and posting all the time i just want this gone
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@Bryan Let’s try not to get a pandemic virus, shall we? It could be exposed to others through yourself.
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@Bryan At least there’s a cure to OCD - ERP, and none for covid.
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@Bryan My guy, you deserve to live. I know it’s a struggle, but you are a wonderful human being who is being tortured right now but there is light. Your kids need a father and your wife needs a husband. Also, I am a COVID-19 researcher and, although this is certainly a nasty virus, it probably won’t kill you. It is way more likely to seriously maime you/give you secondary autoimmune complications that would enhance your current suffering. You’ve got this. Take it one day at a time. You can be who you want to be, even if the OCD feeds you lies at the moment.
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Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
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