- Username
- skyl
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Congratulations!
Well done
Soniclen, hey I have this same problem but it has gotten so much better. I’ve found mindfulness is super helpful, pay attention to what you’re feeling and hearing and when I thought pops into my head I’ll bring my attention back to what I’m feeling, without forcing the thought out of my head. It’s like if you get a thought during anything else, like doing the dishes, you’re supposed let it be there and focus your attention on what you’re doing. That’s what has been working for me, I couldn’t even have sex when the thoughts first started and I always felt icky doing anything sexual with my boyfriend. It’s gotten so much better though
Hey skyl. Well done. I could use your advice. When I’m in the OCD hole I get intrusive thoughts during sex. Same thing as you. And it makes masturbation and sex quite hard (or not so hard as, well, the WRONG type of arousal takes place). My problem is I find certain acts get mixed up with unwanted thoughts involving the same acts. Do you just stay with it? Do you just let it be there and carry on until it goes on it’s only or do you gently refocus? Which have you found works better?
i actually feel like i’m getting better. i don’t get the thoughts as much anymore because i realized that i know who i really am and these are just the thoughts that come with ocd. i feel like everything is getting better and i see a big difference
After getting more acclimated to hocd thoughts, I started to fear that I have schizophrenia. I’ve been meditating a lot and have been mindful and in a really good headspace. I’ve been able to take a step back and recognize that this is just another topic of my ocd, and instead of reacting in fear and ruminating/what if-Ing everything, I’ve been able to just shrug off my intrusive thoughts and just live alongside them. Almost all day long yesterday I had the repetitive thought “schizophrenia” just popping into my head over and over. With other intrusive thoughts, I feel the fear attached to the thought, and immediately start asking “what if?” And ruminating about it until I work myself up into a huge mess and start googling for reassurance. Although annoying, I’ve been able to step back and just live with the intrusive thoughts this time, not ignoring them, but recognizing them and noting them as what they are, shrugging them off, and going on with my daily life. Eventually, I notice that they have stopped for a while. At some point, they inevitably come back, but the sting and the fear is becoming less and less. Sorry for the novel guys, but today I feel strong, and today I choose to excel and fight my ocd. We all have the strength to overcome this. We can do it. And we deserve the better life that we are working towards daily.
I went to my therapist last monday and... wow I feel so good these last days. The more I talk with her about hocd, the best I feel. And the less Im thinking about this. I mean. Is still there, but it doesn't disturb me like before. I don't need to make a compulsion about it. And sometimes I have relapses and I'm going to have them in the future too because Im not perfect, but I really feel less anxiety than before. Im starting to feel like before, like who I am. Like the world is not ending and even if I am angry or frustrated sometimes because I have doubts or I don't know what is going to happen... you know, I'll be okay.
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