Why does my OCD feel so real? One minute I’m so in love with my boyfriend then the next I fear I’m falling out of love and that I’m meant to be with someone else. I feel so numb and empty I just feel emotionless once the anxiety fades away. It actually feels as if my thoughts are true how can I just feel like me again

Relationship OCD

CBL

Date posted: 6y ago

I have the exact same struggle. That’s how my OCD started, before I even know I had it. My boyfriend was well aware of the thoughts I was having about falling out of love and how devastating it was for me to think that way. It took lots of time but eventually, I learned ways of coping. I still have those thought but now I know that’s all they are... just thoughts. And knowing it’s just my annoying OCD mind that’s making me that way, it helps me cope with it. My boyfriend is now my fiancé and things are looking up. Don’t worry, it gets better.

kirby

Date posted: 6y ago

I get the same way. One thing I did that helped is when I was feeling particularly sane one day I wrote out an index card of what reality was: like that we are happy together, and yes he has faults but... so when you get one of those waves you can look at it. It especially helped me in a long distance relationship.

paulwurlitzer

Date posted: 6y ago

I have real bad rocd--pretty much sabotaged my past two relationships--but for me it's very much linked to how well I sleep. If I don't sleep well the night before, I'm just not going to think rationally that day pretty much at all. Since I'm a chronic insomniac, I'm usually not doing well. But I feel well-rested today for the first time in forever and spent pretty much the whole day alone and actually enjoyed myself--who woulda thought? Seriously if you're not doing things your body and brain need then you are going to constantly feel like something is wrong with you, trust me. And your OCD feels real because it is! But that doesn't mean it always gets what it wants. Whoever you are, you have more power than you can imagine right now

tasha123

Date posted: 6y ago

I just want to feel something other than guilt and anxiety

patheticgirl43

Date posted: 24w ago

Was it ocd?

Earlier today for about a few hours i spent the whole entire time in my room researching a certain topic and feeling 100% convinced it was true and that it was the real me and i never had ocd. There was convincing evidence too. I was freaking out, crying, etc. i hardly remember what i was thinking, its almost like i blacked out. I keep trying to remember because from what i do remember some of the thoughts kinda bother me. I ended up calming down and snapping back into what i think is reality, and felt completely opposite of what i was thinking just 5 minutes prior. Im so confused, i dont know who i am, i feel like im actually going crazy.

shopgirl

Date posted: 19w ago

Imagining the future

Does anyone else with SO-OCD struggle with imagining a future partner and checking feelings? That’s been my biggest compulsion, and now I feel like I don’t want to end up with a man someday, or that if I do I’ll feel sad or lonely. I’m also sitting here imagining being with women and I can’t tell if I like the sexual thoughts or not anymore, or if my negative reactions mean anything. My face scrunches and I feel anxious and my temperature rises. I’ve been off this app for a couple weeks but still feeling anxiety pretty steadily. I keep imagining the future and getting this feeling and voice that I’m gay and I need to come out to everyone. It’s distressing and I don’t feel like myself anymore

Sexual Orientation OCD

Hailey25

Date posted: 19w ago

Someone pls help w ROCD

I’m really frustrated with myself. I got diagnosed with ROCD about 2 and a half weeks ago and now it’s taken over my life. I was just with my boyfriend who is absolutely amazing and I was obsessed with 2 and a half weeks ago and then a switch flipped and I started questioning everything and have gone numb. I noticed immediately something was wrong and booked an appt with my therapist who sent me to an OCD therapist who I meet with on Wednesday for the first time. I’m frustrated because when I’m with him I know what I should be feeling and can acknowledge how great he is and how good looking he is but I feel this block in my chest keeping me from feeling things. Anyone have any advice or has ever felt this way? I know I’m new to this and haven’t started therapy yet but my god it is so draining and the guilt I feel is insane. Let me know please🙏

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