Why does my OCD feel so real? One minute I’m so in love with my boyfriend then the next I fear I’m falling out of love and that I’m meant to be with someone else. I feel so numb and empty I just feel emotionless once the anxiety fades away. It actually feels as if my thoughts are true how can I just feel like me again

I have the exact same struggle. That’s how my OCD started, before I even know I had it. My boyfriend was well aware of the thoughts I was having about falling out of love and how devastating it was for me to think that way. It took lots of time but eventually, I learned ways of coping. I still have those thought but now I know that’s all they are... just thoughts. And knowing it’s just my annoying OCD mind that’s making me that way, it helps me cope with it. My boyfriend is now my fiancé and things are looking up. Don’t worry, it gets better.

I get the same way. One thing I did that helped is when I was feeling particularly sane one day I wrote out an index card of what reality was: like that we are happy together, and yes he has faults but... so when you get one of those waves you can look at it. It especially helped me in a long distance relationship.

I have real bad rocd--pretty much sabotaged my past two relationships--but for me it's very much linked to how well I sleep. If I don't sleep well the night before, I'm just not going to think rationally that day pretty much at all. Since I'm a chronic insomniac, I'm usually not doing well. But I feel well-rested today for the first time in forever and spent pretty much the whole day alone and actually enjoyed myself--who woulda thought? Seriously if you're not doing things your body and brain need then you are going to constantly feel like something is wrong with you, trust me. And your OCD feels real because it is! But that doesn't mean it always gets what it wants. Whoever you are, you have more power than you can imagine right now

I just want to feel something other than guilt and anxiety