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You've got this, I find it hard when I am not at school too. Why not try to keep yourself stimulated over the next few weeks to make sure that your brain is not using all of its energy on rumination. I hope you have a happy holidays because you deserve it. You are so kind to everyone on this app and so helpful, we really appreciate you.
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Thanks ☺. Happy holidays to you too.
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I would imagine 2 weeks is hard because it's time off but not enough to do a project or really dig into an interest. I work in education as well and am off for two weeks. I have found my anxiety is a bit more heightened for what I thought was no reason. After some reflection, I'm realizing it's actually because the holidays are stressful in their own and bring me up a few notches anyway. Then add isolation and no family this year and my anxiety goes up a few more notches. It might be that your baseline has just bumped up simply because of the time of year. I know you are so strong and can get passed this but I'm also sorry that you are feeling this way. It really is difficult to get put of ruminations once you are in them. My hope for you is that your anxiety settles soon and you can relax.
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Yeah, I can't go back to visit family this year too. My boss is having me over on Christmas so that will help a bit. Enjoy your break and I hope you have a good holiday ☺.
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Hey Ben! Im sorry to see you on this app because you’ve been suffering but i know you have the tools to get out of this rut. May i suggest something new to get your mind off things? A new show, a new restaurant? Things of that nature? If i could ask is what you are ruminating about an old theme?
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I'll see what I can do ☺. I'm feeling a bit better now. I was able to go to the library and type out my thoughts fairly clearly. Yeah, it's an old theme. Technically it's not POCD since the girls in question are in their teens, but a similar problem nonetheless.
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I wish I had some good suggestions for you right now. I’m kinda going through the opposite in some ways. Even though my teaching job had been postponed again till mid/late January, I had Covid a few weeks ago, so right now I keep feeling like I need more time to catch up on everything even without teaching started yet. If you have any engaging hobbies, maybe treat yourself to some time there. Maybe a new card trick if that seems right? Just check in with yourself and try to make healthy choices. And if you falter, please forgive yourself and hit reset to keep going. Sending you strength and positive wishes. We’re here for you! (I don’t remember if you like dogs. If you do, mine sends you snuggles. If not, he still wishes you health.)
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@Ben84 Happy Holidays!
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@Ben84 To you as well, my friend! And a happy and healthy new year!
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