nohope123
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LMB034LMB034
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This is an intrusive thought that got stuck. Please stop trying to seek reassurance and sit with the thought until it becomes less scary.
nohope123nohope123
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I hope so but i am really worried what if I really did that
Beanie BabieBeanie Babie
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i know it seems like they're wanting reassureance but, to me it doesnt seem that way as they're saying how they feel negative or otherwise. they are just having a very bad intrusive thought and sometimes it gets us going down a spiral. but please try to be a little respectful as i read what you said as rude even though i think you werent trying to be
LMB034LMB034
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Glad to help! Hang in there- there is always a light at the end of an OCD spiral even if it doesn't seem like it in the moment
nohope123nohope123
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I really hope so. Thankyou for your support I really wanted that
IowaOCDIowaOCD
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You are not a monster at all. Ive dealt with the same thing. If you didnt have any anxiety or guilt about the situation then it would be different. True pedophiles could care less about hurting kids. Ive dealt with POCD for 20 years and still have good days and bad days. Hang in there. POCD is a living nightmare but it can get better
nohope123nohope123
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Hey is there any way to contact you like your discord? I am suffering a lot and I think you could really help me. Sorry if that is too much to ask
LMB034LMB034
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The fact that you're worried confirms that it is an intrusive thought.
nohope123nohope123
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I am really planning to do chemical castration so that atleast then I would lead a good life I guess
LMB034LMB034
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@nohope123 Have you spoken to a therapist versed in OCD about this?
nohope123nohope123
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@LMB034 No I cannot afford a therapist tbh
LMB034LMB034
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@nohope123 I'm sorry to hear you are in that situation. Maybe your community has a social worker that is experienced in OCD that would be able to chat with you? I don't think there is an expense for that type of thing- I could be wrong depending on your country (Canadian here). Either way, please know I believe in you, and I really hope you don't make such a permanent decision without seeing a professional of some sort to help you work through your OCD around it. The fact that you're thinking of that procedure to prevent something very clearly tells me that you're brain is tricking you into believing something that is just not true.
nohope123nohope123
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@LMB034 I really hope so. I don't weather your words gave me reassurence but it definitely have made me feel less monstrous. Thankyou for it. Also I'm from India where most people don't know what OCD Even is
IowaOCDIowaOCD
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I dont actually have discord. I really want to help people who struggle with what Ive dealt with but Im gonna go through my therapy sessions soon and work on getting myself 100% first. I still have 2-3 times a year where I get brain locked. Im in one of those episodes right now. Let me work on myself and get better than I can help others. The best thing I ever did was face my fears and talk to a local therapist. Have you seen anyone?
avh202021avh202021
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20 years how u do that
IowaOCDIowaOCD
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It first started hitting me at puberty and Im now 40, so I guess 25 years. Ive had OCD since I was a little child. Ive experienced most of sub categories from sexusl orientation to having to turn lights on and off ect but POCD and what comes along with it has been the worst. Im so glad NOCD is here for people because I struggled for a long time to summon the courage to discuss it. You dont want anyone to think your a pedophile when that’s actually the opposite of what you are. How have I done it? To be honest I found a good therapist who I went to for a long time but he retired. It hits me hard 2-3x a year when Im very stressed. I’m hoping with this therapy program and working with people who understand it I can learn coping mechanisms
avh202021avh202021
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How does it work you now, do you have bad anxiety
IowaOCDIowaOCD
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Do I still get anxiety? Ya I do. When I get bad Im trying to work on ways to cope. I have a very stressful busy life so thats been causing mine to beat me up. The most important thing is getting the right medication and a good therapist
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