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This sounds like classic POCD! Your niece is obviously very important to you, and you’d never want to hurt her or traumatize her, so your OCD ruminates about exactly that. OCD targets those important things which is why they’re so impactful and often really difficult to shake. You should talk to a therapist specializing in OCD, or even start with attending one of the NOCD zoom talks for some ideas on how to help this anxiety! POCD is a very common theme so don’t feel alone or in any way bad for the thoughts OCD puts in your head, they do not define you
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Yes I’ve been dealing with this for about 3 years now and it’s the worst. It’s like I try to get over it and spend time with her but every time I try it feels like I’ve done something terrible. It’s a struggle
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Hey I struggle with something very very similar and knowing I’m not alone is very helpful. I love my niece very much I would never ever do anything to harm anyone so when the thoughts arise they scare me so much that I avoid certain people. I promise you are not alone. I go through this too and I’m undiagnosed as well. I hope one day I will get help. Stay strong!
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We will get better! I believe that. The journey is just hard. It’s just hard to move past it
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I agree ^! I don’t experience this specific theme- but like HelpSendPuppies said, the principles and the anxiety surrounding uncertainty and the unknown and the need to know urgently, sounds really familiar & just like OCD. if you have the resources to, I would definitely urge you to reach out for help with an OCD therapist! Whether it’s through here or not, it’s definitely something to look into even though I know it can be really scary and overwhelming. If not, there are a lot of videos on YouTube (Chrissy Hodges is great!!) and even accounts on Instagram that have helpful tips and ways you can try and do some self ERP and therapy work. And you always have us on this app to talk to! You are not alone, remember that. And your thoughts, no matter how scary they are, don’t define you. You’ll be okay I promise <3 sending strength
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It’s really scary because it feels like they won’t get it. I wish I got get therapy on here but their services are only available in the US and UK. I’m hoping talking on here will help me. thank you so much for reaching out
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@riiii I know, I understand that. but trust me; especially working w an OCD therapist, they have heard it all!!! And they will understand. It’s just rly important to work w someone who has experience w/specializes in OCD so you can get the right treatment. Where do you live? I would rly recommend looking into the YouTube videos, just be careful you don’t watch them for reassurance bc then that can be harmful for your OCD and fuel it more. And even on this app they have features where you can practice self ERP if you don’t have access to therapy atm <3
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and if u want to join, there is an app called Discord where some of us on here chat on for support outside of this app as well. Here’s the link if u ever wanna join and have more support ❣️ https://discord.gg/KhFa6WQ6
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This is great thank you so much!
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Hi! I would have to agree with what Angela said. I’ve dealt with this, and still do, so you’re definitely not alone. I know how disgusting it can make you feel, but it’s not you, it’s just your stupid OCD. I’m sorry you have to deal with this crappy form of OCD, but it’s nice to know that someone else experiences the same things that I do! This is my first time writing on here too - don’t be afraid to reach out! Remember, it’s not you, it’s just your stupid OCD 🙂
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It’s nice to know that I have someone who understands. This was very comforting thank you!
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hey there! it seems like because you’ve had such an abrupt onset, you suffer from ocd (though i am not a clinician and cant provide a proper diagnosis). most people dont wake up one random morning and realize that they’re pedophiles. because you’re also incredibly afraid of this possibly being a truth, and you’re constantly overthinking your actions, these definitely sound like ocd symptoms. i recommend starting erp on this app, and if it is not accessible to you, try and find someone who specializes in erp in your local area. ocd feeds off of fear and anxiety; you dont deserve to live another day like this!
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Yes you’re right. I’ve been dealing with this specific ocd for 2 years now in fact that’s how it started for me. I’m definitely going to look into the resources available and hope for the best. Thank you so much!
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Let me start by prefacing that I developed ocd as postpartum ocd after having my first child. I had harm and pocd. I had it on and off for years and then it just eventually went away completely for many years until recently after a stressful life event. Now that it’s back it again targets my children but now my grandchildren also. It’s been horrible and makes me pull away from them. Last night my 6 year old granddaughter threw up in the car when my daughter was about to take her home so my daughter brought her back in the house and asked me to clean her up while she cleaned her car. I had some anxiety about it because of my ocd but I couldn’t say no to helping so I opened the bathroom door and my granddaughter was standing in her underwear waiting for me to clean and dress her. Everything was fine and normal but then for some reason, I have no idea why, I looked down at her chest area. I immediately got so upset and didn’t know why I looked there and now my ocd is saying it’s because i’m a monster. I tried to tell myself it’s just normal human behavior when someone is standing there naked that you look where you shouldn’t simply because it’s just there in front of you but I feel horrible. I don’t feel any inappropriate way about her or any child but my ocd is saying it was inappropriate. Has anyone else been through this?
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