Does anyone else go into depressions when their OCD gets bad? For me when my intrusive thoughts become too much, I lose all energy, joy, feel empty, and like everything is hopeless, and pointless, lose my appetite (or start eating everything in sight), and start sleeping 10+ hours per day (usually around 12-14hrs) so that I don’t have to be awake and deal with the way I feel, I start thinking about death a lot, more so than usual with my existential themes, and do things slowly, and have no motivation to do anything. Is this just me, or is it a common thing? This actually just started happening about a year ago, during the worst spike of my life (spike would get really, really bad for a couple weeks, then become manageable, and the next month go back to being unbearable- literally ever single second of the day was spent either ruminating, reassurance-seeking, or having a thought pop in, and this would happen alongside really bad depressions that would outlast the spikes themselves- this must have happened for 3 months at least), and I can feel the depression starting to happen again. A part of me wants to fight it but the other part just wants to give in and stop fighting everything altogether, let the depression happen, it’s going to happen anyway, why fight it, I don’t have the energy to do that. But I don’t think this is healthy. Does anyone else experience this? Or is this something I should bring up when I am again able to afford therapy (probably in a year or two)?

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Aegon

Date posted: 4y

What happens if u fight it?? Will it go away?No ,I think..u can get help from proffesionals, but fighting depression by yourself can result in higher level of anxiety..let it come , u can withstand it

Mr.ocd

Date posted: 4y

Yeah I just get super overwhelmed and end up crying when I see all the BS I'm putting myself through but it's hard to fight the intrusive thoughts from becoming cumpulsions. And when I feel overwhelmed I don't feel like doing anything but I have to remind myself I'm human I can only take so much mental and emotional strain before it affects me physically as well, leaving me feeling exhausted in every single way.

aaron909

Date posted: 4y

I get frustrated which leads to more anxiety. It can just be so overwhelming sometimes and I feel like I let it get the best of me which angry myself and sad

ARTnotOCD

Date posted: 4y

It’s totally common! However, it’s also something you do want to share with a therapist or even your regular doc. Neurologically OCD and depression also have a lot of similarities. There is a little good news about your depressive episodes. While you’ll eventually want to get help more tailored to you OCD, especially because it is related/causes your depression, there are a lot more therapies and clinics and support groups that are very low cost or possibly even free that could at least help you not feel so alone while dealing with these feelings before you are able to restart therapy. And of course, you have us here! 💪🏼💜

Just.a.bean

Date posted: 4y

Thank you! I really appreciate your in-depth answer and advice for low-cost or possibly free resources, that is quite a silver lining!

Just.a.bean

Date posted: 4y

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