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I had a breakdown last night too. I was literally on my knees crying and praying for ocd to do away. When ever I have an intrusive thought I label it as an intrusive thought then picture myself throwing it in a trash can and putting the lid on. I don’t know if it will help you but sometimes it works for me. Don’t be upset with yourself because you had the thought. It’s not something you can control. You’ve got this friend.
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I will definitely try that, thank you! But I wish ocd would just leave me alone too
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I was crying so bad, I was fighting the thoughts and my groinal responses were the strongest they’ve ever been, i legit went to sleep at 4 am that day and woke up at 7 (im 14 years old) this day has been ok since every thought i got i wouldnt say or react but it would sometimes get hard, i barely had groinal responses, and i kind of feel normal when looking at other dudes
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@hocd_sufferer I’m sorry your going through that, I’ve had groinal responses to a lot of things that really hold me back and I know how frustrating it is to have them. They keep me up at night as well
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The groinal responses most likely occurred because you were feeling anxious. That tends to happen. It has nothing to do with your intrusive thoughts. If you have not been able to start ERP, I would suggest that. It really makes a difference.
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I’ve tried erp, but I don’t think I am doing it right. Last time I exposed myself to something really big and the entire experience was anxiety, groinal responses, and it felt like I like what I was exposed to and wanted to “act on it” but I haven’t done it since because I’m scared all of this will happen again
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@Jbgys543 ERP is evidence based and if you’re doing it right, you should be able to see improvement. Were you doing ERP with a therapist here in the app?
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@Adrian1oak Oh I haven’t been doing it with a therapist I’ve been doing it by myself. But I don’t know if I want a therapist because I’m scared to say everything and I would feel so embarrassed. But I also don’t know If I can afford it
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It’s not super expensive, as other therapies tend to be and they do offer like payment plans in case you want to move forward with the therapies. As far as telling your therapist everything, there is absolutely nothing you can say that will shock them. The therapists have heard it all here and more perhaps. They understand the root of OCD and they know how it works. Doing ERP alone can be a bit difficult since the expertise of a professional is not present, however, with practice, you may be able to see improvement by yourself.
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I will definitely consider it! But what about some self-directed erp?
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@Jbgys543 I’ve never tried that. I mean while doing ERP, I’m directing it myself, but I’m following guidelines from my therapist. Is that the same ?
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@Adrian1oak I think it might be the same, but I kind of want to try erp on my own . But around two years ago I was able to do self-directed erp for my contamination ocd, which I didn’t even know I had ocd at the time. But that was difficult, however I was able to recover from it. That being said I feel like it would be more difficult to do erp for a sexual obsession.
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@Jbgys543 I do agree that doing ERP for a sexual obsession could be difficult, however, not impossible. I would do more research on ways to approach sexual obsessions to not reinforce it more. You want the behavior to decrease not increase.
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@Adrian1oak Most definitely, thank you! :)
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I just really dont want to become gay, this is really scaring me and i feel the only way to get out of this situation is to end it, i dont want to end it. But if dont have any choice what can i do? I had so many girl crushes and i still like them a lot, never not once have i ever had a crush on a boy, never aroused to anything like that, but groinal and constant gay images are just what makes me go insane
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Like before this i already knew what i wanted. A wife, 4-6 kids, a nice house and a nice school and play area for my kids
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@hocd_sufferer I know ocd is difficult. But ending it all now will only cause more harm to the people in your life. But you’ll get through this, I promise❤️. I know how it feels to think you won’t get through this because I am always like that. But there are people out there who have gone through hocd for years and years, and they got treatment and they live a very happy and fulfilling life! So if they can do it, you can do it. Trust me I know ocd is so difficult and is like our own brain torturing us, but there is help out there available. Ocd is a bitch and makes our lives miserable, but we gotta get through it one step at a time ❤️
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Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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I am hurting so much right now. I feel sad and disgusted with myself that I would even worry about these things (pocd). What kind of a human even thinks that and has doubts about that?? Definitely not one that’s rational or mentally sane. That kind of stuff should be a no brainer so why do I worry about it so much and what does it say about me? I feel sick and disgusted and can’t stop crying over it. I just feel so defeated like I want to disappear. I started ERP and every time I resist reassuring myself it comes back at me from every angle. I hate this so much.
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Okay so In the moment I get intrusive thoughts about children which I hate. I get the gronal responses which I always so many compultions after. My ocd is very bad and I’m showering and changing my bedding around 8 times. Therapists have told me I’m the worse they’ve ever known. That’s how bad my life is atm. I hate this disorder. I want to know if ocd can cause these things as it will help me to fight my compulsions and just except it’s ocd… In the moment the gronal responses are genuinely pleasurable and I struggle to ignore them and stop them, in the moment t I want them even if it was due to a thought of a kid My OCD will tell me I’m aroused I’ll feel aroused then when moving around in my bed it’ll tell me to make my vagina touch my bedding for a feeling while I’m turning over and I purposely do it in the moment… I hate it. After I do so many compilations, it’s not even me it’s like someone else controlling my body When I try to fight my compulsions I think in my mind “I like this anyways” and actually like the thoughts and gronal responses over the children, which then makes me not be able to fight them. For example my ocf was telling me to spray my feet with anti back, but then I tried to fight it and I was thinking to myself “nah l like this one I like this feeling over the kid it’s the real me” like I didn’t even feel stressed from it it’s like I wanted it. Of corse after these I do lots and many compultions Please I just want to know if ocd can do this
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