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I had a breakdown last night too. I was literally on my knees crying and praying for ocd to do away. When ever I have an intrusive thought I label it as an intrusive thought then picture myself throwing it in a trash can and putting the lid on. I don’t know if it will help you but sometimes it works for me. Don’t be upset with yourself because you had the thought. It’s not something you can control. You’ve got this friend.
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I will definitely try that, thank you! But I wish ocd would just leave me alone too
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I was crying so bad, I was fighting the thoughts and my groinal responses were the strongest they’ve ever been, i legit went to sleep at 4 am that day and woke up at 7 (im 14 years old) this day has been ok since every thought i got i wouldnt say or react but it would sometimes get hard, i barely had groinal responses, and i kind of feel normal when looking at other dudes
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@hocd_sufferer I’m sorry your going through that, I’ve had groinal responses to a lot of things that really hold me back and I know how frustrating it is to have them. They keep me up at night as well
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The groinal responses most likely occurred because you were feeling anxious. That tends to happen. It has nothing to do with your intrusive thoughts. If you have not been able to start ERP, I would suggest that. It really makes a difference.
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I’ve tried erp, but I don’t think I am doing it right. Last time I exposed myself to something really big and the entire experience was anxiety, groinal responses, and it felt like I like what I was exposed to and wanted to “act on it” but I haven’t done it since because I’m scared all of this will happen again
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@Jbgys543 ERP is evidence based and if you’re doing it right, you should be able to see improvement. Were you doing ERP with a therapist here in the app?
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@Adrian1oak Oh I haven’t been doing it with a therapist I’ve been doing it by myself. But I don’t know if I want a therapist because I’m scared to say everything and I would feel so embarrassed. But I also don’t know If I can afford it
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It’s not super expensive, as other therapies tend to be and they do offer like payment plans in case you want to move forward with the therapies. As far as telling your therapist everything, there is absolutely nothing you can say that will shock them. The therapists have heard it all here and more perhaps. They understand the root of OCD and they know how it works. Doing ERP alone can be a bit difficult since the expertise of a professional is not present, however, with practice, you may be able to see improvement by yourself.
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I will definitely consider it! But what about some self-directed erp?
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@Jbgys543 I’ve never tried that. I mean while doing ERP, I’m directing it myself, but I’m following guidelines from my therapist. Is that the same ?
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@Adrian1oak I think it might be the same, but I kind of want to try erp on my own . But around two years ago I was able to do self-directed erp for my contamination ocd, which I didn’t even know I had ocd at the time. But that was difficult, however I was able to recover from it. That being said I feel like it would be more difficult to do erp for a sexual obsession.
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@Jbgys543 I do agree that doing ERP for a sexual obsession could be difficult, however, not impossible. I would do more research on ways to approach sexual obsessions to not reinforce it more. You want the behavior to decrease not increase.
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@Adrian1oak Most definitely, thank you! :)
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I just really dont want to become gay, this is really scaring me and i feel the only way to get out of this situation is to end it, i dont want to end it. But if dont have any choice what can i do? I had so many girl crushes and i still like them a lot, never not once have i ever had a crush on a boy, never aroused to anything like that, but groinal and constant gay images are just what makes me go insane
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Like before this i already knew what i wanted. A wife, 4-6 kids, a nice house and a nice school and play area for my kids
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@hocd_sufferer I know ocd is difficult. But ending it all now will only cause more harm to the people in your life. But you’ll get through this, I promise❤️. I know how it feels to think you won’t get through this because I am always like that. But there are people out there who have gone through hocd for years and years, and they got treatment and they live a very happy and fulfilling life! So if they can do it, you can do it. Trust me I know ocd is so difficult and is like our own brain torturing us, but there is help out there available. Ocd is a bitch and makes our lives miserable, but we gotta get through it one step at a time ❤️
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I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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Every time I go to bed late and I’m falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a child’s face and my groinal area always responds to it. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning I’m always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then I’m in denial or whatever. I don’t want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I don’t even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that I’m this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. It’s so discomforting and stressful. Especially since I’m hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didn’t really have much anxiety, then I’m like “well if I didn’t have anxiety, what does this mean?” And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole
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Just gonna vent, this never happened to me before during my 20 years alive. Whether it is POCD or not, I have truly lost my sense of self and my innocence. Why of all things did this have to happen. Ive been experiencing more strong groinal responses and mixed feelings of arousal regarding specific thoughts. Its so odd, cause last month none of this happened, it was mainly just anxiety and mental breakdowns. Never did I think I would experience physical sensations as well. Acting on compulsions as well left me feeling absolute confusion, Ive stopped doing that but now I get the urge here and there, and Ive learned to sit with the discomfort. All this leaves me with more questions on whether I will truly get through this or not, or if people will understand my situation. On certain days I feel fine, on other days its sheer terror. I blame myself mainly for this all, It is scary as these images, causing both arousal and terror, only result in me feeling like a shell of my former self
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