- Username
- Jbgys543
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I had a breakdown last night too. I was literally on my knees crying and praying for ocd to do away. When ever I have an intrusive thought I label it as an intrusive thought then picture myself throwing it in a trash can and putting the lid on. I don’t know if it will help you but sometimes it works for me. Don’t be upset with yourself because you had the thought. It’s not something you can control. You’ve got this friend.
I will definitely try that, thank you! But I wish ocd would just leave me alone too
I was crying so bad, I was fighting the thoughts and my groinal responses were the strongest they’ve ever been, i legit went to sleep at 4 am that day and woke up at 7 (im 14 years old) this day has been ok since every thought i got i wouldnt say or react but it would sometimes get hard, i barely had groinal responses, and i kind of feel normal when looking at other dudes
@hocd_sufferer I’m sorry your going through that, I’ve had groinal responses to a lot of things that really hold me back and I know how frustrating it is to have them. They keep me up at night as well
The groinal responses most likely occurred because you were feeling anxious. That tends to happen. It has nothing to do with your intrusive thoughts. If you have not been able to start ERP, I would suggest that. It really makes a difference.
I’ve tried erp, but I don’t think I am doing it right. Last time I exposed myself to something really big and the entire experience was anxiety, groinal responses, and it felt like I like what I was exposed to and wanted to “act on it” but I haven’t done it since because I’m scared all of this will happen again
@Jbgys543 ERP is evidence based and if you’re doing it right, you should be able to see improvement. Were you doing ERP with a therapist here in the app?
@Adrian1oak Oh I haven’t been doing it with a therapist I’ve been doing it by myself. But I don’t know if I want a therapist because I’m scared to say everything and I would feel so embarrassed. But I also don’t know If I can afford it
It’s not super expensive, as other therapies tend to be and they do offer like payment plans in case you want to move forward with the therapies. As far as telling your therapist everything, there is absolutely nothing you can say that will shock them. The therapists have heard it all here and more perhaps. They understand the root of OCD and they know how it works. Doing ERP alone can be a bit difficult since the expertise of a professional is not present, however, with practice, you may be able to see improvement by yourself.
I will definitely consider it! But what about some self-directed erp?
@Jbgys543 I’ve never tried that. I mean while doing ERP, I’m directing it myself, but I’m following guidelines from my therapist. Is that the same ?
@Adrian1oak I think it might be the same, but I kind of want to try erp on my own . But around two years ago I was able to do self-directed erp for my contamination ocd, which I didn’t even know I had ocd at the time. But that was difficult, however I was able to recover from it. That being said I feel like it would be more difficult to do erp for a sexual obsession.
@Jbgys543 I do agree that doing ERP for a sexual obsession could be difficult, however, not impossible. I would do more research on ways to approach sexual obsessions to not reinforce it more. You want the behavior to decrease not increase.
@Adrian1oak Most definitely, thank you! :)
I just really dont want to become gay, this is really scaring me and i feel the only way to get out of this situation is to end it, i dont want to end it. But if dont have any choice what can i do? I had so many girl crushes and i still like them a lot, never not once have i ever had a crush on a boy, never aroused to anything like that, but groinal and constant gay images are just what makes me go insane
Like before this i already knew what i wanted. A wife, 4-6 kids, a nice house and a nice school and play area for my kids
@hocd_sufferer I know ocd is difficult. But ending it all now will only cause more harm to the people in your life. But you’ll get through this, I promise❤️. I know how it feels to think you won’t get through this because I am always like that. But there are people out there who have gone through hocd for years and years, and they got treatment and they live a very happy and fulfilling life! So if they can do it, you can do it. Trust me I know ocd is so difficult and is like our own brain torturing us, but there is help out there available. Ocd is a bitch and makes our lives miserable, but we gotta get through it one step at a time ❤️
There are times where my ocd just stops acting up, but then I remember like you are such a horrible person for having those thoughts and the cycle begins again, I start crying and sweating and over all just having an anxiety attack...I hate this
I don’t know what happened but I feel like my OCD is back and I’m crying because I’ve been doing so good and now I feel like all of a sudden it’s back and I don’t want to go down this path again because it was really dark time for me and I was doing good like and I’m getting my medicine switched and I started a new one tomorrow but I don’t know I feel like there’s a spell on me. I can’t go through this again and I am crying I just I can’t go through this hell hole again and I really need help in advice to say strong during this because I can’t do this like I can’t do this again I can’t I hate how my brain is like so mad and just yells at me like I have to think about this in order for her to go away like no I don’t want to think about it but if I don’t think about whatever it wants me to think about, it’s like gets louder and louder in my head, and like the more urgent, feeling of having to think about it, in order to go away, I know it’s OCD I know it’s OCD and then like what if it’s not OCD like no if I don’t wanna think about something obviously it’s OCD it’s OCD it’s always OCD whatever my brain wants me to think about and it gets louder and louder. It’s just it’s OCD bro it’s OCD, I think I am going on a spiral and I just really need help like I’m tired of my OCD wanting to think about things and then saying it’s not OCD when it’s literally OCD
Does anyone feel like anything you do just causes you to have a panic attack….. and have a full on breakdown🥲✌🏼 (currently crying, screaming, sliding down the wall)
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