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I can relate, sometimes I feel very apathetic and like I don’t love my friends. I have to remind myself that some sort of love is there, I just can’t see or feel it right now, like it’s hiding behind a wall. I know if my friends got hurt or left I would be upset. I believe love is always there, even if it’s small, we just can’t always feel or see it. I’m not trying to give you reassurance but the fact that you are worrying tells me you are a deeply empathetic person. Even if u aren’t worried in the moment you still have a heart and humanity. ❤️☮️ I hope you feel better soon
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thank you 💜
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It's never a good idea to self-diagnose. Since you're here even asking about it I really doubt you're in that personality disorder cluster. It takes alot to actually be diagnosed in the b cluster branch. We all go meet people and in the beginning it's all great but the more you spend time with them the more you see how they really are. We're actually not really compatible with alot of people that we actually get a real connection with. And also, iono how long you've had these friends. But we all grow and find our own way in life and alot of times how you grow is not the same way they are taking. It's natural to lose connections to people you've been really close with cause of the sheer fact the situations and goals in life has changed. Hopefully this helps and make it a bit easier for your mind
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thank you. i’ve also realised a huge part of why i feel detached from my friends could be because i’m never ‘myself’ and i always keep my guard up. i always feel like i’m performing to avoid awkwardness when i socialise. whereas with family, i’m attached to them because i’m myself. not sure if this makes sense, but it gives me hope that i’m not a terrible doomed person!!
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I feel kinda like this too
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recently ive been worrying that im ''secretly'' a narcissist and that im accidentally hurting all of my friends. it really doesnt help that i do relate a bit to some narcisstic traits like having an unstable ego/''needing'' validation, although i suspect it comes from a different source for me (like OCD, maybe?). it also hurts because ive been trying to understand more stigmatized disorders like NPD more and learning more about them so that i don't add to the demonization, but i feel like doing so has also instilled the fear into me that im accidentally harming people i care about or that im not actually a ''good person'' like how i like to think of myself
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I’ve had off and on fears and thoughts of being a narcissist but at this point it doesn’t feel like a fear anymore it feels true and it feels like it all makes sense the more I learn about narcissism. I’ve even put the label on myself and have been monitoring all my social interacts and motivations. I don’t know if telling myself I’m a narcissist causes me to act more narcissistic either. I have some specific examples and factors to talk about that might be too long to post, so if I can talk about them to anyone on here I’d appreciate it 😭🙏
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Recently I’ve been getting these very intense episodes of feeling extremely annoyed, irritable and touchy. I start to think narcissistic thoughts like feeling extremely entitled, envious of others and just overall snotty and rude but also horrible about myself. I take everything personal in these moments even though I know it’s stupid to do so. with harm ocd it also makes it 10x worse because they urges are worsened by the anger and intense emotions and sometimes I feel like just crying or this deep pit in my stomach of fear and dispare about the future like where am I heading and who am I becoming? I’ve excessively been on Gemini asking about covert narcissism, because my family disagrees with the idea of me being a narcissist along with my therapist but I just can’t let it go because I actually genuinely believe it. When I want to make things right it feels so self centered and I don’t know the right way to genuinely care about others. Maybe I already do?? I can’t tell if this is all just anger, intense fear and overwhelm, from med changes (went from lexapro to buspar) or processing grief (grandpa died in February) but sometimes I feel even worse because in my head I believe the grief only effects me and I need total attention and care 24/7. and start wondering if this is a subconscious way of thinking for me that I just assume is ocd and anxiety. I feel so tense and when I get in these moments I feel like I’m about to combust, I dissociate, feel like sobbing, isolating, or yelling but can’t tell if it’s all caused from an “ego blow” or something that someone did that made me feel bad about myself and that’s why I feel such high self pity. idk anymore but this feeling is terrifying especially the more I believe I’m a narcissist everything is evidence. I even start wondering what if this is rage, or hatred or resentment? like deep down dark feelings?
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