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that’s ocd for ya, it has no compassion or empathy, itll attack and leave you feeling like you’re a monster. you have to hold on to the fact it’s all ocd and that it wants you to feel this way, it wants you to be miserable and stuck. ocd attacks anything you care about, all your fears, it will tell you that you’re them. it’s ruthless, but you are NOT alone and there is always hope. dont let those intrusive thoughts win.
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You couldn't have spoken truer words....damn 😥
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Keep pushing thru it...nothing lasts forever
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Thankyou for your supportive words! 🙏❤️
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Same here. Its moves to so many different themes.v
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Someone who understands 🙏❤️
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@Anonymous How could you not?? I'm so very sorry, but just know you are not alone. I'm right there with you 😥
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@Anonymous To answer your last question no they absolutely wouldn't!
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Yes ma'am!! 4 months ago to be exact....not a clue of this!! Its as if I'm reading my own words wow 🎯 you feel detached from what you once we're my therapist calls it a phenomenon whatever that means....I've done my own research on it and that is exactly what it's referred to. When I tell you we are not alone in this we are most definitely not, and many people have gotten past it...I know hard to believe 😥
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@Anonymous Same exact over here....strangely enough this isn't my first or second rodeo I went through this years ago twice before and managed to get through it on my own, don't ask me how.
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@Anonymous YESS! don't know why , all I can come up with is that our minds were younger stronger idk
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@elizabethcrowder3gmail Same here. Im with you both. Are you guys in therapy or meds?
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@Kls2121 I'm doing both Tramazone and heart mindfulness therapy have helped me out tremendously with hocd
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I want to say no but I can't say for sure....my therapist says it's a brain imbalance. Therapy and Tramazone has helped me out tremendously with hocd. You have to reach out for help please don't wait. The tricky part is finding just the right therapist.
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I have a regular doctor. Couldn't afford therapy. He just prescribed zoloft. Haven't started it. Soooo scared lol
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@Kls2121 That's the sad and angering for me part that they don't make this an attainable thing and so many people get lost. Everyone should have therapy available!! It could save thousands of people 😥
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@elizabethcrowder3gmail Exactly!! It drives me crazy. Mental health is a joke.
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@Kls2121 That's an understatement!! The one thing we should be the most on top of "the mind" and it's the most ignored. All I can say is I know people are coming out of this, so whatever you need to do to get the right therapy do it.
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@Anonymous Same here my friend, you are not alone in that sentiment....there is help out there you just have to find the right therapist and jump on it.
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@elizabethcrowder3gmail I agree it makes me so sad.
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@Anonymous Your not alone. Its awful.
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- 21w ago
POCD has been the worst thing I've ever been through. I feel like I have always sort of experienced it but not to the degree I do now. I used to plan being a mother to a beautiful family. Now I don't know if I'll ever have children at the risk of having a girl. I used to have intrusive thoughts that would make me feel weird but I could just move on from them. That was until I had to babysit my niece and change her diaper. I want to throw up thinking about it. I got a horribly strong groinal response and I didn't know what to do. I didn't understand why it was happening. It bothered me all day that day and later on I did the disgusting deed of testing myself. I regret it everyday. It's a horrible compulsion and it haunts me. I tested if I was getting off to the thought of her. And of course there was stimulation because of the groinal response. But I hated doing it. I just felt like I had to be sure. After that and since then I haven't wanted to be around her. I stopped planning being a mother, I stopped watching cute baby videos like I used to enjoy because they trigger disgusting intrusive thoughts. After a while I stopped being intimate with my boyfriend and haven't done anything with for months because the thoughts take over and make me feel like I may enjoy the deed more if I was thinking of children. I worry that maybe I do enjoy these thoughts and I'm just denying it. I wish I could be sure. I feel so disgusting and ugly, I've never hated myself this much. It takes over most of my days. I wish I had never changed her diaper. Some times in moments of clarity I am so sure that I'm not a predator, but when I am vulnerable OCD sneaks back in and tells me I enjoy my thoughts and that I should think them. Sometimes it gets so overwhelming that I have to test. I wish I could stop. It ruins my entire week. I feel like a monster. I want to love my life again. I miss life before this. I feel so hopeless most of the time and I can't imagine a way out. I'm scared to start therapy because what if I found out I am a monster? I can't live like that. I won't. I want to cry and scream. Am I alone in this?
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I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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