- Username
- Girlski
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I'm scared people will think I'm a stalker because of hearing about obsessed people who love too much.
I can relate in a way. So, when I was a kid, I one day jumped up onto the closed bleachers of our gym. When I jumped down, I was holding onto something and my shoulder dislocated. This was something that was completely preventable, and my fault entirely as the gym teacher (sub at the time) would frequently tell us not to get up there. That mixed in with some more events, I'm now traumatized and have obsessive thoughts in the night leading to attacks. I didn't *ask* to be injured, I was just being a thoughtless kid. Yet even so, it gives me OCD attacks. Same as you, I did something I didn't mean to or was ditsy or something. Your condition is real, and you are valid.
When I was younger I had terrifying fears of being stalked or having my house broken into. Both of these fears stemmed from things that happened when I was a child that scared me. Funnily enough, both of those things happened again in my late teens & it felt like my world was falling apart because my fear was coming true, not even because of the actual potential of danger. But after I settled I realised I survived through these experiences that scared me so much & that I couldn’t have prevented them if I tried. Guess what I’m trying to say that the fear was far worse than the reality, in the end. If someone is harassing or following you then definitely speak to someone you trust who can help though
Thank you for all of this, I was a naive young child and didn’t know what I was doing at the time... looking back I can’t even believe how stupid I was.. there is not even a shred of evidence I’m being stalked but the fact that I met someone from online in person that I didn’t know... They could’ve definitely followed me home. It was over 12 years ago but I got a random intrustive thought what if that person followed me home that day years ago and is still following me?
Also btw, I’m not certain but I could imagine that putting yourself in a dangerous position on purpose could be a form of self led exposure? I spent years behaving recklessly & was dissociated most of the time (before I understood my OCD) as a way of relinquishing all control over my own life, because the control had taken over everything prior to that. I did get into some pretty bad situations & wish that I’d had better support to identify & find healthier ways of managing OCD rather than doing it alone
Living with the fear of going crazy. Hey everyone, through my journey living with OCD I’ve had many different themes. The most enduring one was Harm OCD, but I would also have intermittent POCD thoughts. It wasn’t until the last few years that I developed a new theme: the fear of developing psychosis/schizophrenia. While this theme seems to be far more common, it is my experience it isn’t really noted in most of the conventional information you might find online. In all the books, websites, videos, and blogs I’ve digested, I’ve only seen it mentioned a few times. But a perusal online shows that in many OCD communities, it’s a common fear. That’s why, for those of you who are suffering or may suffer with this theme, that I find it important to share the experience openly. During the day-to-day, depending on the intensity of the obsessions, it can have a profoundly limited effect on your life. You want to avoid any scenario that might trigger the thoughts, but the avoidance leads to ever-increasing isolation. Personally, I’ve found actively participating in treatment and ERP has helped me maintain most of my regular responsibilities and habits. In the past, an OCD spike could really derail my life. And while I’m certainly dealing with more intrusive thoughts than “usual” at the moment, knowing I have the support of the community and my therapist helps me stay on course. It is without question that without treatment, my suffering would be greater than it is now. I have tools now to manage it that I never had before. It’s important to remember that no matter the theme, someone else is experiencing it. And within that theme, the particular thoughts aren’t really the issue. It’s our response and relationship to them. OCD is incredibly creative, and many with OCD tend to be reflective and conscientious people! You may have all manner of odd, strange, or disturbing thoughts. And that’s ok! Although it seems like a tired cliche, you’re never truly alone. If you have this theme, and are comfortable sharing, it can help others feel that they can be open and without judgement. I hope this has helped someone who felt isolated. Thank you!
Is it true that OCD latches onto thing you value most? My themes are: pure OCD, POCD, and real event. If those are my themes, what does that mean about what I value?
Anyone else feel like their worst ocd theme is harm? I have several themes but I’d rather experience any of mine than my harm ocd. When I get anxious over my harm ocd, I’m miserable but when I don’t get anxious, my ocd latches on to “oh so you like this? Could you do this? Do you want to?” Ugh. I just hope someone understands or can respond bc I’m in a bad flare and just want to know I’m not alone 😔. Mine was personally triggered by the Idaho murder thing that I keep seeing on Tik tok. I made myself watch dateline about it for ERP so I’m sitting with all the anxiety right now and I can’t stop ruminating. He had OCD (the criminal who did it) so of course that has me legit spiraling. 😣😣😣😣
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