I genuinley can’t do this no more, I just want someone to listen and understand- I have started reading stories about girls realising they were gay from a young age and stuff like that and I match some of the symptoms. I used want to talk to “the cool girls” in olde years or if I got any attention from them I’d be buzzing. However ever since I got ocd I realised maybe it’s cos I like them? however I never fantazized about anything sexual or romantic it was genuinley like me wanting them to be my big sister or something. I’m so confused rn idk what to do and now I feel like I’m in denial and it’s making me think all the boys I think I’ve liked I haven’t :-(

Sexual Orientation OCD

Nik07

Date posted: 4y

Its a common OCD symptom. Analysing past interactions is a form of compulsion. Think about it for a second. Before your OCD phase you never thought "WHAT IF". You never considered these interactions with the famous girls to be becaude of attraction. OCD caused you to feel this way. It has happened to me too. Before my OCD phase i never ever thought anything like that but once the intrusive thoughts kicked in I started to wonder if i actually liked any of my best friends sexually which wasn't the case. Stay strong and not give up. OCD can play with your brain a lot. It is gery convincing. All you can do is never try to fight or analyze yhe thoughts just learn how to live with them. That way they will become weaker.

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

I feel like we share a lot of things with HOCD, I also ruminate about past decisions I’ve made with wanting to be popular and putting those girls on a pedastole. Later I wonder if that was because I wanted to be with them and I wanted the guys to give me attention but nothing more. I was not accepted in the popular group tho but I stayed, and now I think it might have been because I liked them, but at the same time those thoughts never occurred in that time?

ewaedb

Date posted: 4y

I have something so similar to you guys!!!! When I was younger I always looked up to a lot of older girls that i considered cool and kind of wanted to be like them. I guess i kind of idiolised them but my OCD latched onto this topic SO bad even though I know I only wanted to be like them because in my eyes they were cool you know?.

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

@ewaedb Yes! But if we think about it objectively, it never was about being in love with any of them? But if it was crushes of mine then i don’t believe in love because I don’t want love to feel like that.

🤎🤎

Date posted: 4y

@🥰 the thing is with me I have made people think I’m someone I’ve not and this all started when I was 11 so to the people I have proved I’m something I’m not, they’re all girls btw, I’m always trying to say stuff so they’d overhear to see that I’m not the person I think I am and then my brain is like oh your crushing on them then

girlwithocd..

Date posted: 4y

@🤎🤎 I feel you, i was extremely insecure when i was younger (i still want approval tho from girls and i am 19)

🤎🤎

Date posted: 4y

@🥰 yes aww haha I want approval from girls too idk why I feel like it’s cos girls can be bitchy and want to drag you down and when they compliment you it means something idk. but then my brain is telling me it’s bc I’m attracted to them🙄

ewaedb

Date posted: 4y

@🤎🤎 I have the exact same thing!!!! I also think for me it's because girls can be super judgemental, so when I'm liked I feel like it means something.

🤎🤎

Date posted: 4y

@ewaedb yes same! Now I feel like I’m not alone aha!

🤎🤎

Date posted: 4y

a few months ago i liked this boy and I snapped him a lot and during that time I don’t think I had any intrusive thoughts or anything but as soon as I stopped talking to him all the intrusive thoughts and compulsions came back but my brain is telling me I never liked him

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