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- Taylor264
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Hi! Literally in the EXACT situation. I finished my first year of medical school and my OCD went out of control and became debilitating. I got really frightened by the end to start the school year. I got on meds and things have eased up and I had the choice to begin but I decided to take the year off and learn better coping skills. I moved countries and live back with my parents. It was a little hard and at times I have some regrets but in the end I'm so happy I did. What's the point of life if your mental health isn't good? Sometimes life needs you to slow down and you just need to be in tune with your mind and body. OCD is tough and stress makes it worse. Remember medication is just a tool but CBT/ERP are what will make the change happen in the long term. One semester off for better ways to cope for a life with OCD is worth it. In the end, one semester is nothing and I'm sure it will make your family happy.
Yeah I have a week or 2. I’m sending an email now. It’s just a tough choice to make because my thoughts are getting out of hand and friends give a good distraction but I know that my college town has limited resources with mental health and that’s why she wants me to go. But thanks guys! I’m going to talk to her more about it
Thank you?
Not at all... I have a unique story but I wasn't the typical applicant - I didn't have much experience in medical field and applied wth an art degree. I went back to get a post bacc in science and I never even finished it. I explained it all during my interview - I couldn't finish some classes due to financial reasons. Although my application lack the standards, I had other strengths they admired. If you can't finish the courses or theirs a gap, just strengthen your app in other ways. Being unique is just as important. I applied to med school at 28 and have so many gaps and period of time I took off cause of OCD/anxiety - and that's ok! I just realized during med school that at this point in my life - I need to take off time to really handle stress and do better with OCD so that in the future I won't have to take as much time off. So take time for yourself and heal your soul. Med school will be there but your mental health might not be. Don't be afraid. Your doc and therapist are trying to help you. Now it's time for you to help yourself. You could always tell the med schools that you took time off to make sure you really wanted to go to med school - they appreciate that kind of stuff because they don't like people rushing in and not realizing the sacrifice.
Ok, thank you? The university I’m at right now is almost 3/4 premed and extremely cut throat. Like I’ve had ppl take advantage of me bc I couldn’t bring myself to be like that to them. It just makes me feel that if I’m not excelling in things, I have no chance of getting in. If you don’t mind my asking, what medical school are you at, or which ones did you apply to where you thought that the interviewers could see past the medical problems?
I'm at Auckland medical school and yes I had the same problem with other applicants. I just didn't care. You kind of can't care because in the end, they are making it harder for themselves to be so cut throat. I would say maybe not to mention any sort of anxiety, unless you've really handled it and have some sort of success story. I know that sounds not enticing but I never told the interviews about my anxiety because I didn't want them to think I couldn't finish. I just told them about my financials and how used that time off to work in a non profit. Unless you want to be a psychiatrist but again, I wouldn't mention OCD unless you have really fully handled it.
In the end, if you want something, you can make it happen. It may not be linear but nothing in life is. You'll have setbacks and other problems that may steer you in other directions. You'll get to where you want to be in the end but the most important is to enjoy the journey and try to accept the uncertainty.
Ohhh ok. Yea I’m not sure what I should say about the time off, considering I wouldn’t be working or volunteering, or anything, I’d be in residential. Good advice, thank you:) You are going to be a great dr❤️
Thank you. That's very kind. You'll figure it out. Just take care of yourself first.
Tell your therapist that you are worried taking time off from college and hanging with friends as it you believe it would make the OCD worse. See what your therapist has to say afterwards
Can you also ask your psychiatrist what they think in terms of your improvement? Or discuss with your therapist options if you don't go to the clinic? Being with friends is hugely helpful to my mental health so I get it. When do you have to decide by? Maybe you can wait a bit and see
My dr and therapist are both saying I need to go to residential treatment and drop my classes for this semester. Like every time I go they spend the first half of our time trying to convince me to go? I am premed and I’ve already had to drop a couple classes in the past because of OCD, so I’m really scared that if I drop this semester that I won’t be as strong an applicant. OCD has taken so much from me and I think I’d crumble if it took away my aspirations to be a dr. I just don’t know what to do. I know @waterlady, you said you took time off, but you were already accepted. Do you think that dropping before acceptance would make me less competitive?
Hey all! I just joined this app and wanted to ask for your thoughts and encouragement on something I’ve been experiencing lately. (*long post ahead*) I’ve had an OCD diagnosis for about 2 years now, along with generalized anxiety, depersonalization symptoms, and depression diagnoses since my teens (I’m 24). Been lucky to have great family and healthcare that have helped me get out of some very dark places. I’m currently on a very high dose of Prozac, a smaller dose of Wellbutrin, and have been in therapy pretty consistently since my late teens. Life is pretty good....I’m in grad school and am doing well socially and academically. I am moving out to another part of the country to do an internship for 10 weeks, starting this Friday. But with all of this great and wonderful stuff in life, I have definitely noticed my OCD getting worse, despite my meds and self care. I’ve been having more obsessive fears and doing the rituals and compulsions to soothe those fears. It’s taking up much more of my mental space than it had for the past 2 years or so. I think part of it is the big change of moving to a new place temporarily, finishing my first year of grad school, and going from being insanely busy to having a month of downtime that is just now wrapping up. I’m getting scared that things are going to get really bad again — so far I’ve been managing with mindfulness and acceptance, and reading up on tactics for managing intrusive thoughts and accompanying compulsions. But I am so afraid that things will get to be into the dark and horrible place they were in 2 years ago. My OCD has been really mild the past few years, since I started the meds, and to feel it flare up again is really REALLY distressing. It makes me scared that the meds aren’t working, or that all the thoughts and fears are real. I know this isn’t the truth, logically, but my OCD and anxiety are running with it. I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced this (change-related flare ups and the fears accompanied by them) and has tools to manage relapse or flare ups. Thanks in advance :) :)
I’m withdrawing from college on Wednesday. I’m leaving all my friends to go back home and get intensive treatment at the Rogers OCD Center. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make. There was all this fear swarming in my mind. “What if my friends forget about me and stop caring? What about my dnd campaign? What about the guy I like... what if he thinks I’m crazy? What about my classes? I’m supposed to graduate this semester.” All these thoughts terrified me. I couldn’t even imagine living in a world where every possible thing went wrong. However, after a while, things started making sense. I needed to get help. I couldn’t just keep pretending that everything was fine. Today I told my friends that I’m withdrawing. They cared so much. We had an impromptu party and all my friends were there. It was the best day I have had in a very long time. I’ve never felt so loved. I talked about coming to visit in the future and returning for fall semester. I talked to my dm about continuing our dnd campaign. Tomorrow, I’m saying goodbye for good and I’m even gonna work up the guts to ask the guy I like to play guitar with me one more time (we’re in a band together). What I mean to say is this: never scare yourself outta getting the help you need. When you do what you need to do, everything else will fall into place. Who knows, maybe things will be even better than they were before.
Hello everyone. This fall I plan to move out of my parents house and live on my own. I’m extremely nervous about this. I feel like when I’m alone my thoughts and obsessions and anxiety get worse, and also a lot of the times I’m in such a bad place I can’t drive myself anywhere or feel safe anywhere, so I rely on my parents and my friends to drive me places or I won’t get out at all. Is it a bad idea to move out of my childhood home if I can barely do anything without extreme anxiety? I just don’t know what to do. I know I can live here forever and I have to move out eventually, but I feel like I’ll never really be ready.
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