- Username
- Piper Montana
- Date posted
- 3y ago
rationalizing thoughts isnt going to make it any better. the ocd will always try and find another “what if” anytime you try and argue with it. accept the presence of the thought and say “maybe that thought is true, maybe its not.” thoughts dont mean anything but your ocd will make you think they will so that it stays alive. in order to deal with groinals stop giving them meaning. dont be surprised when what happens and dont give it any meaning cause the more meaning you give them the more they will occur. you got this!!
ty!! there are some days my HOCD feels like denial and that I don’t really like boys and will be forced to be with girls bc that’s the “true me”.
@strawberry ice cream do u guys relate?
@strawberry ice cream i relate!! like at this point i dont really care if being with girls is the “true me” cause i simply dont want it. but ocd is a really messed up thing where the more you think about it the more your brain is trying to convince you. it mimics your deepest fears. if you fear losing attraction to men, it will do that. if you fear feeling a groinal towards women, it will do that. we just have to show it we aren’t afraid so that it stops. the way you do that is by saying “that may have been a real feeling, it may have not but i am not going to fixate on it”
Yes. I can understand when a girl is hot my body never did things or maybe I did and I never noticed. Here how I know that my feelings are different for men and women. When guys touch me I get aroused almost instantly and it’s intense. I love that feeling. When It happened for the first time I didn’t know what that feels was. When girls do that I feel uncomfortable and I don’t feel anything. It’s not helpful that you think no boy would love you and said you were bisexual but didn’t feel something for girls. Like I wanted to but then I got bored and I tell them “hey I like boys” they yell at me which gives me even more guilt.
What I learned was if it’s not hell yes it’s a hell no
same girl, I’m so scared. I just want this to end.
Yes. I made the mistake of trying to rationalize with a thought and I kept checking for attraction and it just spiraled. I knew better. I guess it was just early and I wasn’t trying to sit with uncertainty atm.
I’m not really sure how i feel. I thought i had pocd with groinal responses but I literally can’t get the arousal to go away at all. Like all day I’ve been hyper aware of how my groin feels. It’s also like during all thoughts and conversations. I know I’m worried I’m a monster and it’s making me sick but i also feel like the constant state of arousal is actually NOT POCD related but just. Something else. Can anyone else relate? It’s really hard to not focus on it.
POCD TW. Need some help. So, I’ve been struggling with what I hope is POCD since October. I’m a lot better now, but some days are still a huge struggle. I’ve never really had any groinal movements at all, which I found weird but was happy about it. But today, a kid at my job leaned against me and it made me kind of anxious, and then out of nowhere I felt something down there. And it was kind of a lot, I instantly felt awful. And have been ruminating since. I hated every second of it. It feels like every step forward I take something new happens to send me back. Not sure if this just proves I am what I fear, or I’m in denial. Or what. I’m just scared.
Lately I've been having a lot of groinal responses, don't want them to be there. Before any of this even happened to me, I don't think I ever had a groinal response looking at another man, it makes me convinced that I've always been gay. I don't wanna be gay. This morning I had a dream about a rapper, it wasn't sexual but for some reason I was hard? I have always been a fan of his music and that's it. Now that's fueling my thought process even more and convincing me that I'm gay and I've been in the closet for a while At the same time i keep crying looking at my ex cause i miss her so much. Another thing to note that whenever i see good looking men or men that are gay i get groinal responses, whereas before this I don't think any of this happened to me. Whenever i look at these men i have to actively take a few deep breath's to catch up my breath, i can feel my heart beating. And most of the times I'm not even thinking anything sexual when ilook at these men it's weird. None of this brings me happiness at all. At this point I'm scared of my own groin cause i don't know what to expect or what's gonna happen. My brain keeps going you're in denial I've always been into women, as far as i can remember, I've lost complete attraction to them especially after my break up and getting depressed and having anxiety. And i keep thinking find a man attractive and if i get a groinal response, " wanna have sex with him" where as before any of this happened to me, these thoughts never even came to my mind, my 22 years of life feels like a complete lie and i hate myself, I've lost all motivation to do Normal things, i feel sleepy, i don't feel confident, loss of attraction, loss of libido, loss of will power, my thoughts keep morphing from " you might be gay" to "you are gay" to "you're bi" to "you're gay" to " you're in the closest" to "how are you gonna come out?". None of these thoughts make me happy, it makes me more confused and scared and kinda uncomfortable, and weirded out too. Another thing i did was since December till March i watched gay porn and barely got aroused and didn't really find it all that hot.? But my brain ignores that i understand now that it was a compulsive thing that's why i stopped but now i get so many groinals it's so weird Can someone tell me what's going on with me? Please please please someone take the time out of their day to read this and respond, thank you! 😩😩😩
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