I’m going to be honest. I’m not ok. When I try to rationalize a thought it make me feel like I’m in denial. My groinals are weird.

rationalizing thoughts isnt going to make it any better. the ocd will always try and find another “what if” anytime you try and argue with it. accept the presence of the thought and say “maybe that thought is true, maybe its not.” thoughts dont mean anything but your ocd will make you think they will so that it stays alive. in order to deal with groinals stop giving them meaning. dont be surprised when what happens and dont give it any meaning cause the more meaning you give them the more they will occur. you got this!!

Yes. I can understand when a girl is hot my body never did things or maybe I did and I never noticed. Here how I know that my feelings are different for men and women. When guys touch me I get aroused almost instantly and it’s intense. I love that feeling. When It happened for the first time I didn’t know what that feels was. When girls do that I feel uncomfortable and I don’t feel anything. It’s not helpful that you think no boy would love you and said you were bisexual but didn’t feel something for girls. Like I wanted to but then I got bored and I tell them “hey I like boys” they yell at me which gives me even more guilt.

What I learned was if it’s not hell yes it’s a hell no

same girl, I’m so scared. I just want this to end.

Yes. I made the mistake of trying to rationalize with a thought and I kept checking for attraction and it just spiraled. I knew better. I guess it was just early and I wasn’t trying to sit with uncertainty atm.