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This exact thing happened to me. I’ve had OCD themes in the past, but they’ve always been tolerable. A few months ago I decided to try smoking weed and that night I had multiple panic attacks. It’s like my brain became way too aware, like there isn’t even really a set OCD theme, it’s just the constant fear and “what if” thinking/paranoia is there. I know what you’re going through, and it sucks. Some people have told me it passes with time and this happens to people with OCD who try weed, but we just don’t know the answer so we have to work through it. Good luck, and if you ever wanna talk about it, I’m here!! Xoxo
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Thank you for your response ♥️ it has gotten better than last year i would say but ive never felt so torturous in my life…i feel like im losing a part of myself to OCD and its just consuming so much of my life. Would you say you have gotten better with time? Do you recommend taking meds? I hope i will get better soon im just worried im going to be permanently like this…
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@E Everything gets better with time, friend. I’d say that the best thing you can do for yourself if to try to do some exposures for whatever it is that you’re obsessing about. I am taking medication, and it has been working for me along with ERP. If you can, I really think it would be in your best benefit to get in touch with a therapist through the app :))
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@Creativegirl Thank you! Im currently talking to a therapist so hopefully it will get manageable over time :)
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Yep mine started about the same time ago as you when I smoked weed started having harm/killin thoughts towards my spouse shit fucking sucks. It’s gotten somewhat better but I’m not who I was before smoking weed like a dumbass
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my OCD was also triggered by weed. although im not an accredited scientist, i think ocd was lurking in the back corner for you (just like everyone else here), and the weed was probably a trigger. OCD probably would have developed for you regardless. you should not blame yourself❤️. get im contact with a therapist, and if you dont have access, start creating exposure hierarchies for yourself
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Thank you for the response♥️♥️♥️ its hard not to keep blaming myself and live with negative thoughts every day :( if you dont mind me asking when did it trigger for you and would you say it got easier over time? I had a similar episode i remember when i was like 14 but it went away by itself after a month…im 26 now and its taking a lot longer :/ im scared im stuck like this for the rest of my life sigh
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yeah of course ❤️❤️❤️. it’ll almost be a year since my onset of ocd. before i knew it was ocd i went on a total downward spiral of not knowing what the heck was going on. i hit rock bottom at one point, but was lucky enough to get myself help because of my finding out it was ocd. after being completely committed to recovering, it was awful at first, but gradually got better over time with the help of a therapist from this app but also the people from here. i read above that you have a therapist. are they trained in ERP?
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also: if you are still smoking weed, i would recommend quitting because it can be so triggering, and it does a great job at enhancing anxiety
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I’ve definitely quit weed althought i miss it so much :( part of the reason why this also sucks because im slowly having to give up things i used to once enjoy..even coffee haha but yes i just changed my therapist who has OCD and specializes in ERP which is great :) im nervous and excited for this next journey but i am just sick of ocd dictating my life. Are you on any medication by any chance?
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yeah! i totally relate. i feel like i could be doing better without my one cup of coffee everyday, but it’s just that small little thing i look forward to every morning. you take some, you lose some i guess. i am currently not on medication, though i have considered it a few times
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Do you think it is more manageable now even without meds? Sorry for the slew of questions! Haha i got excited i found someone who experienced something very similar
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yes definitely much more manageable with erp. recovery has it’s up and downs: feels like every two steps forward you take, you take one step back. also dont worry abour it! that’s what we’re all here for
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meds are normally not an ocd cure (though some people are lucky and do get cured with meds). i think they should be used kinda like a sling or cast alongside erp and therapy if symptoms are too distressing!
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Thank you! This gave me some hope. I hope there will be light at the end of the tunnel
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♥️♥️ you’ve got this
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This just made me feel less alone & gave me hope! ❤️🩹
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
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