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This exact thing happened to me. I’ve had OCD themes in the past, but they’ve always been tolerable. A few months ago I decided to try smoking weed and that night I had multiple panic attacks. It’s like my brain became way too aware, like there isn’t even really a set OCD theme, it’s just the constant fear and “what if” thinking/paranoia is there. I know what you’re going through, and it sucks. Some people have told me it passes with time and this happens to people with OCD who try weed, but we just don’t know the answer so we have to work through it. Good luck, and if you ever wanna talk about it, I’m here!! Xoxo
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Thank you for your response ♥️ it has gotten better than last year i would say but ive never felt so torturous in my life…i feel like im losing a part of myself to OCD and its just consuming so much of my life. Would you say you have gotten better with time? Do you recommend taking meds? I hope i will get better soon im just worried im going to be permanently like this…
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@E Everything gets better with time, friend. I’d say that the best thing you can do for yourself if to try to do some exposures for whatever it is that you’re obsessing about. I am taking medication, and it has been working for me along with ERP. If you can, I really think it would be in your best benefit to get in touch with a therapist through the app :))
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@Creativegirl Thank you! Im currently talking to a therapist so hopefully it will get manageable over time :)
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Yep mine started about the same time ago as you when I smoked weed started having harm/killin thoughts towards my spouse shit fucking sucks. It’s gotten somewhat better but I’m not who I was before smoking weed like a dumbass
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my OCD was also triggered by weed. although im not an accredited scientist, i think ocd was lurking in the back corner for you (just like everyone else here), and the weed was probably a trigger. OCD probably would have developed for you regardless. you should not blame yourself❤️. get im contact with a therapist, and if you dont have access, start creating exposure hierarchies for yourself
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Thank you for the response♥️♥️♥️ its hard not to keep blaming myself and live with negative thoughts every day :( if you dont mind me asking when did it trigger for you and would you say it got easier over time? I had a similar episode i remember when i was like 14 but it went away by itself after a month…im 26 now and its taking a lot longer :/ im scared im stuck like this for the rest of my life sigh
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yeah of course ❤️❤️❤️. it’ll almost be a year since my onset of ocd. before i knew it was ocd i went on a total downward spiral of not knowing what the heck was going on. i hit rock bottom at one point, but was lucky enough to get myself help because of my finding out it was ocd. after being completely committed to recovering, it was awful at first, but gradually got better over time with the help of a therapist from this app but also the people from here. i read above that you have a therapist. are they trained in ERP?
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also: if you are still smoking weed, i would recommend quitting because it can be so triggering, and it does a great job at enhancing anxiety
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I’ve definitely quit weed althought i miss it so much :( part of the reason why this also sucks because im slowly having to give up things i used to once enjoy..even coffee haha but yes i just changed my therapist who has OCD and specializes in ERP which is great :) im nervous and excited for this next journey but i am just sick of ocd dictating my life. Are you on any medication by any chance?
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yeah! i totally relate. i feel like i could be doing better without my one cup of coffee everyday, but it’s just that small little thing i look forward to every morning. you take some, you lose some i guess. i am currently not on medication, though i have considered it a few times
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Do you think it is more manageable now even without meds? Sorry for the slew of questions! Haha i got excited i found someone who experienced something very similar
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yes definitely much more manageable with erp. recovery has it’s up and downs: feels like every two steps forward you take, you take one step back. also dont worry abour it! that’s what we’re all here for
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meds are normally not an ocd cure (though some people are lucky and do get cured with meds). i think they should be used kinda like a sling or cast alongside erp and therapy if symptoms are too distressing!
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Thank you! This gave me some hope. I hope there will be light at the end of the tunnel
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♥️♥️ you’ve got this
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This just made me feel less alone & gave me hope! ❤️🩹
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i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
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When I smoke weed when I think of non ocd things or themes, my head starts to make sense of things I feel more open and I think clearer. So that’s where my big concern is!!! Because when I’m high and think of ocd things like being a killer, or someone who’s a sociopath or someone that can be a pedo it feels real like my mind is clearer that I am these things Any one who has experienced weed with ocd help me I need insight on this im very confused and it’s causing me to ruminate all day
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So I’m 16 years old, currently going through my sophomore year of highschool. I’ve recently quit nicotine and weed after chronic use for about 4 years (has affected my development extremely). I quit because I wanted a better life for myself because I knew that I was using nicotine and weed for short term happiness and long term made me very depressed about this life. I was also experiencing trouble concentrating on simple tasks and what I wanted to do currently in my life. Which was learning about life and having more knowledge about life in general so i could feel more comfortable and happy in the future. So I quit nicotine I thought I was going to be able to overcome it and be more comfortable with myself knowing that I’m not in a constant loop of short term happiness, long term making me less happy overall. Although I have quit nicotine and haven’t touched it in about 3 weeks I expected to have some major withdrawals because I’m still in adolescence and used nicotine about everyday for 4 years. Sorry I’m rambling about this but through those years of always suppressing my anxiety with nicotine when anything came up that triggered it. I started noticing that on vacation in very stressful moments like at the airport and there were people around me when using the bathroom I felt as though it was nearly impossible to go but after sometime I eventually went and shrugged it off. Now that I’ve quit though I’m my 4th week it’s almost like my brain really latched onto that fear of not being able to go around people publicly (paruresis shy bladder syndrome) and that’s also what addiction does to you I’ve acknowledged. But when I started coming home from school I started thinking about not being able to pee more and more to the point i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since which now every time i feel a slight trigger of having to use the bathroom i start obsessing over it like everything I would try and do that i usually do my brain would draw me away from it and go back to the fear of not being able to go which created a lot of anxiety and thoughts like “would if im not able to stop going” which made me think about it more and more I would just wake up with that thought in my head each day to the point where i was really thinking about killing my self because I thought i would have such a better life without nicotine and weed but ultimately made me feel like i was going crazy and I really wanted to go back to vaping and weed but i knew that this was the cycle of addiction and that i may have a more underlying problem here i need to overcome somatic ocd. I haven’t been diagnosed with it yet and I know a lot of people go through a cycle of self diagnosing. But as I’ve slowly started to mentally figure out ways to get through this obsession over peeing and fight it, it’s like my brain is now trying to look for a new bodily sensation to obsess over. My breathing. I noticed this as well while using that sometimes I would think about my breathing a little bit to much for example saying to myself am I breathing right should I breath this certain way would if I can’t stop thinking about it. But as I was thinking about that I just hit my vape talked to my brother about it and just slept it off. Now that I don’t have a vape I’ve had to go through these expierences but with it feeling more real and not really having something to run to, to suppress like my vape. I’m writing this today as I feel better to myself talking about it and opening up about it as I’m trying to not respond to this fear with anxiety and go throughout my days ignoring these obsessive thoughts leading to extreme anxiety that I don’t have anything to suppress it with anymore besides my own mental. Maybe someone here will have some more knowledge about it than I do and can give me some advice to try to keep me more motivated to deal with this ocd I feel as though I’m having so I don’t end up in a dark place. Thank you.
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