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- 3y ago
Ughh I can’t keep reassuring you but honestly (no offense) your blind, obviously the thoughts and feelings keep giving you anxiety and telling you that you are in denial and that screams proof that you have hocd, and also every bodies hocd or even ocd is different, somebody could have more of a sexual hocd, som could have more of a romantic hocd, some could have both, all I’m saying is that this isn’t proof of anything at all, now plz try and not ruminate, it only worsens ocd
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- 3y ago
i am trying i really am. i was doing way better when i had finals and was preoccupied with that. now i am even questioning whether or not i like men. there's not that much anxiety it just bothers me i don't know anymore. i am so sorry for bothering you it just feels worse but not that bad at the same time(?)which makes me doubt what this is. i really am trying not to ruminate and to keep myself busy. sorry again, and tthnk you immensely for everything
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- 3y ago
@Nour04 You very welcome, and yoalso ur not a bother, I’m not annoyed whatsoever with you, I just hate seeing people slowly dig their own grave, which is what your doing when you ruminate yknow, I’m doing good but earlier I felt almost in love with my buddy, like idk I felt if he asked me out I would say yes, but yet again it felt kinda like anxiety so I guess I can’t know if it’s real lol, but besides ocd how are you doing?
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- 3y ago
@dylen pretty chill actually. i have a cold which is bad but i am trying to manage :/
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- 3y ago
This is just your OCD making you doubt. Trust me: If you weren't straight, you wouldn't be terrified of the idea of being with girls. Here's a tip: Use your imagination. Imagine yourself. And imagine the intrusive thoughts right next to you, visualize them as a shape or a colour or etc. And then, imagine how the thoughts keep going further and further away from you. My therapist recommended this method.
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- 3y ago
wow okay omg thank you so much!! how are you doing??
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- 3y ago
@Nour04 You're welcome :) I'm feeling quite weird today. My TOCD thoughts come and go and every single time they appear I feel so nauseous. Also because it's summer, I see a lot of half-naked men hanging outside and it makes me feel weird?? Like I get thoughts about wanting to touch them and be sexual with them, but it makes me feel uneasy, however I'm starting to think that I just can't accept the fact I wish to be with them, although I've never wanted to?? Strange.
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- 3y ago
@Lotte Hein yeah i get it it really does mess with your mind to the point where you can't tell whether or not you like it, maybe even become convinced you like it and want it. it's awful!
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- 3y ago
Yup girl no offense but you're posting like crazy and its only making you worse in the long run
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- 3y ago
i am so sorry i figured people would get some kind of annoyed lol. it's just that i don't know anything anymore. there was a while (about 2 weeks) when the only thing i posted about on here was distraction post lmao i was feeling better then. anyway how are you??
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- 3y ago
@Nour04 Don’t take people trying to help you as them being annoyed. The more you post the further you’re pushing recovery away
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- 3y ago
I think you really need to stop focusing and thinking about whether you feel attraction to whoever, once you stop worrying about that you'll relax more sis:)
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- 3y ago
Instead of posting (compulsion), I recommend watching nathan peterson, they call me jesse, or allie greymond on youtube. They can help educate you better on how to deal with this
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- 24w ago
I really feel like SOOCD is such a tricky theme. They tell you to sit with it and not overthink it and accept the possibilty, but we're talking about our future and someone else's future! I also feel like societal pressure doesnt help this theme at all. And its always gonna come up, because as a women, when I hang out with my friends, all they talk about is 1) their relationshios 2) their crush so my brain automatically compares or stresses when it does not relate. I try looking for comphet video on tiktok (i vividely dont recommend doing that) and some videos kind of made sens so I was like, am I a lesbian? So for instance, there is one girl who came ut at 26 and she was like "all my life I felt like I needed to date guys and chose my crushes and when I was making out with my bf it always felt like something was missing and then when I went out with the girl I realised that it wasnt supposed to feel hard and whats natural to your body will come to you naturally". She said that even tho she's a lesbian now she still imagines a life where she has a husband and kids but she knows that she cant have that because she likes imagining that she's straight when indeed she's not. (that was a very big spike for me). and she knew that if she went down that road she would never date men again ( and I feel like I relate to that?!). So to calm myself I said, idc if im gay or bi, at least my bf will be my "one" exception. And right after there was a video of a girl who said " if you're a girl going out with your bf and thinking you're 99 percent into women but that your bf is the exception leave him, you're a lesbian" ughhhhhhhh. My biggest worry right now after being in a 6 year relationship is that I feel if I imagine it that I would feel way more for a women then for a man? but my therapist told me it was normal because with two women its always more intense but im like but what does it mean? that I dont know true love? That I dont love my current partner or at least not enough? I also feel like sometimes, if I ever break up with my bf I'll never date guys after? like even if they were perfect? I know that for anyone reading that shows that Im in denial... I've talked to my therapist about it and she always is like "live in the moment". Ugh
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- 20w ago
Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.
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- Date posted
- 11w ago
I did an erp and I was thinking over and over again “I want to be with girls I just don’t want others to find out” and then it felt like a moment of yeah that is what I want. It felt really real I can’t believe it’s not. I wasn’t anxious about it. It felt completely like me and even when I tried to deny it like it was a true realization and that I wanted it to be true. I can’t do this. What do I do!!! Erp suggestions?
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