Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
Ocd Warrior Ocd Warrior
- Date posted
- 4y
Ughh I can’t keep reassuring you but honestly (no offense) your blind, obviously the thoughts and feelings keep giving you anxiety and telling you that you are in denial and that screams proof that you have hocd, and also every bodies hocd or even ocd is different, somebody could have more of a sexual hocd, som could have more of a romantic hocd, some could have both, all I’m saying is that this isn’t proof of anything at all, now plz try and not ruminate, it only worsens ocd
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
i am trying i really am. i was doing way better when i had finals and was preoccupied with that. now i am even questioning whether or not i like men. there's not that much anxiety it just bothers me i don't know anymore. i am so sorry for bothering you it just feels worse but not that bad at the same time(?)which makes me doubt what this is. i really am trying not to ruminate and to keep myself busy. sorry again, and tthnk you immensely for everything
Ocd Warrior Ocd Warrior
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 You very welcome, and yoalso ur not a bother, I’m not annoyed whatsoever with you, I just hate seeing people slowly dig their own grave, which is what your doing when you ruminate yknow, I’m doing good but earlier I felt almost in love with my buddy, like idk I felt if he asked me out I would say yes, but yet again it felt kinda like anxiety so I guess I can’t know if it’s real lol, but besides ocd how are you doing?
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@dylen pretty chill actually. i have a cold which is bad but i am trying to manage :/
Lotte HeinLotte Hein
- Date posted
- 4y
This is just your OCD making you doubt. Trust me: If you weren't straight, you wouldn't be terrified of the idea of being with girls. Here's a tip: Use your imagination. Imagine yourself. And imagine the intrusive thoughts right next to you, visualize them as a shape or a colour or etc. And then, imagine how the thoughts keep going further and further away from you. My therapist recommended this method.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
wow okay omg thank you so much!! how are you doing??
Lotte HeinLotte Hein
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 You're welcome :) I'm feeling quite weird today. My TOCD thoughts come and go and every single time they appear I feel so nauseous. Also because it's summer, I see a lot of half-naked men hanging outside and it makes me feel weird?? Like I get thoughts about wanting to touch them and be sexual with them, but it makes me feel uneasy, however I'm starting to think that I just can't accept the fact I wish to be with them, although I've never wanted to?? Strange.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@Lotte Hein yeah i get it it really does mess with your mind to the point where you can't tell whether or not you like it, maybe even become convinced you like it and want it. it's awful!
PinkLotusPinkLotus
- Date posted
- 4y
Yup girl no offense but you're posting like crazy and its only making you worse in the long run
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
i am so sorry i figured people would get some kind of annoyed lol. it's just that i don't know anything anymore. there was a while (about 2 weeks) when the only thing i posted about on here was distraction post lmao i was feeling better then. anyway how are you??
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Don’t take people trying to help you as them being annoyed. The more you post the further you’re pushing recovery away
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
I think you really need to stop focusing and thinking about whether you feel attraction to whoever, once you stop worrying about that you'll relax more sis:)
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
Instead of posting (compulsion), I recommend watching nathan peterson, they call me jesse, or allie greymond on youtube. They can help educate you better on how to deal with this
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