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- 4y
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OCD is torturing my brain I feel like I'm gonna go insane Will I ever see the light again? Or will I forever be stuck in the pain? It drains me how I will never know I feel like I'm sinking in snow I feel so low I wish the OCD would let me go Let me go out from this cage I have so much rage OCD is the opposite of a friend The worst part is: I see no end
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4y
“THATS CALLED FUCKING BARS” nah but Fr I feel u
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Yooo, that's lit bro
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wow that was so good!
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Have a parody of Katy Perry’s “Firework” based around pure o! Do you ever feel That an intrusive thought Is not OCD, that’s not what you’ve got? Do you ever feel You’re being treated for Something you don’t have, you are just the norm? Do you ever feel This is all a fraud You’re in denial deep, putting on a facade? Do you know that you’re lying to yourself? The entire world can tell That you’re gonna deny and try To push truth aside Stop telling lies And accept what’s inside Cuz you don’t have OCD A cover up for who you could be Your thoughts are really true, true, true They’re hidden secrets about you, you, you You don’t have OCD Let all your guilty pleasures free It’s not really that bizarre, arre, arre Because that’s just who you are, are, are Do you ever feel Like those thoughts are bad Like you’re an evil chick, like you’re going mad? Do you ever feel An overwhelming doubt That these things aren’t you, the things you think about? Have no fear my friend They’re absolutely right! That makes you evil and now you can worry all night! Whatever you do, know that nothing’s wrong No OCD all along So please don’t deny and try To push truth aside Stop telling lies And accept what’s inside Cuz you don’t have OCD A cover up for who you could be Your thoughts are really true, true, true They’re hidden secrets about you, you, you You don’t have OCD Let all your guilty pleasures free It’s not really that bizarre, arre, arre Because that’s just who you are, are, are Pure, pure O You say you have it but you know, know, know Your compulsions are internal so they don’t, don’t, don’t They aren’t real compulsions and it shows, shows, shows Cuz you don’t have OCD A cover up for who you could be Your thoughts are really true, true, true They’re hidden secrets about you, you, you You don’t have OCD Let all your guilty pleasures free It’s not really that bizarre, arre, arre Because that’s just who you are, are, are Pure, pure O You say you have it but you know, know, know Your compulsions are internal so they don’t, don’t, don’t They aren’t real compulsions and it shows, shows, shows
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- 2y
@OCDumb >:( this is amazing
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I wrote that one a few weeks ago during a really bad episode.
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- 2y
@.ketamine.kitten. excuse me @.ketamine.kitten. fellow virgo fellow poet ahem . do you want to be friends . this poem is amazing i’m definitely gonna try one like this later
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- 4y
I wrote this May 27, 2019, when OCD hit me extremely strong — but I had no idea that it was even OCD. I described it perfectly and I didn’t even know that’s what I had, I just described the mental torment I was dealing with. “Seems like I keep going in circles Caught it in a spiral of the same old thing I get one thing done with but there’s another still It’s like my conscience won’t let me breathe”
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- 25w
I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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- 20w
These are some of my experiences with some theatrical flare to better depict how it feels. I decided to share this because when I saw this community I suddenly felt less alone in more human. Lovecraftian door Lurker: I don’t know the subtypes so I’ll just be talking about my relationship with OCD. OCD! that lonely woman in the ocean singing your praise's, sure she’ll love you forever! Of course she isn’t a siren planning on dragging you to the depths and tearing you to shreds. OCD! that haunting whisper in the wind calling you to fly! fly! OCD! that Lovecraftian abomination chanting at you from behind a locked door. Banging demanding you bow to it’s will. For me it latches on to my trauma and PTSD circling them like some demented teacup ride. A daily occurance for me is recalling the day I died when I was like 6 i remeber each detail of the day the kids i met the activtes we particapated in, the heat. The height of the slide before i plummeted to my death. This day consumes my life. “Thud thud!” I ask my parents about it often they tell me it never happened i tell them they weren’t there. Each time they lie and say I’ve never told them. My boyfriend whom I’ve been with for three years hears the story offten and often deals with me asking him if he’s seen me ask my parents. “Thud Thud” Each time he says yes and I asked how they responded “like you’ve never told them.” I constantly become afraid that my boyfreind will drown because he can’t swim. “Thud! Thud!” and because he can’t swim that the car will go off the road into some body of water and he will die. ”Thud! Thud!” I feel the water filling my lungs turning them into fire, the fear of reaching out my hands with no aid. “THUD! THUD! And he will die alone too and there’s nothing you can do to stop it! THUD THUD!” I scream that same fire fueling my rage my tears running down my face like gasoline igniting the thought spiral further burning deeper into my self hatred. I scream again banging my hands on my head. Wish and hoping it will shut up the thoughts.“why? Why?! WHY!” Sobbing until I’m nothing but a puddle. . . Ya know a few months ago I was depressed the thoughts became too much, so I wanted to get high. I thought it would make them stop “Thud! Thud!” So I took a gummy it was unpackage, from a friend of a friend so now the word dog, in reference to a person is a permit part of my vocabulary. And I have memories from being in a comma because it turned out to be DMT and my 6 hour trip end up feeling like 6 months of HELL. The ocd thoughts that i usually see, in a flash became so real that i just cried for hour terrified i was stabbing my eyes out dead and this was my purgatory for leaving the church. ”Thud! THUD!” I stopped using my favorite water bottle after that. Before the incident The bottle up against the wall with the straw to the side of the wall because the thought that would repeat in my head would be that because of my clumsiness I would trip and fall onto the straw and it would stab my eye out and kill me. I had this thought often I kept look up what to do if you accidently get something stab/stuck in your eye. “Thud! Thud!”
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- 16w
I'm sry if this may make people worry or feel uncomfortable in advance! Hello everyone as u can see I struggle with ocd and I HATE IT WITH MY LIFE , it started in 2020 covid obv contamination ocd started here , I used to carry alcohol everywhere and used to wash my hands so much that it bled ( had to wear gloves to cover it so friends or family won't see it ) and everything else started since then , harm ocd with myself or friends I couldn't hold a knife..it was really hard..and I have unwanted sexual thoughts ocd , I have panic attacks bc of this..I sometimes cannot look people into their eyes and its so random and so scary..thoughts about.. 🍇..whether it's me or I'm gonna harm someone else uk..I sometimes cannot function properly.. unfortunately friends don't understand it rather think it's about " perfectionism "..I wrote those thoughts and stuff in a journal in more details ofc and doodle ( I'm scared someone will find it ) I hate myself tbh and I don't think someone will read this... I suspect I have ADHD with all this but ocd is " ur faking it " even though lots of people have hinted about it , I thought I actually killed someone for 2 years a girl..until I realized what HOCD is , I thought I faked my ocd too in fact , I have perfectionism ocd too it's bad and I HATE PURE O it's so DRAINING uk.. also idk if this has caused a problem for anyone but if y'all know the Truman show ( basically if u don't know the main character is being filmed and his life is fake and he doesn't know it ) THAT MOVIE HAS HARMED ME SO BADLY FOR YEARS that until today I have to check in the bathroom if there are cameras cuz like ocd makes me think I'm living in a fake world , I used to think people around me , everyone was like a Ai model or smth.. everytime until today I have to clean the toilet seat bc it may be dirty..I have been taking up to 5 showers a day cuz maybe I'm dirty..that's it for today tysm if u read this till the end I'd like to know ur thoughts if u got tips or have similar experiences ! 🤗 U get a chocolate bar 🍫 bc u earned it bc ik how ocd is so frustrating ( I also noticed everyone who has ocd is so nice right 😆! )
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