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I really this stuff spoken more about because I honestly didnt think to google about this because I had never ever heard of someone going though this in my life but I understand to extent though because some people may react the wrong which is why I'm here lol
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Yeah
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I also suffer from awful thoughts about God too. It’s def put a strain on my side of the relationship as it’s hard to pray or think about Him without those thoughts coming up. And then the “what if’s” start popping up: what if I like the thoughts? What if the thoughts are mine? Etc.
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Lol no my son he has so much energy and gets into stuff ...ocd pisses me off because I cant teach him scripture because of my thoughts it really screwed up my view of God and then I be trying to happy and stuff for him he's just one year old so he dont know better but it's like the thoughts be there all the time I just would to crawl in bed and sleep like most of the time is when I dont have my thoughts
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I know that feeling. The most difficult thing for me is to be around other believers because I’m constantly ruminating and checking my feelings to make sure I’m “worthy” enough. When the truth is that I’ll never be worthy and I receive His love through grace. I just need to put my faith in that and not be ruminating so much :/
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I’m new here as well I just made a page today and I’m a Hebrew Israelite as well and I’ve been suffering from these horrible thoughts I just would never think this would happen to me
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@Anonymous____ Oh my goodness SAME I am so scared to talk to sisters and brothers about this because it will be horrible
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@Anonymous____ Me neither! I never even knew this was a thing until almost a year ago! Lol
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@JordanS. Same I found out about this when I was searching on goggle a few months back this happened to me this yr
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@christiansquare98 I wanted to pm you but I see they don’t have a direct message
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@Anonymous____ Awww I hope that means I’m helping! 😁 haha
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@Anonymous____ I'll try to find it sus hold one
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@christiansquare98 Okay it’s so refreshing talking to someone that’s going through this same thing as me
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@Anonymous____ So I went looking and came up with nothing lol but yes as you know people can get um very very judgemental it's like yo kind of shut off from both ends you cant speak to your circle and you know Its kind of hard talking to GOD with your thoughts and feelings ist exactly for him but against him do you be stuck alone at least that's for me
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@christiansquare98 Yes it is, makes it very difficult for a genuine conversation with Him. How long have you been having these thoughts?
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@JordanS. It started sometime after my baby was borne last year
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@christiansquare98 Congratulations on your baby I’m a mother of two boys
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Sometimes I feel like I’m alone but not really my husband is really supportive and sister
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Hello! Fellow Christian here. I’m here to talk to you as a brother in Christ. I know exactly how you feel, for a long time I thought my thoughts would separate me from me God and God would send me to hell and stop loving me. Over the past few months, I’ve had so many nasty thoughts towards the entire Holy Trinity but guess what? God still loves me, and He still loves you. One thing you need to remember is God when you accept Christ becomes your Father. Our relationship with God isn’t about rules anymore but about love. We are so close to Him and He loves us. Nothing can separate us from the love of God and that’s a fact from the Scriptures. You’re a Hebrew Isrealite right? The Law of Moses and Yahweh have been fulfilled in Christ Jesus/Yeshua Hamashiah, we no longer live in the Law but in the Law of Christ which is freedom from sin and death, no condemnation for sin and loving others and doing good works for Him out of love. His grace is sufficient for us. God is not punishing you, He loves you. The devil is the one who is tormenting you, rebuke him with faith and with Gods word and stay strong. The Holy Spirit will guide you and help you through your journey. God will never leave you nor forsake you. God bless. Shalom :)
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Let Yahweh bless you shalom
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I was actually getting those thoughts constantly I’m a Christian so yeah everytime try to ask for reassurance I tell my self God knows my thoughts and it’s ok because there not my thoughts they come from the flesh
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Helped me a lot
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I'm a hebrew Israelite it's like um I get them all the time and it's been since last year after my son was born oh goodness all bets was off I thought and still do alot of think I'm cursed um I was very close God and stuff really honestly put a wedge between him and I my beliefs towards in a way like..it's a lot but hopefully I'm making sense
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I honestly understand we just need to push through I’m struggling everyday
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Yes Jordan but I'm like wayyyy past that in a bad way
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Do you care to give an example? If not it’s okay I understand, it’s hard for me to say my thoughts
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Like I honestly dont have a relationship with God anymore like it won like my thoughts became apart of my speech and everything it was new added on to the pro lem.im pretty sure it's a word for it but I cant think of it right but anyway I'm like I don't want anything to do with God alot of the time anymore like I've had a relationship with him html now it's nothing like I feel like had I learned about this a year ago oh yea most definitely I would be straight it's like my thoughts just ruined all that so I dont really have a relationship with God no more it's like if he was here why he ain't taking this away from me like it's not that I would basically get killed by him for these sins that I didnt want in the first place like I would start saying the stuff that my thoughts would by accident like it just became apart of me
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I would be lying if I said I hadn’t gotten to a similar place myself. It’s as if all of these thoughts make it impossible to have a relationship with God. But you keep pushing forward. I believe that we were fearfully and wonderfully created, that we are possible of overcoming things in life. And you are possible of overcoming this. Don’t look to your feelings, or your past, or your thoughts, look to who you were created to be: a loving person. Love isn’t a thought or a feeling, but a decision to treat others as Christ did. You can do this and I don’t care how bad it gets, I believe you and God can work together to transform your inner self. Know this, i will never give up on you and neither does God. Hope that helps ❤️
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Todah Yah for the encouragement I'm just seeing this I was dealing with my munchkin
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Ofcourse, we’re human, we’re here for eachother. You’re munchkin??? Lol is that a pet of yours?
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Oh goodness who are you telling like my sister,her family and I practice the same thing and I be wanting to talk to her but I believe she's going to tell me I'm cursed or like sisters and brothers won't understand too and thank I'm cursed or um I want these thoughts against HIM like I be bitter looking at people just having a normal conversation or just sitting there happy lol fudge I use to be that like everything within such a short amount of time
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It’s the absolute worst. I was convinced I was cursed for a little bit and I wasn’t ever going to get back to being who I was made to be. When in reality it’s not just a one time thing, but everyday we’re renewed and start over in a way
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YOU ARE BLESSED I'm separated from mines but if I were to tell him this he would honestly believe I'm cursed and would say Yah punishing me and nine times throw it it in my face
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Thank you No worries I’m sorry to hear that you can always talk to me I truly understand and I know sometimes everything can be overwhelming and for me not everyone knows what I’m going through because I do feel like I will be judged as well so I don’t speak on it if you want I can give you my email address I promise I’m not a weirdo
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Lol no lie I was thinking about giving you mine but I thought the same thing lol mines is christiansquare98@gmail.com
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Okay I emailed you
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