Could this be rocd? In April of 2020 I had my first run in with rocd because I obsessed over it I was in love with my boyfriend, then it switched to does he love me, then retroactive jealousy and even real event ocd. In December I got really bad sexual orientation ocd , with the core fear behind it being that I’d have to leave my partner and that our love wasn’t real. Finally after months it’s calmed down but I’ve slowly noticed myself obsessing over our relationship again since June/July. We’ve been long distance for 10 months since he joined the military which naturally brings its own doubts and fears but I believe my ocd really amplifies that. I also worry that the “spark” isn’t there and that I’ll only feel one with women even though I really don’t want to be with a woman at all. I follow this with compulsions such as checking my feelings, listening to songs I know make me think of him, reviewing past memories, reading old messages, etc. I also obsess over whether or not I’m truly attracted to him and whether or not I’ll still feel the same when he visits again next month. It’s really been getting in the way of my relationship and making me feel less enthusiastic. I don’t want these doubts and fears, the only thing I want is to be sure of the love for my partner again. The only thing that makes me think this isn’t ocd is that there’s no anxiety, well sometimes the thoughts make me cry and they cause me distress but after months of anxiety with sexual orientation ocd they just run wild in my mind. Could it be ocd even without the anxiety ?

I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now

Im a 21 year old female in a straight relationship with the best guy a girl could ever ask for. About 2 months ago, I went to get coffee with a friend and as I dropped her off, I got a “weird” vibe from her and the look she gave me which lead to the thought of “should I kiss her”….Ive never had a thought like that before and I never have ever wanted to kiss another girl. I have also never had a desire to be with another girl (sexually or romantically). Now though, I have had one other experience of being with a different friend going to get lunch and it felt weird. Ever since then I have been on google non stop with hundreds of different searches, questioning if im lying to myself of my boyfriend, wondering about my past relationships even though Ive only dated boys, been attracted to boys, crushed on boys, etc… boy crazy! Reading on other forums has been a big thing too or doing quizzes. I believe its SO-OCD but im so scared that what if its not. I am in therapy and actually had two weeks of not even thinking about it or googling it until yesterday. I dont know what to do.

My psychologist tells me because my thoughts are based off of facts/ broken boundaries which is why I am having thoughts of am i in love , am I settling , and feeling guilty I should let him go to find someone who wouldn’t doubt him that I do not have rocd. She states rocd is intrusive , irrational thoughts not based off of real facts and I may have ptsd not ocd. He kissed someone else before we were official and he finds a certain type of female attractive that I find disgusting . So I spin about these issues all day long to the point I’m so unhappy with him and had to break up . It’s been over a month now but I’m still severely anxious and depressed The thing is I can’t stop thinking about this 24/7 with severe anxiety and depression and nothing is helping me . Can someone please tell me their thoughts