I can't stop comparing myself to others and wishing for things I don't have. I don't recall this ever being a serious problem for me. Where is this coming from? On one hand I know it's going to make me miserable, but on the other hand I feel like I'd be lying to myself by pretending or ignoring the fact that I want more. I try writing in a gratitude journal, but can't help but thinking other people have better things to write.

I recommend doing what Bailey said. Social media is very toxic and people portray the best images of themselves. I know how hard it is to stop comparing yourself--ive been doing it my whole life. Maybe try spending some quality time with yourself, take a road trip and just go somewhere where you know no one and there's no expectations on yourself. That's what I like to do :)

You’ve been in/are in a transition phase. You have been working so much on your OCD and self that now your mind has time and efforts left to year for more. Maybe give yourself a chance where instead of gratitude, you journal about anything, including what you want and envy. Maybe some catharsis would be good. Then you can even use that positively to re-look at/re-establish your values, wishes, and short and long term goals. While with OCD we are so careful/worried when we notice those new, “bad” thoughts because we don’t want new compulsions, ignoring or denying an emotion is a great way for it to build to into an obsession. And you aren’t alone during that process. We’re a part of your support system! 💜💪🏼

I quit social media for a year for this very reason. It's important to remember that people only show the highlights of their lives not the difficulties.

I agree with some of the commenters here; social media is very effective at eliciting jealousy. Taking a break might help. Doing some soul-searching and reflecting on values/motivations can be worthwhile as well, so long as this doesn't feed any unhealthy thought patterns. You might ask yourself why it is that you want what others have. What attracts you to their success? Do you value what they have? And if not, then what do you value? It's alright to feel a little envious at times...we all do...but knowing what your values/interests/passions are and celebrating them can help alleviate that a bit.

Hey I understand

Wow my wife frankly said something like that as well I don't like social media as well