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I had to check your name to make sure I didn't write this. I'm the same, and before I got married, both my father.n.law and Mom told me a 2 different times, are you sure you want to marry. ..you can back out now...(as I was riding in my parents car) on the way to get married. ... I have thought about that off and on for years. I start to ruminate very badly, that I can barley pop out of it. Then I don't know and I question, maybe they knew something I didn't know, even tho at the time I was, why you say that!!! I'm perfectly fine getting married. 37 ys later I still think about it, over and over and over and over... its an awful thought process. I know in the deepest of my soul, I love him and want to be with him , but darn OCD doubting disease rears it ugly head, just when things are goibg great. Idk where I was going with this, but hang in there!!
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It really is awful, I feel sick with guilt. Im new to this so I've replied in some comments further down too. I'm just really struggling
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i’m also dealing with this :( you’re not alone.. it’s hard taking on ROCD and unhelpful family members.
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It's horrible it really is I didn't need them to fill my head with doubts, I was fine before. Now my brain is doubting everything. Doubting if I've given off wrong impressions to the friend that I confided in for him to make a pass at me. Everything I feel sick with guilt even though I did nothing, it was my family putting doubts in my head that have made me spiral into these thoughts
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@sassyunicornx i get you, i really do. you might not realize it but you’re ruminating right now. just try to take a deep breath, hydrate and try your best to relax. sometimes in order to conquer the demons.. you have to face them. i promise you’re not alone. you did nothing wrong <3
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It's so hard to confide in people who don't understand the ocd doubting disease. ... I swear some people really like to make things allot worse than they really are. ... as for your family, I think all families have "their" "ideal" of what and who their children and grown adult children should be like and who our friends are. It's so annoying., IMO as long as the person you're dating is safe , kind, gentle and understanding, then that's a good thing and keep getting to know him. Does he know you have OCD? ...
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Yeah my partner knows I have OCD and is the most supportive I just feel so ridiculous and guilty for even doubting us based on other people's nasty opinions. It's really spiralled me. Like I said I went and confided in someone who was suppose to be my friend, he's taken it all wrong and twisted and lied and has now made everything worse for me
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@sassyunicornx Yeah, there's nothing you can do now other than put out the fires if they circulate.. prob the best thing to do in the future is not say anything to that person , unfortunately , he sounds exactly like the person you don't want to be around or confide in. ... But who knew, he was goibg to be like that anyway... pretty sure this too, will pass. Don't give him any more info, not worth it. Imo, you caught him, he's the one who should be feeling bad for breaking trust. . ... just do nothing , sometimes that's the best thing. Hope you get some sleep soon. I always count sheep jumping over a fence starting 100 backwards. Lol
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I suffer from ROCD as well, and talking about relational worries or receiving advice can cause me to ruminate a lot. So I feel you, and I’m sorry your friend tried to make a pass and made things more complicated. I’m sure that this is way worse in your head than in reality - something I’ve had to tell myself a lot!
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I went and confided in someone I shouldn't, he's twisted the whole story and now I'm doubting everything about myself and what happened where as I know deep down I did nothing wrong. It's 1am and I'm struggling to eat sleep, I just feel sick with guilt. My family should have never ever have filled my head with doubts knowing what I've suffered with in the past and for that I feel its unforgivable, this is why I'm in this situation now. I feel like it's best to focus on my relationship and prove the truth to him and distance myself from family members x
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i’ve been in this situation, just know there is hope and it will pass. don’t talk to that person anymore, it will be hard but you should just remove any and all contact with that person. and ignore your family!!! you know what’s best for you and what you want <3 sending love to you!
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I had no one to turn to, the two people closest to me were the ones being doubtful and nasty about my relationship I stuck by my guns and said I'm happy. I feel like I was in a vulnerable state, doubting everything because of how they made me feel, and now am regretting ever putting myself in the situation where I confided in a friend of the opposite sex.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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