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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
Tbh, if I were you, I would start looking for a new job asap. Do everything possible to avoid babysitting in April. Your health is so vitally important.
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- 6y ago
Your health is a priority. Tell them you are not available in April (if they ask why, a little white lie won’t hurt)
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- 6y ago
The dementia one would be the best. Nobody’s going to get mad over a sick old lady, right? I wish you luck ??
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- 6y ago
Thanks guys. I am going to tell them I can’t do it. Now I just have to figure out how to say it ?
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- 6y ago
If I were you, I’d say that I’ll be out of down in April
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- 6y ago
Considering that I agreed to this months ago, I don’t think that’ll cut it. Why would I plan to go out of town when I have this commitment? The problem is that I agreed to this in like January. I always knew they were taking their vacation in April. I have the dates set aside in my calendar. It’s like a whole 18 days of the parents being gone and me with the two kids. I agreed to it but then I spent a week with them when they’re parents were out of town and it was just horrible for me. I didn’t mention it when they came back because I figured if I made it through 6 days, I can I make it through 18. But I’m already so anxious and dreading it. I’m anxious and dreading even going to tutor them every day. The little one is a nightmare just for any babysitter because he’s spoiled and rude and has this rich entitlement thing going on and on top of that he’s clingy af. All of that on top of intrusive thoughts is too much too handle. I realized all this not last week, but the week before. And I’ve just been holding on to this for a week wondering if it’s too late to get out of it but I mean I obviously have to get out of it... I’m not gonna last 18 days.
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- 6y ago
Maybe say there has been a family emergency and you need to go out of town? I’m not sure, I’ve never been in a situation like this before. Is there a chance you will feel better about the situation in a week or so?
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- 6y ago
Probably not. I’m off my meds and I’ve emailed literally every therapist in my city that specializes in OCD in my area and they are not accepting my insurance. My shit’s kind of wilding out rn lol I’m between two excuses right now: It’s too hard on my own kid and he begged me not to do it anymore Or My grandma has dementia so she’s coming to live with us These are half lies but it’s the best I can come up with. Idk
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- 6y ago
Thanks dude!
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This might be asking for reassurance but I’m at a point I’m not sure if this is ocd and who better to ask than you guys. Also want to mention I have been to a psychologist who diagnosed me with ocd and I’ve tried to seek therapy through NOCD but had a bad experience so I’m just looking for an opinion I’ll take with a grain of salt. I’ve been through bouts of pocd that I got through but now it’s morphed into something that feels so different. It’s like harm ocd and pocd together and it revolves around my daughter. Before this happened I was a loving mother who valued my kid more than anything. Now this is happening and it feels so sinister. I’m getting urges to do something bad and I get these feelings like I want to do that and it’s like my brain gets foggy and my values slip away and I feel like I could do it. But then I get a moment of clarity and I’m like wait a minute I’ve never hurt anyone in my life nor have I ever thought about it and this is my child what is happening. But then I get that foggy brain again and it’s like I can’t see her as my child. I try to sit with it and it’s like I get this adrenaline rush and feel like I have to do it. But I know I don’t want to do that, but then it’s like trying to make me want to want to. I’m not sure if I’m just lacking insight and clarity because I’m overwhelmed with the groinals, urges, thoughts and feelings but I just keep obsessing over the fact that death is my only way out. I don’t understand what happened to me. It feels like this demonic oppression and I don’t know how to get through this one or if this is still something I can get through because it might not be ocd. I try to go with the thoughts and feelings and say yeah maybe, maybe not, or yeah I’m going to do that but it seems to fuel the feelings. I feel like I’m teetering between the person I was and this evil awful person who has no regard for others. I don’t want to be around my daughter and I’m just angry all the time. The fear and anxiety used to be something I relied on and I feel none of that now. I used to be able to say “well no matter what I feel or think I can control my actions” and now it feels like I cannot control my actions but I’ve never hurt anyone before. Someone please give it to me straight and tell me if you think this might not be ocd.
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- 18w ago
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
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