7710 ❤️
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275d ago
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7710 ❤️
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275d ago
I am scared to even have sex too… it’s like I don’t enjoy it anymore which is making me believe I don’t love him but before I got all stressed out I was able to make love without a problem and enjoy it. I had obsessive problems before hand about wax worrying if sex was the only reason I was with him…. I am really stuck in a loop and I don’t have money to do therapy on here…. 😞 I don’t even know if I truly wanna be with him or not anymore….. I still say I love you to him but I worry it doesn’t feel genuine….
7710 ❤️
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275d ago
Then I gained a lot of weight too like 40 pounds…. So I don’t feel attractive to myself either.. I wonder if that plays a role in this..
7710 ❤️
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275d ago
I had a relief moment earlier last week. I felt a spark and told him he was so handsome…. Why can’t I feel that way all the time… I know it’s impossible to be I miss being closer to him..
Jimbles42
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275d ago
For me it makes me feel absolutely certain, without a shadow of a doubt, that I don’t love him. At the end of the day, the best way I’ve found on my own is to try not to do any compulsions/reassurance seeking, and try not to force any feelings that I’m not feeling naturally (like love). Emotions are so fickle and they come and go and are not necessarily the truth. When you stop trying to force these things, the anxiety eventually lessens, and once the anxiety is gone or more manageable, these thoughts will not bother you so much. At the end of the day, love is a choice we make, not a feeling, and when you are not stuck in the OCD loop, it becomes very easy to know this and make the decision to love :)