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Sounds identical! I have that too. I actually get frightened that my thoughts don’t provoke rumination lately. Seems to be all about that eureka moment. “When I figure this out or get there then I’ll be happy”.
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I mean the idea comes from Mark Freemans you are not a rock book and not wanting to feel feelings. I am just noticing that my OCD is just one way of trying to control or escape those feelings. It’s interesting though because as my typical ruminations aren’t consuming as much mental energy I’m now just faced with me and nothing else. And I don’t like it! It’s just me and plain old anxiety and fear.
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Well i know exactly what you’re saying. I’m constantly going back to my “blue sky” of what I was before this but I think what is very interesting is that our OCD is trying to get us to feel better but it’s like a Chinese finger trap. The more we try, the more we struggle trying to get rid of it, the more we push for that EUREKA moment, the more we get caught in sadness, anxiety, and fear because we expect to feel something else and that is where it is dangerous, like throwing gasoline on a fire.
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100%! I’ve only done a week of ERP and I’m already beating myself up and getting defeated cause I keep getting tricked into worrying about something new and being spurred to solve a problem and find that eureka moment
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I can’t recall the book. I think it’s the happiness trap but it basically says looking for the solution is the problem.
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- 6y ago
I may add it to the reading list. I need to find something to get out of this rumination loop that’s just so debilitating.
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Interesting take. I just wrote about an hour ago how much I was struggling with the fact that I can’t find a coping technique to keep me happy, like a EUREKA moment. Like there are times that I am constantly thinking about my thoughts but I get no anxiety and that freaks me out. Maybe that’s my OCD trying to make me feel like I can control my emotions instead of just letting them ride. What do you think? It’s kind of similar.
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I have said that literal sentence before. It’s a very interesting take. I have to hand it to you. I don’t know how long I’ll be able to hold on to that awareness, well because, that’s my life haha but I hope you take it and it helps you.
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Omg I am going through this!!
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It kind of makes sense doesn’t it? No matter what we do, our OCD makes it easy to find something else to worry about? Whether we’re not getting anxious anymore, which causes us to get worried, or we find something else to worry about like for me, I’m worried of what lasting effects this is going to have on me. We’re trying to find happiness and eureka moments and when we don’t, we get worried about that. Does this make sense?
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Totally Like because we think oh this isn’t normal to feel this way we search to feel better like some form of perfect way of thinking is what’s normal but in reality nobody is perfect
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Problem is i think I’ve always thought being an adult meant you had it all sorted not reality at all!
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yes!! sometimes i get so caught up wondering if it’s my ocd if it’s it’s a normal thought, or wonder what i would be thinking like rn if i didn’t have ocd
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I’ve been meditating for like 6 months now and I just started a new session that kind of hit home especially with this article. It might not be about finding a eureka moment or that constant feeling of smiling and happy go lucky feeling like Buddy the Elf, but more of feeling of content and satisfied. If we keep trying to find that Buddy the Elf feeling, all we are doing is fueling our OCD, trying to find that feeling because we are prone to worry to try and find it.
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Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
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- 12w ago
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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Hi guys! I’m new to the community and I’ve recently received my OCD diagnosis (tho I’ve known about it since childhood). I’ve been somewhat spiraling lately as I wait for my first ERP session (hooray!) I was just wondering if any of you guys have received ERP for existential OCD and if it was successful? My existential OCD compulsions are more so mental and have been affecting me in the sense of dream/memory flashbacks and giving me a sort of “uncanny” feeling about everything around me. Any advice is appreciated! Thank you❤️
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