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Relate!!! My initial bout was in middle school when a gay girl had a crush on me, I dealt with it and actually became very comfy in my sexuality. Found women beautiful, enjoy lesbian porn on occasion, no desire for romance with women or actual sex. Then I was in yoga and saw a pretty girl and wabam the thoughts are back. I know it’ll pass though. This is just one of the many themes in my grab bag :) hurrah
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Relatable! Typically I joke around with my bf - saying “she’s pretty” or “did her saw her butt” (sorry if this offended anyone). However one day while watching a movie where a lesbian scene came up, I caught myself.. gasp! Maybe you’re a lesbian too. When triggered, I can’t even say such things, in a matter of fact I would feel sick to my stomach. This happened a year ago with two triggers and once this year. Just learned about this type of OCD last night & decided to seek help. It has been a living hell these past 3-4 weeks. I also just want to go back to before watching that movie and stop these intrusive thoughts.. I’m so tired 😮💨😮💨😔
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It’s nonstop and exhausting. I think the deep fear is becoming someone I’m not right now and it being terrible and changing my whole life. Are you mapping out a treatment plan or just becoming familiar?
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@BingBong1! I am currently seeing a NOCD Therapist and practicing ERP, resisting compulsions/rituals and saying “maybe, maybe not.” I just struggle sometimes to say “maybe, maybe not” cause I know how I identify but my brain taunts me about being someone I am not. 😐
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@BingBong1! I will be seeing / working with a therapist starting today. Hoping it’ll be effective and this nightmare can end!
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@Anonymous I hope that also. We got this.
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@BingBong1! The fear and anxiety is real and intense but we got this! Hoping the best for you also.
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Mood but it happened to me at 14 ): I'm 21 now and while it's never been as bad as I've seen on this app, I barely remember what it's like not to have these thoughts so that's fun lmao
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Tips for managing?
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@OCD_1day@aTime ✨ What’s helped me through the years is breathe through the triggers. I didn't find out this might be ocd until last year, but before that if a woman triggered me I would stare at the picture and remind myself to breathe deeply until I felt better. Also try to identify your compulsions and to reduce them little by little. I'm not an expert and this should be done carefully but stopping compulsions does help a bit
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@thebeginning I appreciate this!
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@OCD_1day@aTime ✨ Hope it helps and that you feel better soon!
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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I won’t explain this again if you’ve been or going through it you know what I’m talking about. I felt good about women about an hour ago and now I’m worrying again I’m anxious and the groinals are back and it’s so annoying because I can’t study. And honestly I’m so sick and tired of this. I’ve been a girl crazy my whole life and my mind randomly decides “well what if you are gay” like bro. I’ve never seen a guy that way and in general IT WAS NEVER SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT OR ASSOCIATED MYSELF WITH. IVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING TOWARDS A MAN AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT RANDOMLY FLIPPED. I CANT DO THIS BRO. WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH INSECURITIES ALREADY AND MY ATTRACTION WAS THE ONLY REAL THING I HAD LEFT AND NOW THIS. HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME GOD.
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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